Song Of The Day - Michael Jaskson - Thriller & Aaliyah - I don't wanna

Weird day today, I don't know how else to explain it. In APUSH I got to see my councelor. She tried to convince me to take AP Physics but I didn't want to. I found out my gpa and class rank. I have a gpa of 3.528 and I'm ranked 19th percent. Oh yeah Leslie and I were both sent up around the same time to the councelor. I said what's up and we looked at our class schedule. I then asked her what she was doing for Halloween, she's going to a party. lol now I know how bad Jason must have felt, she's just so quiet in a conversation. In HCT, we got to chose the classes that we were gonna go to for the trip to Grand Canyon University. Most of HCT I was in this weird trance, I couldn't really think straight in HCT. Tawni was out of it also but because she only got a couple hours of sleep. lol I scared her now, I told her about how scary the ring was. I told her how I had to clean up my room so that I didn't go to sleep and how I put a sheet over my tv. Good thing I didn't tell her that I was so scared that I was thinking about sleeping on the floor of my parents room. She sortof invited me to go since I'm not doing anything tonite for Halloween but I really don't wanna see the ring again. It took me a couple days to get over it. At lunch Jason wasn't there because he went to Prescott for Cross country. I went with Adam and Frank to put our shtt in the car so that we could jet right after school. In math I was feeling better for a little while. We had Ms. K as a sub and I was suprised that she remembered me from Topics of Algebra. We had Julianne teach the class. Amber told me during the middle of class that it looks like she has sperm on her face (she was dressed like a cat and she had painted whiskers). I couldn't look at her without laughing. Yeah and it's always so very funny when Jamie makes fun of Harry Potter...lol so very funny......

I don't know what I'm gonna do for Halloween tonite....I can A) go hand out candy B) go trick or treating with Frank C) Amber invited me to see the ring w/ her, Tawni, and Paul. I have a lot of homework so it's leaning towards A. Well that's it blogsta lates

Song Of The Day- Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There

So very very tired today probably from all the sugar. In APUSH we are learning about the most boringest section in the world's history. Even our teach said that this was going to be the most boring shtt that we may learn just not in those exact words.....I ate a caramel bar in APUSH because I was gonna pass out because I woke up at 5 because I had a Deca meeting. I got on a sugar rush that lasted into the first half of HCT. In HCT we were decorating the room for the little kids. I was working with Tawni most of the time hanging stuff up on the wall since she's pretty short. We finished up and the peeps I hung out with the peeps who were doing the pin the nose on the vamp. (Tawni, Big D(lol), Taya, and myself) The teach then called me to do face painting. Well to sum it up I did the worst job ever. I personally took myself out so that I wouldn't dissapoint a little kid who wanted to have a good face painting. I then felt the sugar rush dissapear and so did my energy. I crashed on the bed for the rest of the 1st part of class. The 2nd part of class the kids came in. They were cute and reminded me when I was a little kid. Mike Philips had this one kid that just loved him. She did everything for him. She tried to win for him so that he would be impressed. When she lost she would give him a big hug. Damn I should have been one of the kid helpers. There was this one kid who didn't wanna play pin the nose on the vamp and I felt bad that he didn't get any candy so I went up to him and gave him a tootsie roll. It made me feel real good. I tried to do it some no one could see me but Tawni saw me and said that's why she calls me a teddy bear. After all the kids left we had to clean up. Afterwards I went to my desk where Tawni began questioning me about the "blog". She kept trying to look at me to crack me into telling her but I stayed strong, but several times I was about to because I have a soft spot for the puppy dog face. She then says "I think I know what it's about but I want you to say it" Now do I think she knows what it's about...yes I guarantee that she does but I still didn't say anything because she doesn't know for sure if she's right. It would lift a burden if I were to tell her but the reason why I haven't always stays in my mind. The reason is because I don't want things to become awkward, she the only person outside of family I can talk so honestly. No one knows some of the stuff I tell her even people I've known since grade school. She keeps asking about it that sooner or later and if I almost cracked today how much longer can I last. After class I ate pizza that made me completely sick. I felt like throwing up.....After lunch Jason and I went to my car to put away my jacket, Lesly almost always parks next to me, I think Jason got a little jealous. In math I was out cold....that's about it for math

Well let see some other stuff....

1st game of the season for the suns tonite, gonna watch it probably while doing my homework......

Halloween's tomorrow, got nothing planned...maybe i'll watch a movie just as long as it's not the ring.....so scary......

I feel bad for Jason, he was trying to talk to Lesly to see if she wanted to do something on Halloween but he didn't get the chance to.

My romantic mood is fading but will always be there as long as my feelings stay bottled......

I'm soooo tired.....later blogga

just got off the phone with Tawni. I wasn't expecting her to call and she actually woke me up from my nap but it's was cool. We talked about a lot of stuff, yeah a lot of different stuff. She kept trying to get me to tell her what is in my "secret" part of my blog. I think she knows more than she's letting on but oh well. She had to go and I had to pick up my mom.

Anyways I have a sketchy plan for the weekend although it's only Tues. My friends want me to do something with them on Fri. On Sat or Sun if Tawni isn't grounded then were gonna watch Sweet Home Ala. Also on Sat I'm gonna rent Titanic because I heard the song by Celine Dion.

Well I'm sticking with my plan to not do anything, which I think is the right decision right now. but if you know me then you know that i'm a fickle person so that could change.

Well til tomorrow I bid you goodnight dear blogsta...lol

Song Of The Day- Craig David - World Filled With Love & Nate Dogg- The Streets

Pretty good day today.....hmm....nothing in APUSH....Amber gave me a note to give to Tawni so I gave it to her. She didn't have a ride to her clinical so I gave her a ride. On the way to my clinical they had Thunderbird under heavy construction and the construction workers kept getting in my way, they just don't care what's coming at you at 40 mph. Oh well pretty boring at my clinical. My dr. had 4 mammogram/pap smear so I didn't get to go in often. I picked up Tawni at her clinical and we went back to school. I gave Tawni my cell # again but this time she wrote it so it's alot neater. I didn't have enough time to go out to lunch so I ate in the cafeteria with the group. They were already talking about what we were gonna do this weekend. Yeah they gave me a hard time about wanting to see Sweet Home Ala but that's cool. Jason's cross country ends Fri so he can drive when we go out to lunch. In math, we took an easy ass test. I think I did pretty well but I'm not positive. Same routine after school, dropped Frank, then went to pick up my sis. No homework 2nite so I'm just gonna chill at home and maybe get some jamba juice later tonight.

Few things I'd like to point out:

My romantic phase is easing off a little....it's still there but not as strong

The weird calls keep coming on my cell phone, it's really irritating me.....

4 weeks and no Sweet Home Ala....fukk

Get to help with the coop kids halloween I think that's tomorrow....nothing like pin the tail on the vamp

I really need to get myself to shave using a normal blade. I tried to use it but I kept imagining myself getting bladed, then when my mom try to do it, she got close until I started freaking out....I don't wanna buy another $60 electric razor but I don't wanna have a woodsman beard....

Alright...I got links to work

Note to self....when giving Tawni my blog don't use wingdings to censor it

Later blogsta

I really hate my new cell #. 1st I always get this call every hour on the hour and on the caller id it was unavailable, but when I answer they hang up. Next this guy keeps calling, sounds like a gansta wannabe who keeps calling me asking for Mario. Why couldn't the phone company give me a phone number that wasn't so fukked up?

