Hit and Run

Song Of The Day - AFI - Death Of Seasons
Currently Feeling - Kinda Bad

Well my streak of really happy days has run it's end. It's been kinda a bad day. I woke up, got to school. Emily came into my car and I talked to her for a bit with Mike and Cam. I did my debate today, yeah it sucked but I got my 50 points. Katie and me were joking around about freezing up in front of class and having to hawk a lugie cuz we both had stuff in our throats. Yeah Katie is really cool and I'm really glad that were still talking although she always threatens to hit me in the face, but then again it's better than getting ribbed. Yeah I guess that's my only upside today. in marketing, we were talking about Adrian and Trista....everything from being drunk and not remembering asking her out and having sex then breaking up. Also yesterday I forgot to mention Adam lovetapped a girl with his car. She seemed pissed but just walked away. Well today she's in a wheelchair and they are looking for the culprit. Now the weird part is yesterday she could walk but today she's in a wheelchair with a cast on the leg that he didn't hit....hmmm...sounds a little fishy.....anywho in Bio, Tawni was feeling really down so that made my day worse. She took her x-rays but she doesn't think that they found out what was wrong cuz they only checked her kidneys and not her stomach. Anyways I'll probably take her to the dr. on Fri.....Lunch I moved Adam's car so that they wouldn't see him. In math, moses was so pissed at Paul cuz he kept talking about how it's wrong to bet on other people's grade. Afterschool, i went to Adam's house and killed him in Madden, then I went back to the AP Bio Review then I went home and went to sleep. Now I'm awake and talking to Tawni.....

Random Things.....

Haven't listened to slow jams in a little bit because I don't want to upset the balance I'm getting right now. With the whole Katie thing I don't wanna get down on it.....

I've come up with my blacklisted slow jams list. They've been blacklisted for many reasons......

- Usher - You'll Be in my heart

- Savage Garden - I Knew I Loved You

- Selena - Dreamin Of You

- Voices of Theory - Say It

- 98 Degrees - Because Of You

- Brian Mcknight - One last Cry

- I've figured out what my subconscience wants me to do. And I've figured out what part of my brain it is. I try to shut it out as much as possible but as always it always bugs me.

Early Breakfast

Song Of The Day - Journey - Faithfully
Currently Feeling - Pretty Good

Well hmmm...last nite everything on tv was about sex in one way or another. I talked to Tawni about it for a while. Sometimes we just have weird conversations.....anywho this morning I wake up at around 7:30 to see if Tawni and Paul were gonna eat breakfast. They didn't so I went back to sleep, woke up at 8:15 then picked up Frank. It was Jason, me, Frank, Steph, and her sis. I had the stuffed french toast but it wasn't that great. I went back home to see if I could find my parking pass to no avail. I then went to Steph's house and chilled there for a while. We then went to school after running into a couple motorcycle cops. hmm....first period Katie kept threatening me if I volunteered our debate first. We kept worrying about freezing up there since this other girl didn't have anything to say after a minute. hmm...so I guess the plan for the weekend is Fri study for SAT, Sat is the SAT and then after Adam gets off work were gonna go watch Better luck tomorrow, then go tp Al's house again. Afterschool I just hung out with Adam for a bit and now I'm watching the Suns get mugged by the spurs.

Random Things....

hmm still in a pretty good mood....

--well just got back from Cousins...I felt like I ate a lot, I got my sub (not the experimental) and I also got free ice cream. Reminder to self.....go back to give Tawni blank cd---

...we made a bet last nite that I said that in 12 years she will have at least one kid and she says she won't. We haven't come up with a reward for the winner yet, but it kinda funny how we were talking about how we better still be in touch in 12 years when in January I was worrying about losing touch after a semester.

Oh yeah one other thing I forgot to mention, tomorrow I'm planning on buying/renting 2 Weeks notice. I also really wanna see A Walk To Remember. I think that's the one with Mandy Moore

The Demons Are Gone

Song Of The Day - Journey - Someday Love Will Find You
Currently Feeling - Really Good

Well this is the 2nd time I've had to write this so here it goes....