Changed my template again...more colorful.....O yeah I'd also like to thank Atanyrate3 for her e-mails yesterday

Song Of The Day - Craig David - You don't miss your water (til the well runs dry)

Pretty boring day.....Nothing really happened in APUSH. In HCT I went to Dr. Atluri's office. Pretty normal, one pt after another. I got let out at 11:30 though. I went home changed out then went to Carl's Jr to eat. I took my time because I didn't wanna come back to school too soon. After lunch I got back in my car with Braiden to give him his cd. In math, Amber was acting stange..lol something about Wambats and llamas.....also I don't know why, but I gave her my blog. She already knows the part I'm hiding from Tawni so other than that nothing out of the ordinary. So if you are reading this Amber then I guess you remembered the address. Oh yeah I think I gave Tawni a wrong # so she said. She said she tried to call but she got a message that said the phone was disconnected. So 4 weeks and no Sweet Home Ala.....When I finally do watch it, it better be worth the wait.....After school I gave Frank a ride home, Leslie and Leah were parked next to me and I think Leah was trying to say something to me but I was talking to Ian and Bryan.

I burnt Craig David's new cd a month ahead...it's pretty sick I haven't really listened to all the songs yet but so far You don't miss your water and Rise and fall are the sicc songs.

Well that's it, later blogga

Song of the Day- Craig David- Rise and Fall

this is total bs right now nothing this whole entire weekend has gone right.....im fukkin pissed at my sis because she left to her friends house all weekend leaving me with all the responsibility of watching the patients....my whole fukkin weekend has gone to shtt because I was barely able to leave the house until it was too late....out of everything that I was supposed to do this weekend none of it came to be....no jackass, no sweet home ala, no shelter, nothing. I'm so pissed right now....

For those visitors who I do not know and read my blog I'd like to know your opinion on my blog and any advise you would have. Thanx a bunch for those that have already. My email address is Jamzgo@hotmail.com

Today was one boring day, I did absolutely jack crap. After carl's jr I cleaned up the bathroom then took an hour nap. Tawni ended up not calling so there was a big hole in my schedule. Everyone was working, Adam was at his friends house, Jason's in CA. I didn't want to stay in the house so I drove around looking for somewhere interesting to eat. I was going to go to Barro's pizza but there is no one there. What was pretty funny was that Barro's is placed right next to Peter piper pizza. Makes no sense but whatever floats their boat. I went in PPP to play video games but they had chitty games. I left and went to #1 bro's pizza. I drove around a little more then went home. I dunno what my plans are for tomorrow, if I can find a ride to the shelter then I'll go otherwise I'm just going to kick it at home.

just got back from Carl's Jr. Adam was on his lunch break so I met up with him. On my way over to Carl's I had to turn right, the volvo lost it's traction and the front wheels weren't doing anything while the rear wheels were moving forward. Luckily the volvo traction control kicked so that I didn't fishtail. lol at Carl's Jr. they had these 7th or 8th graders having a carwash. The funny part was it is pouring today and all weekend long. Sux for them.

Song Of The Day- SWV- Weak

Ok so last nite didn't go as planned but it was still a pretty decent night. Adam, Mike, and I went to Fazzoli's but Ian called in sick to watch Jackass with CJ and angelo but Brian was working there. I dunno what's with those two, wasn't it only a couple months ago Ian hated his guts and now he's helped get Rhodes a job with him....So anyways we go to AMC to watch Jackass. I was gonna buy the tickets because I looked the oldest although I'm the youngest. I go up to the guy and ask for 3 tickets. The guy asks to look at my ID and I think I'm busted. However I kept my confidence and acted like I was old enough. The guy took my ID and looked at it for the longest time. Finally he says to me, you can only buy 1 ticket since your 17.....lol what a dumbass......I know where he'll be working for the rest of his life...... We don't wanna kick it at the mall so we go to Harkins. We don't know what we wanna see so I suggest we see the ring cuz everyone says it's scarier than shit. Well about the Ring: it is scarier than shit, my god I was shtttless. During this one part of the movie, it caught me by surprise and my natural insticts make me throw a punch when I'm scared, so I almost pop Adam square in the face. About 2 inches off, luckily I was able to control myself before it happened. The scariest part was the end but I'll keep it under wraps for those who haven't seen it. After the movie Adam was all pissed at me for suggesting to see the movie, he was the most scared out of all of us. When I got home I didn't wanna go to sleep so I cleaned my room til 1 in the morning then passed out.


Ok so my plan for tonite....Im gonna go eat lunch with Adam and Mike...................if Tawni calls then I'll see Sweet Home Alabama otherwise i'll have a gaping hole in my schedule today...

Song Of The Day- Michelle Branch- Everywhere

today was a great day....not only was it a Fri but everything seemed to go my way except for one. I had to go to school early because I had to study for my test. I saw Amber and Tawni at the bus stop this time. In APUSH I did a real good job on my quiz. In HCT I did good on my terms quiz but I fukked up on my Test. Oh well I guess I shouldn't be greedy. I gave Tawni last weeks joj and once again she always has to know what's in wingdings. I hope she doesn't spend time trying to decipher it. During break I got caught in a real awkward position. I was walking with Tawni and Ian comes up beside me, he starts talking to me and the whole time I was wondering if those two were gonna say something. Luckily he just avoided her and I tried to get out of the convo as quick as possible. 2nd half of HCT Tawni had a h/a (headache) so I let her lay on my arm while we watched the STD movie. After class I walked her to her locker and gave her my cell # so that we could watch Sweet Home Alabama. I then turn back to look for Adam and we go to lunch. I ate lunch then went with Adam to go move his car to the back. I guess his sis moved out so he gets to keep the cavilier until his sis moves back in. I go in Adam's class and help him with his homework until the bell rings. In math, nothing out of the ordinary..... The teacher asked me to teach on Thur since she won't be here. I didn't wanna so I declined. I helped Amber with her math also. After school I grabbed my stuff and got Frank and got in the car. I was trying to rush home cuz report cards came out today and I was curious. So I cut 3 cars in the parking lot...lol....this girl that I cut in front of started giving me the finger. I opened up the window and she was bitching at me to get at the end of the line. I told her that if she ever wants to cut in front of me then she's allowed. Then when I closed the window me and Frank laughed our ass off....I drop Frank and go home since Barbie had early release.....I got my report card....straight A's...hella good....I showed my dad and he gave me a choice, I can either get my car now or I can let my mom get her car now and I'll get mine next year. I dunno what I'll pick i'll probably ask a couple of my friends then make my decision when I go to visit the volvo xc90.

My plans for the weekend are subject to change but here they are

Fri. clean up my room, then if I can I'll go see Jackass with Adam and Mike. We'll also visit Ian at Fazzoli's.

Sat- depending if Tawni remembers to call we'll go see Sweet Home Alabama. If that doesn't pan out I'll use my free passes and go see the ring. Jeff said it was a scary movie. Also more cleaning of the house

Sun- homework day. Also me and Pat are gonna go feed the homeless for church.

Well that's it for now later blogs.

Song Of The Day- Joaquin- Hands of Time & Mariah Carey- I can't live w/o you
It has been 0 day(s) since I've listened to a slow jam
(yup that really lasted long, who would have thunk it would be so hard to not listen to slow jams, the only cd's I ever played for the past 4 days have been starting line and Nelly. So I decided to just go with my gut feelings and listen to the slow jamz)

Ok so let me explain my post from yesterday, someone found my blog by using keywords Jamz, and journey. I thought at first it was Tawni but today she told me that it wasnt' her.

So anyways about my day....In APUSH I had to go to the thunderdome again for class scheduling for my senior year here is the list that I came up with:

AP Comp and Lit
American Economics H/American Government H
Ap Calculus 1-2 H
Ap Calculus 3-4 H
Ceramics 1 or Photo 1
AP Computer Science 1 H
AP Physics 1-2 H or Physics 1-2
Humanites H
alternates were Psycology/sociology and journalism
These aren't final but that's what I got so far

In HCT I asked Tawni if she read the blog which she said didn't but she thinks it's about her. I told her about the "dirty couch" comment and she told me that she's pissed at Ian and Michael (her ex). Anyways today was pretty easy day, took a test, got an A, had Andre Ratliff's mom come and talk about Bryman school, ate pizza. Other than that same ole, same ole. I really think Tawni knows but for the time being I'll play dumb. After class I talked to Tawni for a while then Adam caught up and I talked to him. We went to his locker where he said to me "so how long have you and Tawni been married now" lol stupid Adam...... Lunch same ole same ole, wait that's not true I bought mints. I had them in my pocket the whole time and I forgot bout them....lol..... In math, umm pretty normal, talked to Amber and told her not to say anything, but I still have doubts about it...o well...... I got my passes from Aaron (Harry Potter). He says that he's working box office tomorrow so if I come in he'll hook me up. After school I dropped off Frank then went home since my sis had early release today. I chilled at home for a while then dropped my lil sis at her friends house. Now I'm here....

Now some random things......

Someone keeps calling me, I'm really pissed right now, I don't appreciate getting calls at 3:30 in the morning.....

I don't get my sis, she says this guy spencer (funny name) keeps bugging her yet she gets mad at me when I offer to run him over with the volvo..j/k

So if wasn't Tawni or Amber reading my blog.....who could it be

I guess I drove by Tawni and Amber when they were at the bus stop this morning....I was half awake in the morning so I guess I didn't hear them call me, either that or I was blasting Nelly....

Where am I gonna find the Joaquin CD?

Lates blog

hmmm...hmmmmm....hmmmmm.....I have suspicions now....I really do

Well I've created my dream blog....it is called DreamScape you can reach it by going to www.jamzdream.blogspot.com

Song Of The Day- None.....
It has been 3 day(s) since I've listened to a slow jam

Very weird day...... I can't even remember what I did in APUSH anymore. In HCT the first part was pretty normal, during the break I got some water and was waiting for Adam but I didn't see him so I went back to class with Tawni, Becky, and Natalie. After break I crash on the bed and Tawni sits on the bed next to me. She starts asking me why she can't read the hidden part of the journal. Anyways I could have done it like I've always done it and dance around the question but this time I told her that it was about this girl and how it progressed from nowhere to I like her. It was weird of her to bring it up so abruptly like that but then she started asking why I can't tell her who the girl is. The next part got me pretty worried, she was like com'on I won't tell, then she asked if it was her. I wasn't sure if she just threw that up or if she is starting to suspect. I started getting a little paranoid and she noticed it. So later, she gives me a pic of her homecoming while the teacher talks about the coop halloween party. I signed up with Tawni to do the pin the tail on the vampire. Then we just talked while she laid on my leg. I told her that she reminded me of Adam's dog who likes to sleep on me too. Oh yeah I also crushed my finger when we were rearranging the desks, it hurt like a bitch I couldn't feel it for the longest time but Tawni gave it a kiss which made it feel better. Anyways I don't think she's read it but I think she suspects. At lunch nothing out of the ordinary. In math, Harry Potter forgot about my passes. Now probably the dumbest thing I could have done happened. First off I need to learn how to lie, during class Amber asked me if I liked Tawni. When asked the question I started turning into a beet which pretty much gave that away. She kept saying that I like Tawni but she wasn't quite sure yet, but I thought that it would be better to tell her and also to keep it a secret. So now one of her close friends know, lol just great, my prediction is that she'll tell Tawni by the end of the month. Afterschool I went to Robots with Adam and Sopheak. We met up with Ian but once again I got a little upset when he was like "where's dirty couch?" I didn't know what the hell he was talking about so he was "you know Tawni" I said that wasn't cool and I think he was able to translate my opinion with my facial expression that I wasn't joking. He doesn't know and hopefully this whole thing will remain on the d/l. After Robots I went to Adams and he crushed me in NBA2k3 because Jason kidd fouled out by halftime. I then go to circuit city trying to look for Joaquin but no avail.

Song of The Day- The Starting Line - Decisions, Decisions
It has been 2 day(s) since I've listened to a slow jam

Today was a good day I think. First off I had yet another dream. This time lets just say I "walked away". I went to school and talked to the group (Jason, Jason, Ryan, Braden, Bobs, Rock) like always. In APUSH we went to the thunderdome where the marketing teachers were trying to get us to take business classes. I sat next to my friend Zach who's dreams are to become an actor. So in case he becomes a huge actor I can show people this entry and tell them that I knew Zach Roesler....lol...j/k.... So anyways for HCT I went to clinicals again. I went back to the Vets and had a pretty good time. I talked mostly to Omar and Tracy. Their both pretty cool. Omar was telling that if I were ever to become a radiation oncologist then I would have to invite him over to play golf. The Dr. over there were trying to convince me to become a vet. They kept telling me that being a vet would be better for me as a person...lol...they didn't convince me though..... I watched mainly surgeries today. Two dogs were spaied. I also got to see the dogs bladder. It was pretty sick, it looked like a water balloon with veins. Anyways the dr. needed to get a urine sample so I got to squeeze it. They finished early so they let me out 15 minutes early. I went to Mickie D's again and got the double quarter pounder with a med drink again. Something funny happened, I was reading an article about the relationship between violence and video games when one of the female hispanic workers came to me. She asked me if I spoke spanish to which i told her no. She then asked if I were a doctor, I told her that I was a medical student and not a doctor. I don't think she understood me because she started asking me about applications in my office. She started talking spanish and I was trying my best to try and talk to her but don't forget I got a B in spanish. Finally I just said, "no I don't have any applications". She said thank you and left....lol I was making the dumbest hand gestures that she probably thought I was weird. Anyways I finished up lunch then went on my way back to school. I got to 67th and Greenway at noon but I didn't wanna get to school yet so I went to the pioneer neighborhood for about 10 minutes to kill time. I finally went back to school 15 minutes later. I went to the cafeteria and sat down and talked to Jason and Adam. I also sat next to Mike Mofetta. Pretty funny guy from my comp prog. 1-2 from frosh year. After lunch I got my stuff and then went to Adam's locker. Tawni came up and said hi and told me that Amber told her about my ordeals yesterday. Adam asked why I didn't tell him about it then asked me why Tawni knows everything and such....pretty funny..... Anyways in math our group quiz got a B...that sux..... I told Amber and Christie about the bladder thing which they thought was pretty funny. Oh yeah on Sat when I went to see the transporter, that Harry Potter kid in my math (I think is name is Aaron) was working at Harkins. So today I asked him if he could sneak us in the movies, he said he couldn't but he did say that he was gonna hook me up with movie passes. I felt kinda bad that he's gonna hook me up with tickets yet I call him harry potter, but I guess this is just the universe repaying me for my chewed up pencil....lol.... Hopefully he doesn't wanna become the bestest of friends with me...j/k.... Ok well after that it's pretty much the same routine, drop Frank, go home, go to Kachina to pick up Barbie, then go back home.

I think my plan is working, it's been 2 days and no slow jams, it's been hard but as long as I'm on my 12 step program I'm on my way...j/k

I think that I'm gonna create a separate blog for my dreams where I say what my dream is then try to interpret them....