Well this weekend blew hard. I felt really down all weekend long. On sun I felt a little better due to the whole "appointment" thing finally coming thru, but I was still feeling down emotionally. Then Sun nite it finally hit me, I shouldn't be feeling down about myself, I don't really know how to explain it so I won't. I'm just in a better mood. Even better was the fact that I was able to beat my old demons by not shelling up. It may not seem like a big thing but it has always been a thorn in my side, which explained why I have never asked anyone out I considered a friend.

Anywho my day, I got to sleep in and then I picked up Frank and ate at Jasons house. His mom cooked choc chip pancakes which were really good then we went to school. I saw Tawni in a dress. She looked really cute and pretty (you did), it just didn't seem her....but u were still pretty......hmm so my day went like this.....debates...scheduling....beefalos, zorses, Libers....then Moses getting pissed at Al for retaliated at Moses house....

Nothing planned for today except some homework.....

Random Things....

The only regret I have is that she didnt' really give me a chance. Normally that would make me a bit mad but I understand her reasons so I don't hold anything against her....

Beefalos= Cow + buffalo

Yup I guess you can take Tawni's dr. off my anger list....in case it doesn't involve her kidney's I guess I can always start calling her stomach dr....lol j/k

hmmm... IHOP tomorrow...yes....

Don't expect a plan JAM anytime soon but anything can happen.....

RIP Plan JA: 4/3/03 - 4/27/03

Song Of The Day - Mandy Moore - Only Hope
Currently Feeling - Bad Yet Good

Sorry I haven't written in a while, it's been a bad weekend but it's picked up thanx to my friends.

So Plan Ja has been killed, may it rest in peace. There's always hope of a revival but for now it lays dead. It just happened in a flash, I asked her, and I guess she told Tawni that she just wants to be friends. I mean I wasn't looking for anything quick but I guess she took it that way so there's not much for me to do. Hopefully she doesn't go all quiet on me or I don't go all quiet on her cuz she is a cool person.

That was the exceptionally bad thing this weekend that got the better of me but I guess the point where I got better was after Tawni told me she got her appointment on Weds. That made me feel real better cuz I was able to get her appointment in before May and finally the dr. can make a diagnosis on it.

So what did I actually do this weekend welll.......

Fri- I did nothing cuz I was feeling real down.....I stayed home and watched tv, I tried to go to cousins but I only stayed 15 mins but felt real down so I left. Steph called and wanted to see a movie tonite. Talked to Tawni for a bit then drove to Franks where I picked him, Jason, and Steph so that we could watch identity. In the parking lot we got into a discussion about me and Subaru's..... lol it's sad how petty they think I am. That's the old me, the new me don't mind Subie's it's just a preference. Anywho sorry bout gettin off track, it's a pretty good movie, you gotta pay attention or you won't know what's going on.

Sat- More of TV watching, I talked to my couz cuz he needed help making a cd with cd-text. did more TV then got real bored so took a drive to look for a used NBA Live. Tawni called and told me that she got her appointment. I visited her at work and talked to her and Will. I don't mind Will anymore he seems alright but I still have a bad feeling about him. Later on last nite I went to Adam's and met up with Frank. We went to Kelli's party but we all looked out of place cuz they looked like serious punkers. Adam and me decided to leave cuz I wasn't gonna drink and I was only gonna be the designated driver. We went to Dusty's for a bit then we went to Moses. He was with his couz and we went to his restaurant. It was pretty good, the carne asada burrito was the bomb. Best part was Moses hooked it up big. Afterwards we went to play a couple games of pool. After that we went to Fry's to get Toilet paper and went back to his house to rip it up in preparation for Alex's house. Finally we did Al's house pretty good then we did this one house just to get rid of the excess tp. We went back to Moises house to pick up my car, picked up Frank, dropped them off at Adams and went home to sleep.