I did such a chitty job on the car. I guess it's hard to tell if the car is dry when there is no sun

My favorite cd is the starting line, there's just so many songs that I can relate to, I'd say my 3 fav cd's go in this order

1) The starting Line
2) Slow Jams I-IV (I is my favorite but IV would have beaten it if it weren't for the old songs in the end which seem out of place)
3) Usher-8701

Well that's all blogger

Oh yeah I forgot to write I'm gonna buy the Joaquin cd, Hands of time. I heard it's pretty sick and it's impossible to find online

Song Of The Day- Hometown Hero - 18
It has been 1 day since I've listened to a slow jam

Ok today started out to be a bad day but ended up being an ok day. I didn't turn in my journal for HCT because I forgot to get my doctor's signature. I don't think anything happened in APUSH. Amber has my Beauty and the Beast movie now. Hmm...HCT I went to the Veterinarian. I got lost because I thought I knew where it was but it turned out to be a different hospital. I luckily found it just in time. I learned how saddenning the medical field can be. My first pt. was a dog that was 15 years old and was going to be put to sleep. The owner looked to be in her 50-60's and was crying her eyes out. She kept hugging the dog and told the dog that she loved her and she'll never forget her. It was pretty sad. She couldn't bare to watch it so she left and they finished her off. Then they put the dog in a black trash bag which will be sent to the creamator. I also saw the fattest black cat ever. They called him Jack the Fat Catter. lol funny name I should have come up with that. Also I saw this english bulldog that was pretty cool. About halfway through it though I had absolutely nothing to do so I did some pacing and I found out how to get over my romantic mood. I assured myself there is nothing I can do and that I should take a sabbatical from slow jams. So the whole day I was listening to Ludacris, NERD, some gangsta rap. I was tempted to listen to my slow jams but I held up. So anyways after the Vet I went to Mickie D's and got some food. A cute spanish girl was working there I talked to her for a little bit but I left. In math I had to take a quiz but we got to work in our groups. My group was some Soph and Amber. This other girl was supposed to work with us but she irritates me and she didn't wanna work with us so oh well. After school I dropped off Frank then went to Adams to start our little tournament. I played for 15 minutes but had to leave to pick up my sis. I dropped her off then went back to Adam's. Mike smith came over and I felt bad for him cuz he seemed left out. By the way I destroyed Adam Nets 87 Mavericks 69. I came home and left again because I had to get my signature for HCT. I finally got it and went home again and this time I washed the car. It took me about an 1hr and a half but it looks sweet. Also this kid drops by my house trying to sell magazines. He tells me that if he reaches a certain amount of points then he'll get $2000 and a trip to Cancoon. He gives me a paper that says all the magz he has to offer to which I decline. He then asks if I like to read, I answer sometimes, he then tells me that it has pictures. I got really pissed when he said that but I remained calm and told him to leave and that I'm not interested. lol maybe Adam's right, one day my rage is gonna build up to where I unleash it all on one person...lol... Anyways my parents are going on a date and are gonna see the ring. And me I'm gonna kick it and listen to fast music. I've realized that majority of my songs on the computer are slow jams or are about relationships so I'm pretty much fukked. Well that's it later blogsta.

Cardinals win yet again....My prediction for the super bowl....Arizona vs. San Diego....lol...maybe not

Shtt gotta break outta my jam. Some of my friends have been noticing a change. and you know what I've also noticed is that my song of the day always reflects on my emotions at the time. I mean earlier I was putting on some jamz now lately i've put slow in front of them. Ite well i'm done lata

Song of The Day- Isyss-Single for the Rest of My Life (best lyric: "if I can't have you, i'll just be single for the rest of my life)
Weezer/Penguin - earth Angel(best lyric:"Earth angel, Earth angel, Will you be mine? My darling dear, Love you all the time, I'm just a fool, A fool in love with you)

3rd week in a row that I miss watching sweet home alabama. I tried to watch it Fri but I couldn't ditch Frank. And now today I couldn't ditch Jason. I was all set to go, I told Adam my plans and everything but right when I was about to leave Jason calls and wants me to go with him to look for a new cd player. I figure that I'm gonna go for a couple hours then come back then go to Sweet Home Alabama. We go to best buy then we go to Ultimate electronics. They were giving away the cheapest free water but water is water so no complaining. We then go to Ray's Pizza to get some dinner. There we talked about relationships since he's my relationship friend. Both Adam and Jason guessed who I like which I guess wasn't that hard. He knows what I'm going through right now, wanting to do something but also knowing that you can't. I also gave him some advise about Leslie. I told him that we don't know really what type of person leslie really is whether she's stuck up or not. Overall pretty good conversation..... We then went to Jamba juice so he could get something to drink. I was hoping to see Christie and not Moose but instead we saw Lidsey Hamry, one of the most stuck up bitch ever. (she never did anything to me but the way i heard her talk about some people made me wanna slap her). So afterwards Jason convinced me to see it next week. So we went to his house where i got interagated by Jason's parents about Jason's homecoming and why I didn't go to homecoming. After I explained it to them we went to blockbuster. Jason's bro Reese is by far the weirdest little bro ever. He kept doing weird stuff like roll up in a ball in the corner and bark like a dog and rub up against Jason's leg. yeah it got really uncomfortable when he started doing that to me. Thank god Jason's parents told him to stop. We went to blockbuster and got NCAA 2003. We played it for a little bit then watched SNL cuz John McCaine was the host. Not very funny...... Well I guarantee myself to watch Sweet Home Alabama no matter what. Remind me, yell at me, call me, hit me and tell me to go see it......lol...j/k.......Well I'm gonna go to bed later y'all

I had a really weird dream last night....I dreamt that I had to get 2 injection shots. I was scared as hell and started running. It led to the front of my house. I got one of the shots which didn't hurt but the second shot I started panicking and they injected me in the wrong spot so they had to do it again. I wouldn't let them so I went in the house and locked the door. The weird part of all of it was that it was so real. It was i was in control of the dream. When I was running away from them they were trying to persuade me to stop and I was actually thinking it over. When I slammed the door on them, I opened it back up on them because it wasn't right. It's hard to explain but I had total control and thought in it. Even when I was thinking about whether or not to take the shot I began thinking of in HCT when I had to get a shot. I don't even know why I would dream of getting a shot because I'm not getting one any time soon. hmm....weird

Yeah earlier today I had to take Barbie and her friends to burger king. On the way over I almost got into an accident, I didn't even see him, maybe he turned from one of the sidestreets. When I got back home I watched Brotherhood of the Wolf with my dad. Good movie, I was expecting it to be some foreign movie which had too deep of a meaning for me to understand but it had a good storyline. I'd recommend it. My plans are still in affect for tonight. I'm sooo broke right now, I've been seeing too much movies, renting too much stuff, going out to eat too much times, it's really eating up my wallet. Oh well that's all for now blogsta later

Song Of The Day-Celine Dion-My heart will go on

heheheheh.....tonight was just the funniest night unintentionally. Ok first I went back to Adams house and then we went to go rent NBA2k3. We played that for a little while then i chilled on the couch while he played tetrinet. Oh his dog katie always sleeps on me, while her other dog mollie is scared the crap out of me. So we call Frank to see if he's gonna come and he is so I wasn't able to watch Sweet Home Alabama today. Instead we watched the Transporter. lol to sum it up, it turned out to be a gay porno. Ok like the first 30 minutes it like one long BMW commercial. Oh yeah like every ten minutes he has to take off his shirt. but the thing that completely freaked me out was when he started wrestling a group of guys in tar. They even gave him a separate shot of him pretty much bathing himself in tar. Adam, Frank, and me were like "what the fukk". We came talking about how it turned out really weird. Ok so on our way to Adam's house were just talking when all of a sudden I hear Frank yell "KKK". I turn my head and see out of the corner of my eye a figure in a white sheet. Me and Frank started laughing our asses off, and Adam wanted to see it so we u-turned and it turned out to be a ghost statue for halloween. But it looked exactly like KKK. We drove by it like 4 times each time laughing. It was probably the funniest thing I've seen in a while. After that I get in the volvo and drop off Frank, then I go home. My dad is standing in the front of the house and tells me to go look for my sis and her friends in the neighborhood. So I drive around for about 10 minutes and I see them. I give them a ride to the house and now I'm here..... I just thought the whole night was hilarious.