Sun - I have no plans for today so best bets I'll be doing homework and chillin.

Random Things......

My biggest weakness is definately my emotions, I let it get to me but it's just a natural reaction for me......

I've kept it down that I was down, only Tawni, Jason and Steph somewhat know......

I really wish she would call or just say it to me so I could explain that I wasn't trying to rush anything but rather I just wanted to know her better.

Well I don't really know what happened or what will happen anymore...it's all a big ????.....I don't feel like updating right now so maybe later

Scared as Hell

Song Of The Day - 98 Degrees - Why (Are We Still Friends)
Currently Feeling - Scared

Ok so the doublings were out of my head...or so I thought..... they came back, I'm scared that I'll look stupid or she'll say she has plans.....I know I've gots to do it so hopefully I'm capable of doing it. hmmm anyways last nite I went over to Adam's house to install age of empires when I see the cop. I thought he was looking for speeders so I slowed down. I knocked on the door and Adam's mom answered it. I'm like "you have some cop parked in front of your house". I was gonna make a comment on dumb cops when she told me that they were inside....good thing she told me....anyways I got it installed then I went home and passed out.

Today was up and down.....I was thinking about asking her today but I didn't so I have to do it tomorrow. Tawni came back today but was still feeling like shit. She talked about how her dad and Scott came over. We talked about Scott a little which ended up with me saying that I would strike him with a 2x4 since I'm a tad stronger than Tawni, especially when my angry side comes out. Oh yeah I got the worst ribbing ever by Tawni cuz I made a comment about Matilda. At lunch the worst idea I ever came up with and that was let's sit outside which is the general location of where Katie eats. I knew I wasn't gonna do anything since she was grouped with a bunch of her friends who I don't know. It was a big bust but oh well. Anyways I have a gut feeling that she knows. I mean when I went to my locker today I looked up and I saw from a distance Katie and a couple of her friends and it looked like they were looking right at me. So I figure that someone slipped so Im gonna go to Cousins today to find out if Tawni did it. I also may pay a visit to Party city to see if Nat is working.

Random Things....

I need to instill some confidence but I never regained it completely back yet......

Made my 98 degrees cd....pretty sick.....

Have any of you ever seen the movie Matilda???? This is what I'm trying to get at....Matilda/Tawni has the evil family but she meets the teacher (Ms. Honey/Ms. Leiwer)....they become all buddy buddy and plan stuff like hanging out during spring break and have tea....it's an inside joke between Tawni and me....

hmmm....lately i've noticed I have an anger streak that may implode cuz of Tawni's doctor, Mike, and Scott....hmm I have a bad feeling that an explosion is gonna occur on one of the three (hopefully not the dr.).....

Jason and Steph's picnic turned out real nice with the exception of the nosey park ranger. ..

Moses is the angriest guy ever but he was right when he said he lets his anger out and that I build it up.....

The Doubtling Have Come and Gone So All That's Left is To Ask

Song Of The Day - 98 Degrees - Was It Something I Didn't Say
Currently Feeling - Ready

Well last nite Tawni called and started crying because of something her ex Mike said to her. It was something that I believe he didn't have any reason to criticize her about. I came up with my conclusion that he has a hidden agenda and I know that Tawni's smart enough to not fall for it but I'm worried that if ever the event happened where her and Paul got into a serious enough fight, I think Mike would try and take advantage of the situation. We also talked about Will, Paul and just about everything going on in her life. We talked about Katie and I told her I had doubtlings (new word) in my mind and she said that I should just be persistant and not to think that she said no because she doesn't like me. I feel bad about Paul and how a lot of people are against them. I'm partly responsible with some people who are against them. I feel a bad that I can't really talk to him. I mean he is going out with one of my best friends so I should bury the hatchet and kill the awkwardness but I guess I'm not strong enough mentally to do that. Also I'm worried about my subconscious. It does stuff on it's own and I don't even realize it most of the time. I'm just worried that it would do something I know I would regret. We just talked about so much stuff going on in our lives, it was really a good thing for both of us because we both had some stuff we had to get off our chests and I'm glad that we can do that with each other. Tiano you were right, we do have a kickass relationship.

Tawni thought she felt better but didn't go to school today. I'm worried real bad about it, cuz it's turning into a normal occurance. I hope that she'll feel better and that she gets the doctor to make a diagnosis that actually helps. It just really pisses me off that her doctor hasn't done shit yet. Yeah the anger has built up when it comes to her doctor.

Sorry about the ranting, anyways today I was planning on seeing if Katie wanted to see Phonebooth this weekend but she ditched 3rd period. To be honest I don't know how I can win her trust if what Tawni says happens.

Jason's one month is today so he's out at Saguaro Park as I type this. I gave him his good luck although I do wish he used my blindfold idea.

My parents have a weird idea of what I do when I'm not home. First they thought I was going out with Tawni, then they keep thinking I'm hanging out at Amber's house....

Well bunch of stuff going on but I can't word it all so I end it here

A Little Dissapointed in My Friends

Song Of The Day - 98 Degrees - My Everything
Currently Feeling - Decent

Well first I gotta clear up a bit about the the whole random thought thing yesterday. I misworded it and it sounded like money mattered to Tawni which doesn't. I was rushed into wording it so it may have seemed like I said that but I know that she's not like that.

Now onto today....I was a bit worried about Plan JA cuz what Jeff said about making the same mistake twice by not doing something fast enough and someone may come out of nowhere and boom it's the same thing all over again. So I tried to step things up so I tried to get my friends to come and eat with me in the area she eats at. They were being stupid though and kept saying that it was too cold. I was just a little pissed cuz whenever they asked of a favor from me I would do it. I mean I went to Saguaro Park with Jason yesterday, I helped Frank with Kelli, and I've done plenty of favors for Adam. So I think I'm a little entitled to pissed since it's not like I asked them to talk to anyone, just simply eat outside. They felt bad though so they said that they would eat out there tomorrow (well maybe not Jason since it's his one month.)

We started to put in the new nicknames into affect....Bato=Frank while I'm Mr. T. (Even Adam got it right away)....I still have to come up with one for Adam and Jason....

Jason's one month is tomorrow so I'm excited to see how he does with his surprise......

After listening to Tawni's Slow Jamz cassette version, I'm gonna burn a 98 Degrees Cd.....

Haven't Had A Random Thought In A While

Song Of The Day - Britney Spears - From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart
Currently Feeling - Decent

Ok so with the whole thing with stupid ass doctors was cuz I was talking to Tawni last nite when I was blogging and she was feeling like shit. Now she hasn't been feeling well for a while and so I've gotten really worried about her and I don't want it to be something serious and it goes undetected. I've called her doctors office twice now and the 1st time they said they would set up a follow up appointment by early next week. The only problem with that is that that was 2 weeks ago. So I called again but this time they said May, maybe June. I said that that wasn't good enough and I want to get an appointment by April. Sorry bout the rant but I've been in a lackluster mood today.

So anyways on to my day, hmm well I've been methodically been moving up with Katie. The plans still in set with me seeing if she wants to see phone booth this weekend. She didn't see it last weekend cuz it was family weekend for her. She spent the weekend celebrating her moms birthday and also spent all day Easter with family. I think she's a really nice girl. I've learned my lesson and I want a good girl but not like Goody goody girl. She's really interesting so I'm hoping I'll get the opportunity. Oh yeah and also she's cute to boot....lol..... All day all the guys were talking about the Suns miraculous comeback. Also I mentioned how last nite Jason, Steph, and I talked about our little things that separate us. Well today we came up with nicknames......Frank is Mister Bater but for short we called him Bato.....I'm called Mr. T.....Jason is Beemer....we haven't come up with one for Adam yet. Tawni was sick today so she missed our disection of fruit flies.....For lunch I went with Jeff to eat some ham and I had one deviled egg (now that I think about it I think Tawni was supposed to make me some but never got around to making me any).....In math I think I did a good job on my test. --Newly Added--- Well I just got back from Saguaro Ranch. First I dropped off my sis at the track meet. My dad was talking to me about cars too. After dropping off my sis I went to the store to pick up some chocolate for Tawni since she was sick. I gave a reeses to Tara since she was sick too. We just talked in her room for a bit. Then I sorta sang for a while. You'd be amazed how much songs I know the lyrics to. Well after that I went to Saguaro Ranch with Jason. We found this nice area that I found that I may use if I am able to (hopefully with Katie). Anyways afterwards we sat on the bench and I acted as his councilors. It was just some stuff about Steph and about his parents. I think it was just stuff that he had to get out and that's what I'm usually there for. My sole plan for today is to watch the suns game II....