So here are some observations and random things.....

lol....Adam's dog Katie always tries to sleep on me and it always reminds me of Tawni sleeping on my arm

Adam said something that got me real quiet he said "You know what James, I know you wanna hook up with Tawni, don't lie to me...." he then said something that I don't wanna repeat but it did get me pretty angry but I kept my cool. I know it didn't bug me before but now that I know her real well the comment didn't really go over to well with me and also from what Tawni said Ian didn't tell everyone the whole story. I didn't know how to reply so I just tried to change the conversation.

I drove by the park to see if my sis and friends were there, they weren't but I did see 3 little kids playing on the playground. I found that pretty funny since it was like 10:30 at night, and I don't like going to the park at night. (of course their parents were there)

Well no Sweet Home Alabama tonight, but here is a sketchy plan for tomorrow.....I'll go see Sweet Home Alabama tomorrow....yes!!!!!.....and wash the car.....hmm....watch Windtalkers and Insomnia......

Oh yeah 1 last thing, the movie that I really wanna watch right now is Titanic.......I was listening to the radio when I heard "my heart will go on" and I remember how i always thought that the song was sad....so now I have the urge to watch it.....

Well the whole romantic mood mode is here yet again.....and you all know who it's from.......

Song of the Day- Starting Line- This Ride (The lyrics "What do you see, when you look at me.....")

Got out of school early today....Amber wrecked part of her car and she's been grounded for 3 weeks. I guess when she backed up she hit a pole which put a hole in her car. That sux for her..... In HCT I took my midterm, got an 87 percent. Not bad but I could have done better. Anyways afterwards Tawni layed on my arm while I took a little nap. I gave her a part of my joj (Journey of Jamz) to read. Yeah I think that she can read my blog but only the ones that I print up. It was all there except for one line where it talked about the so called "faceless" woman. I put it in Wingdings. I don't think she can decipher it but then again I also didn't think that she could find my blog which turned out to be easier than shtt. Anyways after school, me, Frank, and Adam dropped by Franks so that he could get some money. Then we went to Adams house waiting for Jason. When Jason got there we left to go to IN-N-Out. We stopped by Bank of America so Adam could get some money. We acted like a bunch of asses and I felt bad for the lady behind us because I could tell she was getting irritated. So we then go to IN-n-out and got some food. We then went to Desert Ridge and went inside Jillians. The place is nice, almost has a Las Vegas sort of feel. Too bad the place was so hella expensive that none of us wanted to play. We were messing around and Frank saw a machine that has tokens and you can try to push them and if you do you get to keep them. He tried to tilt the machine but the alarm rang off, so we had to jet before they like arrested us. We then went to Journey's to look for the a girl that works there the so called Playboy playmate (according to Jas he said she was that hot). Of course she wasn't there so you tell the dissapointment on our faces. j/k..... We went to Tower Records and were looking at the posters. Same ole...same ole..... we went back to Adams house but Jas had to leave because he had to run some errands. Then me and frank watched a p. diddy marathon on mtv while Adam took a crapper. I left because I wanted to get in a nap or something. So I dropped off Frank then went home.

I'm not sure anymore about what i'm doing tonight, If Frank comes tonight then we may watch either red dragon or the ring, if it's just me and Adam then were gonna watch Sweet home alabama. (of course we gotta keep it on the dl and were not gonna sit next to each other). If I don't watch Sweet Home Alabama tonight then I'm for sure gonna watch it tomorrow alone because it's been bothering me for the longest time.

Well that's it for now, later blogsta

hmmm.... another day, another nap..... yeah I have been hella tired lately, i've had too many tests and homework that I've had a hard time getting a good amount of sleep. Well after I wrote in you earlier today I passed out on my parents bed yet again. This time however I woke up at 5:30. I didn't wanna pass out again so I went to Jamba juice wasn't but Moose was(hmmmmmmm...lol....inside joke with Tawni). I didn't know that she worked there but I had a hard time looking at her because everytime I look at her i'm thinkin (hmmmmmmm). So after that my sis called up to get picked up at the dance. I picked her up at her friends house, she was telling me about this guy that kept trying to pull her closer to him. I asked her if she wanted me to take care of him but she said no. So I dropped by Fry's to see if Bobs was working. He wasn't and they didn't have any graphing paper so I went to Albertsons to see if Matt was working. He was and I got some graphing paper. I got home and watched some Friends. lol pretty funny show, they thought Chandler j.o.'s to sharks. Well I got some math homework to do and a HCT midterm so I'll write ya later blogga.

Song of The Day- Boyz II Men- Luv N U

Well a pretty average day with nothing special happening. Nothing in APUSH.....Studied with Tawni in HCT and also we had to try to find cancer bumps in the breast and the testicles....fun lol....j/k..... Nothing in math....... I didn't drop off Frank because I couldn't find him after school, I went home only to discover that I left my folder at school so I had to drive back and get it. Barbie went to the dance.....hmm that's all that I can really think of that has happened today. Now that I think about it, it was a pretty boring day today. Oh well if something worthy of noting happens I'll let you know.

Song of The Day- Nu Flavor- Open Arms

Well today I have done some thinking and I have come up with a decision but I'll get to that. First my day actually went pretty good. I woke up late this morning so I missed my DECA meeting. I was oversleeping because I had to study for my test last night. My test in APUSH went pretty good since it was all multiple choice. Other than that nothing worth noting in APUSH. Oh yeah I didn't get to see a teaser for the play. That sux because I'm not going to go tonight to watch it. Anyways in HCT it was mostly studying for the midterm. I worked with Tawni most of the time. Yeah when class started I was dead tired. I actually fell asleep for about 15 minutes before Tawni woke me up. So we studied (not really though since it should be easy). The second half of class Tawni was tired so I lent my shoulder for her to sleep on. She fell asleep on my shoulder for about 15 minutes. She felt comfortable and passed out so I didn't want to disturb her so I had to hide her face everytime the teacher would walk by. When she woke up we talked about the journal for the rest of class. She wants to know what I'm hiding but I didn't budge but I did give her some clues about what it was about and who knew about it (Christie and Alicia). I also told her a little bit about the turning point in the journal. She says she won't look at the journal unless I say she can. She also doesn't think that I'm shy but I told her that I'm not shy to people I trust and that I can trust her and don't need to shell up. Anyways after class I walked her to her locker then went to Adams locker to see if he was here but he wasn't so I just went to lunch. In math nothing worth noting again. After class I talked to Amber a little about her voice (it was hoarse). I told her that she should drink tea and that she sounds like the receptionist from Monsters INC.....lol...... After school I went to the Robots meeting with Sopheak. Not a lot of peeps there today. Anyways I let Tawni borrow my Beauty and the Beast. I talked to Ryan, Sopheak, and Tawni. Anyways the meeting was short and I took Sopheak home. Now I'm home. Well I'll write in you later cuz I'm doing some paperwork for my mom. Later blogsta

O yeah I forgot about my decision..... well while Tawni was sleeping on my arm I was thinking and I've come to the conclusion that her friendship means alot to me and risking that friendship is a risk that i can't take. So for the time being I'll remain on the free agent market and stay there to wait and see how things unfold.