Random Things....

So I'm burning massive amounts of cd's today for Tawni and for myself.....

I've been really at ease lately which has explained my shorter blogs. No more mental dillemas, no more what should I do, what shouldn't I do type questions I ask myself. It's really been great.

For Tara who thinks I have no life....well that's a half true, I could always hang out with other people but I enjoy hanging out with Tawni.....as weird as that sounds...lol J.J.A (Just Joshin Ya)......

Ok so this is my random thought from yesterday but i'll straighten it out before I write anything....I'm not in a depressed mood this is just a random thought and that's it. So with that said here it goes....... So yesterday I saw the picture of Paul next to a real giant panda. I then found out that he owns that panda. It then made me think of something that I haven't thought of in a while. With this you'd have to go back to Oct back when everything was all blurry between Tawni and Paul. One of the big things that bugged me back then was that I didn't think I had much of a chance compared with him. I mean he had Amber in his corner and he could do a lot more stuff with her because he had the massive amount of money. (with that said were pretty well off, so just for those who don't know him, he's loaded, I mean come on he owns freakin Pandas, I think there on the endangered species). Well this was my random thought since I haven't had one in a while. I've really come a long way from all of that. True things didn't work out like I would expect from me and Tawni but in exchange I found a new best friend and a new interest in Katie....

Easter, Chillin At Tawni's, Slow Jamz Galore, and Stupid Ass doctors

Well it's Easter nite yet it's not been much difference than a normal day. hmm well I went to church with my sis' and then I went to the great wall with them. The service kinda sucked since I don't think they gave us much respect cuz we looked young and broke. Afterwards I dropped them off and went to Tawni's house to give her Serendipity for Easter. I hung out at her house for a while just chillin. I played NWO vs. WCW on the 64, a game I haven't played in years. (Tiano remember the Giant).... We played a couple games but he wanted me to keep playing. He kept asking me to play throughout the day. Adam called and kept insisting that his theory was correct, then Jason called to say that he didn't really like serendipity. I played around with the little doodle board, then we listened to her slow jamz cassettes for a while. I helped her with the groceries then her fam was gonna eat dinner so i bounced. I chilled at home for a while then went to Jason's house. I rode on their golf cart and then I ate some of Jason's oreo cheesecake. We then talked outside for a while. It seems everyone in our group has their own problems. Like Frank is the porn guy, Jason is the BMW guy, Adam is the I don't wanna do anything guy, and I'm the "Tawni" guy........After that I went home and ate din-din then I helped my sis film her movie.

Random Things....

I really don't like Doctors at this very moment, very greedy people, I hope if I become a dr. I won't become like that.

Finally A Good Omen

Song Of The Day - Sean Paul - Get Busy
Currently Feeling - Sick but better slightly

Well not much doing last nite. I watched the Suns upset the spurs. Then Tawni called and she wanted me to come over to see how she looked since she was going to her friends prom. She looked real nice and she told me that she hasn't found a planner that's me yet. I met her friend Adam and his friend again. Afterwards I went to Adam's house and we picked up Frank and went to Alex's house. We played Halo and Smash Brothers. Afterwards we picked up some icees and went to Dusty's house. We stayed for a bit but I got real sick again so we went to Adam's house so that I could pick up my car and go home.

Not much doing today either. I gotta go to church in a little bit, stop by and give Tawni her Easter gift, and I think that's bout it......

Random Things......

After my recent string of bad omen dreams I've finally got a good one......well here it goes I'm watching a movie in theaters with Katie when in the movies I hear the lines "just kiss me already". I turn to her and she's looking at me so we kiss......heh that bodes well in terms of motivation but the only bad thing is that I'm real good at predicting stuff for other people but when it comes to myself I can't see shit so I'm relying on other people to tell me how I'm doin.....

Feeling Like Shit

Song Of The Day - Boyz II Men - Do You Remember
Currently Feeling - Sicker

Well hmmm I went to church last nite then hung out at Franks house a little. We decided not to go to the movies but rather go to Steph's house after some threatening by Steph. We went there and watched Legally Blonde. Her dog Windy was gonna attack me I swear. I felt like shit so I only stayed for half an hour. I went to BK to get some Onion Rings then went straight to bed. In the middle of the night a mexican lady who didn't speak english called. I don't remember what happened or what I said but I remember answering the fone. I had a hard time sleeping cuz my nose was stuffed and also at times it felt as if I couldn't breathe.

This morning I felt worse so I stayed in and just watched the playoffs. I went to Denny's with my sis' and my couz. Now I'm home in bed.

Random Things....

If Katie hasn't seen phone booth by this weekend I'll ask her if she wants to watch it with me.....

Hey well I'm in the library right now working on my capital punishment debate paper right now. I've realized that Katie doesn't know crap about computers....but not too surprising.....well gotta get back to doing whatever I'm doing.....write in ya later

Feeling The Siccness

Song Of The Day - Garth Brooks - To Make You Feel My Love
Currently Feeling - Sicc

Well today definately had it's up's and downs. I got a chance to talk to Katie without interruption today. It went really well, we talked about Muppet Babies and Jamie Kennedy. I even sang part of the Muppet Babies song. I had a window of opportunity cuz we were talking about movies and she said that she really wanted to go see Phone Booth.....I would have said something but cuz of church and other factors I decided to wait and see if she hasn't seen it by next week. marketing we had a kickback day and it was around this time that I started feeling sick but not too bad. Halfway thru Bio is when I got really sick. I could barely breath, my throat was sore, and I was sweating pretty bad. Mr. Ashby let me leave class early so that I could go home and get some medicine. I had to come back to class though cuz I had a test. Afterschool I hung out at Franks but I had to go home and here I am. I'm gonna go with them to Cousins in a bit then I have church.

Random Things....

Plan JA went real well once the interruptions stopped.

Garth Brooks - To Make You Feel My Love

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
And I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
There's not doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on a rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothin' like me yet

There ain't nothin' that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love

The Tickets Have Been Bought and I've Seen Ghost

Song Of The Day - Paula Abdul - Straight Up
Currently Feeling - Good

Yesterday what did I do???? well not much I went up to Cousins with Jeff. Steph was working so I talked to her for a little bit. Jeff and me confirmed the concert, and Tawni said she would come. He brought up Paul and mentioned how he didn't want Paul to come so that I could enjoy the concert...heh I think his exact words to me were if he comes, I'm gonna rip his ears off his head. I called Tawni when I came home and helped her with her homework then watched Ghost. It was a really really good movie but the ending was the best part(I know what ur thinking Tawni), hell even Mike recommended it.