Hey well I'm home now...... Yeah I was letting Tawni read the parts of my blog that I didn't want her to read in the library. I was thinking about letting her read the whole thing but I didn't think it wasn't the right time for that. She knows however how to get to my blog although she says that she won't unless I say she can. O yeah I told her my dream about the biological clouddust but told her the person I rescued was a faceless woman...lol.....(If you wanna know who it was go to Sunday, Sept 15) However I dunno, I trust her but one of these days she may be bored and she'll be like "hmm...maybe I should read james Blog". Anyways hmmm.... I got an A on my math test. So right now I'm A across the board on my report card so far. I have a test in APUSH tomorrow maybe, it depends on when the school teaser happens. After school I dropped off Adam and Frank. Oh yeah I parked next to Lesly and I cut them off so they had to wait like an extra 10 minutes to get out of the parking lot....funny stuff..... anyways I got to see Frank's truck. It's like a rednecks truck, but the thing is made of steel, that thing would crush anything that got in it's way plus it's v8. Anyways now that homecoming has passed now everything is back to normal sort of. Well that's it for right now write in ya later blogsta

Song of the Day- Blaque-808 (requested by tawni)
My song of the Day- Brandy- Everything I do/Have you ever/almost doesn't count

Hmmm.... I'm at school right now in the library with Tawni reading my blog.(only the parts that are acceptable). She wants to read them but I'm "censoring" them. We still have half an hour in the library. The PSAT sucked....I didn't do too well but who knows maybe I did... Tawni says she did well except for math. We were really bored so she got some dream books and we were trying to interpret our dreams. All my dreams according to this one book led to sex. Getting shot meant that I was sexually frustrated. Yeah really..... Tawni says hi...... Tiano if you are reading this you know why this is censored....... Well I'll write in you later so that I can tell you stuff in more detail since Tawni won't be right next to me......
Later blogsta

Just got back from Adam's house. We played NBA Live and he killed me in the first game but I killed him in the second. I tried to call Jas but no one is answering his phone. I was trying to find out how his date with Lesly went.

Song of The Day- Selena- Dreamin of You
(There are barely any new good slow jams so I have to resort to early hits)

Well just got back from the hospital. I was shadowing Dr. Swaminatian. He's a pretty good doctor, he kept telling me that pts and nurses become part of your circle of friends and such. Yesterday I finally got around to watching Beauty and the Beast. Yeah I almost cried during the part where the beast lets belle go to rescue her father and when Belle thinks beast is dead and she's telling him that she loves him...so sad......

Hmm Did absolutely nothing today. I had church class but it was pretty normal. Afterwards I just kicked it at home. Adam called me and wanted to go out and eat but I was tired. Anyways I modified Slow Jams III since I gave my original to Tawni, plus I made Slow Jams IV. I can't think of anymore slow jams. I think I have burnt most of them without going into the 80's. Anyways I'm gonna go and eat, I'll write you later blogsta

Well I felt better yesterday but still felt glumy. Marianne came back on Fri night but didn't get to see her since she went to her friends house. Saturday morning I rented NBA Live 2003. It's an ok game but a little too easy. I stayed home while my family got some Chinese food at the great wall next to Grand Canyon University. At four my friend Adam came over and we played NBA Live for 4 hours nonstop. He left at 7 so that I could take Marianne and Barbie out to Desert Ridge and to go to IN-N-OUT. I wasn't completely sure where it was so I called Jason who was on his homecoming date where it was. It was a 30 minute drive so I was able to do some thinking. When we got there, they had some live entertainment. Some guy was doing a bunch of latin music. He was pretty good. I like the atmosphere at Desert Ridge, it's vibrant and alive, the only problem is there are not alot of good stores. So after the mall, we went to petsmart to look at hamsters, then Target Greatland. It's a big place but pretty disappointing. We then went to In-N-Out where I ordered a double-double animal style (memories of SD coming back to me). We drovve home and stopped at Albertsons. I went upstairs and turned on my computer and just listened to slow jams in complete darkness for a while. It got me quite sad. I wanted to listen to my slow jams cd so I went outside and into the volvo. I was about to go back in but I decided to just sit down in front of my house and just look at the sky. I stayed out there for 15 minutes until I saw some cars passed by which ruined my train of thought so I went back into my room. I put in my cd then went to sleep.

Well todays Sunday and the plan is I have confirmation classes today from 12-4. Afterwards I'm going to do something with Adam or do my homework.
Marianne is leaving today again.....

Well that's about it for today I'll write in blogsta later if something important comes up.

Song of the Day- B2k-Why I love you

I did some thinking last night before I went to bed last night. I asked myself "what am I to her?", "How high up am I to her?" I could not come up to an answer. I mean she's real friendly, it's hard to differenciate between the line of friend and more than that. I never really noticed til last night. I don't know what to do, she's involved with another person which seems to be going fine. So I guess the only thing for me to do is wait, and right now the wait is eating me up......

Another thing that I thought of last night was how I have lost my edge. I can't explain it but I have lost my confidence. I have lost my step and everything I'm doing seems different. Concentration is non-existent.

I know what the turning point was in all of this, the thing that started all of it,

~ Monday, September 09, 2002
Also there's this girl that I've been talking to alot lately. I never really thought of hooking up with her since she is my friends ex-girl. Now that I realize it, she's real easy to talk to. We always mess around together. It didnt' come to my attention until last period. Christy Weible who sits on the other side of the room came up to me and asked if me and Tawny were gonna hook up. She told me that it looks like were always flirting with each other. I don't know what I wanna do, she was my best friends ex so it would be weird.

That day I started thinking at it kept jabbing at my brain since then.

I feel like shit right now for two reasons. 1st is that during the game I ate a pizza and after I finished it, I felt like I was going to throw up. 2nd I feel in a shity mood because the fact that homecoming is around makes me feel saddenned. It didn't really hit me til tonight at the football game. Before I go into it in more detail lets start off after school. I went to Barnes and Noble to read some magazines for about an hour while drinking a frappachino. I was originally going to go to the mall to eat some food but it was pretty packed. Anyways I call Adam to see if he was going to go to the homecoming game but he decided not to. I went to the game on my own and met up with Jason and Chris. I hung out for them for a while but left to go to the stadium because they were still waiting for Troy. I got in and saw Amber, Ryan, Braiden, and Trent. I sat down and I let Amber borrow my phone to see where Tawni and Paul was. They met us up in the stands and we all chilled for a while just watching the game and talking. I told Tawni not to try to find my blog. She told me that she really wanted to read it but she said wouldn't until I said she could. I told Tawni that I was hungry so she went with me to the stands to get some food. We came back and I ate the pizza and afterwards I felt like shit. I didn't wanna go home since it was only 8. But I left right after Tawni,Paul, and Tawni left. I felt in probably the shittiest sappiest mood ever. I drove around not having a clue where I was going. I ended up on 87th and grand. The whole way I was listening to slow jams and I was going 35 in a 45 mile zone. Cars were passing me but I didn't care. I drove around for about an hour an a half. I went home expecting to see Marianne but I guess she went to Suzy's house. Anyways I'm really in a shitty mood. If anything I'm mad at myself for not doing anything when the possibilities were there. But there is nothing I can do. I don't know what I'm doing this weekend but I'm really sad. I'll watch Beauty and the Beast tonight.

Ok so before I start on my blog for today. I have to address someone right now. Tawni if you are reading this right now, stop!!!! Whatever you need to know just ask but whatever you do don't read the blog. Nothing here just what I do everyday that's it. So if your reading this you found my blog so congratulations and stop reading!!!!!!!

With that said I know that message probably did nothing to stop you from continuing so let me explain myself. Ok yeah sometimes it's like you write stuff that comes out different than what you meant. SO PLEAAASSSSSEEEE DO NOT CONTINUE ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but in the event that you do read this, do not tell me that you did, it would really help out my conscience if I didn't know that you read it. You do know now this is gonna be bugging me for a long time.

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Ok so now that that's out of the way let me explain what that was all about. I was talking to Tawni earlier and I was curious if she knew what blogger was. I told her that I had one and I even told her part of my username thinking that you could not find it. So I get home and I do my usual stuff on the computer, when I remember about what I said to Tawni about Blogger. I decide to try and find it using the info that I gave her and low and behold the first thing that comes up on Yahoo is "Journey of Jamz" Yeah When I saw that you should have seen the facial expression on my face. I tried to put a password up to no avail then I even thought about just destroying the archives and start fresh but unfortunately that is not yet a feature on fukkin blogger. So that led to the message above. Anyways right now I can't think of anything to write so later blogsta. STOP READING TAWNI

Hey a good day once again now that I don't have to worry bout homecoming. hmm APUSH, nothing special we took notes like any other day. HCT, Tawni and me were trying to sell candy in the classes next door for Med Start. She had to tell Matt (her other ex) that his girlfriend isn't going to homecoming because she doesn't feel like going. She wanted me to volunteer to help which the float and since I don't have a backbone when it comes to girls I said yes. Oh yeah she always says I'm like a teddy bear (so do u Tiano). So anyways I had lunch, nothing special, I was waiting to talk to Jason but Amber wanted me to help her with her math so I went with her to class. I felt bad for Adam since I sortof ditched him. Anyways I took the test (i did real well). I got home and took a nap. My dad woke me up to drop something off at the nursing home. When I came back, Baitos told me that she forgot her poster board at school so I drove her to michaels to get some paper. Afterwards we went to Party City where my friend Natalie was working. She said that if they had it she would hook me up but she ran out. We went to the halloween superstore, it was pretty ghetto. They were selling cheap masks for $40. I was making fun of it in front of the employees. There were a lot of bikers in the bar next to the halloween superstore so I kept telling Baitos that they were Hell's Angels and told her not to torque them off or else they would kill us lol. Anyways we went to fry's to see if my friend was working but he wasn't so I was going to visit our old apartment but mom called to get picked up so I didn't get a chance.

Well that's bout it, Homecoming game is tomorrow, I'm gonna go with Jason and maybe Adam if he wants to go. Sat. is homecoming so I may just kick it at Adam's house.

I guess nows a good time to address an issue... I use a lot of nicknames and abbreviations in the blogger. Here's a key to the nicknames....(sorry Men)

Tiano-Christian, my couz from SD, (blogger at http://_________cg_.blogspot.com/) He's probably has one of the most unique personality and life experiences

Men- Marianne, my older sister who went to Tucson to go to UofA, she may not look it but she can get into R-rated movies now :)

Baitos- Barbie, my younger sister, she really likes chubby animals, and Michael Myers (Halloween)

APUSH- AP US HIstory

HCT- Health Care Tech

I may be missing more but here are the ones I use alot

I had a nice day today, I had no quiz in APUSH. I HCT I went to pioneer elementary to take hearing and vision for the little kids. I carpooled with Tawni, Natalie, and Becky. I almost hit the curb when I was trying to mess with the steering wheel controls. Oh yeah I went to the volvo dealership yesterday to get the s60 15,000 mile maintanance. They gave us an s80 which was really nice. Anyways most of the time I was talking with Tawni and Becky. I guess her ex-boyfriend girlfriend canceled on him because she didn't want to go to homecoming. In my opinion that's just fukked up. I dropped them off in the parking lot then had some lunch at school. In math I helped out Amber with her math and finished my review. After that I went to robotics with Ian, Adam, and Sopheak. We stayed til 3 then I had to pick up my sister. Before I did I gave Tawni my Slow Jams 3 mix. Not my best one but not my worst. The problem with music right now is they don't have as much variety as they did a couple years ago. Right now the music is all pretty stale and has been done before. So anyways I go to pick up baitos but she goes to the volleyball game. So I go to Party City to see if Natalie is working so she could hook me up with a Michael Myers mask for Baitos. I didn't see her so I went to Wal-Mart. There I bought one of the best romantic movies, Beauty and the Beast, I watched it in the IMAX and it was sick. So I go home then I go to the volvo dealership to pick up the s60, they cleaned it up good so I don't have to wash it again. Now I'm home, not in the mood to study right now but I guess I have to, both my tests may determine whether I get an A in the class or a B. Well I'm gonna do something else right now so I'll write in ya later blogsta.

Ok the lesson that I've learned from this whole homecoming experience is timing. Ok so I already said that earlier that Paul beat me out in asking Tawni to homecoming because I took too long. Now flash forward to this week. Now I planned on asking Leah on Monday which didn't happen because I procrastinated. On Tues I probably had a chance to ask after first hour but I felt obligated to give a note to Tawni that was from Amber. I figured that I could do it at lunch or after that. So at lunch I was going to do it but I opted not to since her friend Ashley was with her. So I go after school to ask her but I don't see her in the hall so I decide to go wait for her at her locker. I talk to Adam and Frank for a little bit for the locker pod to clear out. I see it's pretty much cleared when Richard comes up to me. I get distracted talking to Rich talking about the pictures that him and Adam drew in Math. I turn after I was done and they're gone. I look and they're heading for the parking lot. They got into lesly's camaro and I try to follow them but the stupid jackass van let everyone cut in front of him. i gave up and was driving Frank home. While I was driving i was thinking "Why am I going through all this crap, I don't even really want to ask Leah, hell I don't even really wanna go to homecoming this year" So i've come to the decision that I didn't really want to go to homecoming but was going because Jason kept bugging me to double with him so that I would prevent the conversation between Lesly and Jason from getting into a standstill. So in conclusion I don't think I'm gonna go to homecoming nor do I really want to go to homecoming, at least with anyone who is available.