This morning I got my NHS stuff then in first period Katie didn't show up so yeah that kinda blew. I ended up on her debate team, but it wasn't exactly accidental. Actually in order for me to do that I had to ditch my original group of Jeff, Mike, Adrian, and Vince and signed with another group. Jeff knew what I was up to right away, and it took Adam a while before he realized why I did what I did. In 2nd hour took a test....in Bio I honestly don't remember what happened, I think I helped Tawni with her Chemistry. Lunch Adam and Frank and me went to Wendy's......on the way back to school we raced with CJ's civic and killed it. Ian invited me to Tepee Jenn's house over the weekend. Math the test really sucked......Afterschool Adam and me dropped off Frank but not before we went to pick up some icees. We ran into Nicole who also went to get an icee. We went to Frank's, then back to school for AP Bio review session. I left and went to Jeff's so we could get the tickets. We got the tickets so were gonna go see Journey, Styx, and REO Speedwagon on May the 18th. 3 tickets were $91.31. I dropped off Jeff then went to Cousins to drop off Tawni's ticket. I ran into Rich on Bell and we were talking while driving...lol it was pretty funny. I don't have any plans for today except to go to church at 7:30 til 8:30....

Random THings...

I'm psyched about the concert.....

Jeff was pretty set on Paul not coming, especially after talking to him about Paul at Cousins.

I've been studying for tests up the wazoo in math and bio.....

Breaking New Records and the Concert Decision

Song Of The Day - Journey - Open Arms
Currently Feeling - Good

hmmm....so last nite Tawni called and wanted some help with Bio so I went to Cousins at around 5. Unfortunately customers kept coming in so I moved to the office room to help her. I talked more to her manager Kevin and seems cool. I broke my all time record of how long I've stayed at Cousins by an hour. I was there for 3 hrs. At 8 I left to get some corn, then I went to buy Serendipity for Tawni's Easter gift (heh I never knew u gave gifts on Easter). I stayed in the parking lot at Cousins cuz the owner was there and I didn't want to make it look like I'm loitering. So I reclined my seat and listened to music for about 30 minutes. Tyler heard me from Baskin Robins..lol.....Afterwork I went to Tawni's house to help her study. Tara was there and so me and her went to Circle K to get us all some ICEEs. Tawni tried to give me my $5 back but I found it and gave it back to her. My moms started calling so I left around 11:30.

This morning everyone kept asking why I didn't go to the induction. I probably should have cuz it only lasted 30 minutes. 1st hour I've decided just to let everything happen on the fly with Katie. 2nd period I ate too much cookies....3rd period Tawni was feeling down so I was trying to cheer her up......lunch same ole....math same ole...afterschool I went to Adam's to fix his damn computer, picked up Barbie, went to Ian's, chilled with Jason. My plans for today are going to cousins with Jeff, maybe Tawni.

Random things...

Adam was so pissed at me toeday cuz I blew him off last nite...I completely forgot

Ive decided to go to the journey concert. I'm gonna go with Jeff and maybe Tawni if her mom lets her

I talked to Tawni's dr. office and they gave me some bs on why they've been so slow. They better get her in before May that's all I know

HI!!!! Love TaWNI

Restored Peace Of Mind

Song Of The Day - Michelle Branch - Here With Me
Currently Feeling - Tired

Ok so last nite Tawni was very very persistant in finding out what was wrong so I gave her the basic gist of it. It's funny how much better you can feel after you just say what's bugging you. Anywho last nite I studied from 4 PM to about 2:30 AM. Tawni passed out when I called her so she wasn't gonna be ready for the test.

This morning I almost got into a deeper conversation with Katie but Adam and Jeff kept interupting. Damn so 2morrow I gotta give them the heads up so they don't disrupt. The test in Bio really sucked, but I think I did a decent job on it. Lunch was actually quite boring cuz Jason wasn't there and Adam had to work at the cobra corner. Math I actually did stuff. Afterschool I went to the practice for NHS. I decided not to go to the induction since it isn't manditory. Then I went to the hospital cuz my mom wanted to pay me back. Plans for today, Cousins, Ghost, sleep

Random THings.....

I'm pissed at Tawni's dr. cuz I think they just told me what I wanted to hear so that I would stop bugging them. So if they dont call by tomorrow then I'll call again (and daddy won't be happy...lol j/k)

I'm really leaning towards going to the Michelle Branch concert. There both around the same price. Steph and Jeff want me to go to the Journey/Styx. Plus I need to find someone to go with me cuz I don't wanna go by myself.......