Ok i go early to school to retake my HCT test and I see Tawni's already there and we exchange smiles. She has a cute smile. Anyways so later in the day at lunch i'm talking to Richard and Adrian in the Cobra Corner when Tawni goes in the Cobra Corner. I say what's up Tawni and she gives me a "hey" and brushes me off. The rest of the day I was like "what the hell was that". I don't know if she was pissed or if she just didn't wanna talk to me but I didn't really know what it was. Anyways I asked Jason to find out if Leah has a date for homecoming. This is what happened according to him. He was asking Lesly if Leah had a date and i guess Leah overheard. She asked why he wanted to know and her first guess was me. Jason's response was I can't say and that he had to go. So I guess she now knows it's me. But the thing that stopped me from asking her today was that I myself asked Lesly if she was going with a date. She said that she didn't have a date and that she's probably going to go with Ashley Scully. I then thought..."hmmm.... I don't know if she'll say yes because then she would ditch Ashley". Then I thought "hmmm.... what if I found a date for Ashley.....Adam..no......Ian....no.....Moses....no......Ryan....no" Then I thought "I won't be able to find any who would be willing to go on a date with Ashley". So my prediction for tomorrow is she'll say she would but then she can't because she would be ditching her friend. So with that both my plan A and B have pretty much gone to hell. I didn't ask Tawni in time and Leah will probably give me the no tomorrow. Well that's it for today blogsta

"Oh Well there's still tomorrow"- Boyz II Men Oh well

I got some well needed rest today. I woke up at 7 o'clock to watch yugioh but the damn mormon conference was on. So I used the computer for a little bit then went to sleep. I woke up at around 3 and watched a baseball game. I drove my sis to her friends house then went to fazoli's to go see Ian. Ian was cleaning treys which was pretty funny. He wanted to hang out after work but I was broke and didn't feel up to it so I told him that I was gonna do some homework. I then went home and watched the d-backs lose. I picked up my mom then went to fry's to see if Bobs was working. I then went to pick up Baitos then eat dinner. After dinner I sped over to Hollywood video and got the last copy of the scorpion King. Then it leads up to now where i'm on the computer bloggin. I now want to go to homecoming but I don't know how it will be going with Leah. I'm not sure what type of person she is on a date, whether she is uptight, wants to look cool, or if she is loose and doesn't mind just dancing even if it looks dumb. I don't even know if i'm going with her, first i have to find out if she has a date, if she doesn't then I'll ask her. But on Fri I asked Amber if Paul was gonna try to hook up with Tawni which she said probably and I can't let that happen. I know it makes me sound like a hater but all is fair in love and war.

I have two messages before I sign off

For Men......Men I know that college may be difficult and I know that you are stuggling but don't forget that you have an ace up your sleeve. In case all else fails just tell your professor that you are related to James Go and everything will work out. Oh yeah only 45 miles til 15,000 miles.

For Tiano..... I listened to one last cry by Justin Tim. but it doesn't even sound like him. If you wanna listen to the real thing listen to the Bryan Mcknight version. It's better and always make me wanna tear up.

Well that's bout it for today....Tomorrow to summarize what i'm doing tomorrow.....watch Cardinals game, go to church then church class, homework

Later blogsta

Hmmm I found something pretty funny when I was looking at my archives....Here it is

~ Thursday, August 15, 2002

It's soo hot in AZ right now. It's like 115 degrees out in Phoenix. I should just wear a muscle shirt and some short shorts hehehe that'd be funny. Well I couldn't drop out of Health Care Tech. I had the choice of keeping the class, I could get early release, or I could be a teacher's assistant. Well since I wanna be a dentist I might as well keep Health Care Tech. The weird thing about it is that I sit behind my friends ex-girlfriend and she's always trying to flirt. She's alright but I wouldn't go out with her.

Isn't ironic how quickly feelings change in a couple of months........

Well had a pretty fun night last night.... I went to Adams house and kicked it there for a while. I had some food then I called up Jason to see what he was up to. We ended up deciding to go see barber shop. I was a good movie and would recommend it. I dropped off Jason then Adam then I went home and that was about it. Yeah I also told Jason that if Leah doesn't have a date i'll ask her to homecoming.

I finally made a slow jams 3 cd..... It's pretty good

I seem to be at a loss of words right now so I'll write ya back later blogsta

Well I decided to change the template. This may be temporary depending on how it looks and such...I'll update later tonight....late

Oh yeah Tiano read ur blogga, damn that was harsh

Song of the Day- She fuckin hates me- Puddle of Mudd

Nice song of the day....not really I just thought the video was pretty funny. hmm i'm thinkin on changing the template on my blog, i've grown fond of the colors but I think it's a good time for a change. If I can't get my archives to show then I'll switch but if i can get archive to show then i'll stay with it.

Not much happened today.... hmm i took a math placement test today. They gave us 25 minutes to answer 25 questions. It was pretty easy but i could have answer them if I would have had 5 more minutes....oh well. In HCT more or less the same, I talked to Tawni and she told me that she doesn't like Paul like that but they are going just as friends and she wants me to go to homecoming so that I can see her. Her ex-boy Matt told her that he still likes her but she's not interested. I seem to hang out with her more now than her friends in HCT. Anyways we both ended up not seeing Sweet home alabama. She told me to go ask a girl to Sweet home alabama which was funny cuz the whole time i was thinkin of inviting her but I didn't. I have a lot of opportunities to set something up with her its almost like it's fate stepping in, but I can't follow what I say which is "fate can only take you so far, but you have to finish". Oh yeah I failed my HCT test, but it's alright because I'll retake it. I need to focus on my school work again. I have til Dec to get my grades all up to A's. I have an low A in APUSH, A high B/low A in HCT, A high A in HCT Lab, and a high B in math. I can almost taste the g35 now, but i can't fuck up anymore.

Well i'm gonna watch serendipity right now....write ya later blogsta

I don't know what happened to my post from Tues but I guess I'll have to retype it though it's not as fresh on my mind. I felt like shit yesterday because I finally decided to ask Tawni to homecoming on Mon but she didn't go to school. On Tues I ditched my friends so I would have a chance to ask out Tawni. The only problem was Paul got there to ask her out before I did. Man fuckkin Andy Dick look-a-like. but it was my fault, I had the chance to do it all last week but I hesitated and second guessed my feelings. This is what she told me happened.....She bumped into him at edgefest and I guess they hung out. I should kick not his ass, but rather my own. Anyways I was pretty much out of it on Tues after that. I talked to her friend Amber during 5th hour Tues to confirm which she did. I tried to make it sound like i was hardly interested which she fell for. So today I talked to Tawni and casually mentioned Paul. Anyways after talking to her I felt better. She wants me to go homecoming which I'm still not sure about. She also drew a heart tattoo for me on my arm. I really wish I had my slow jam cd's with me right now but she still has them....... Anyways that's enough on that my first post about this took up the whole screen. Oh yeah on a somewhat ironic note, last year I beat him to the punch because we were both going for the same girl but I got there first, it's ironic that this year he beat me to the punch.

Well if I don't go at least i have the satisfaction that I hooked up Jason and Lesly to homecoming. Jason wants me to ask Leah but I dont' think that is going to happen. Also someone broke into Jason's Blazer yesterday. They tried to steal the car but was unsuccessful but they did jack his cd deck. That sucks for him.


Non romantic issues.....I beat my friend Andrew (who invited himself to my house) at NFL2k3. I also beat Adam. More like dismatled them. #1 weapon...Keyshawn Johnson. I guess it doesn't matter whether it's madden or nfl2k3 keyshawn still dominates. I've also found a new weapon by the name of Mckardell. I'm not sure if he's a affective in madden as he was in nfl2k3 but i'll find out. Everyone seems to be buying or going to buy kingdom hearts. I'm one of them, that game looks sick.

Hmm we finally found out where Men (Marianne) was. She was on mt. lemon where they have no service. Oh Men, ur like a funny men. (inside joke)

Well since I'm such a good friend i told jason that i'll take serious consideration asking out Leah so we can double date. He's got an interesting idea for where to go to homecoming. He wants to go to desert ridge and play arcades at this fancy place. If it were any arcade he'd be killed by his date but it is upscale. Quite an unorthodox approach but it may work.

Saw Tuxedo this weekend with Jason....pretty good movie, J love what can i say....:) I didn't get to see sweet home alabama but i heard it did good in the box office. I was going to see it but I opted to rent Serendipity.

Well I know i'm forgetting a lot of things like racing the jag x type but I'm too tired

What happened to my Oct 1st post? I surely have no idea............