I said I was gonna buckle down on my studies and I think I'm back on track. I don't think I'll get an A in math for my progress but I think my parents will understand...

hmmm choices.....Infiniti G35 for $29,999......Acura TL Type S $27,999......Volvo S60 T-5...$29,000

hmm I uped the bet with Moses that Tawni will beat his grade in History...

relistening to the Michelle Branch cd....I really like it

---New----
hmm....well it was only a matter of time before I ended up updating my blog at Cousins subs. I swear it's like I work here, no I'm actually helping Tawni study yet all of a sudden they get busy. Oh well back to Tawni's studying time

Still A While To Go

Song Of The Day - Michelle Branch - Goodbye To You
Currently Feeling - Horrible

hmmm.....well today I didn't feel good. No it wasnt because I was sick but the reason why I didn't feel so good I've decided to keep to myself cuz I think it's the best thing to do. I didn't really feel like updating but I feel a bit better right now. I woke up this morning to a sortof down feeling and I didn't even realize why I was down until about when I pulled into the parking lot. I couldn't play it off and peeps noticed. Tawni probably noticed it the most but I decided not to tell her and for that matter I didn't tell Jason. So if anything I would have told one if not both of them if I was gonna say anything. Why did it bother me....I don't know, it didn't bother me during the other times but maybe it's cuz I never realized it. I'll be probably be back to my normal self tomorrow which is a good thing.....

I'm sorry I just had to get that out of my way. Nothing really happened today since I was quiet. 1st hour Katie didn't show up to school so I couldn't do anything.. 2nd hour I did hella good on my test. 3rd period was pretty bad. Tawni wanted to know what was wrong but I it was best not saying anything. Lunch didn't get much better. Jason was trying to find out what was wrong too. I was thinking about telling Jason only cuz we talk to each other about things like this but if I didn't tell Tawni I knew I couldn't tell Jason. Adam and Frank decided to leave it alone. 5th period I cheated on my quiz. I have a fuckin 86 in that class. It's so fuckin hard right now, there is no way I'm gonna get an A in the class. Afterschool I wanted to kick it with Jason since he was gonna be gone for a couple days so we went to Burger king, then we came up with the idea to get Steph some get well soon flowers since she got her wisdom teeth pulled out. So we went to Flowerama and he got her some purple flowers. I made a comment on how he seems cool with Paul and we talked about that I little. I picked up my sis and dropped off Jason at school. I went to Steph's house and delivered the gift. Talked to her for a little bit then went home to start my studying in BIO.

Random Things.....

When I was driving with Jason we decided to see what was in my cd player since we heard they can tell what type of person you are by what you listen to.

Cd 1 - Dashboard Confessional (Jason called it the music you listen to when you go to your room and cry, really depressing music)
Cd 2 - AFI
Cd 3 - Justin Timberlake
Cd 4 - Slow Jamz X
Cd 5 - Lee Ann Rimes - I Need You
Cd 6 - 50 Cent - Get Rich Or Die Trying

Celebrity Theaters are a bunch of big ass liars, I went on the webpage but didn't see Kansas anywhere, but there's a couple concerts I'm thinking about going to

-Either Journey on May 18th or Michelle Branch on May 19th (I really wanna go to the Michelle branch so that's what I'll probably go to)
- Rufio on June 23rd

Do I Work At Cousins?

Song Of The Day - LL Cool J - Loungin
Currently Feeling - Good

So yesterday I didn't accomplish anything. I was supposed to see Lion King but both my sisters were doing something so I had a big gaping hole in my schedule in the afternoon. I tried calling everyone but they were all gone. Finally Adam called and I kicked it at his house. Tawni called and I told her I would come in. I go to Cousins and get the pastrami. Tawni takes her break and tells me I was right about my gut feeling but she couldn't get into detail cuz Will kept coming in and cuz Jason came in. We talked about what Jason could do for Steph and his 1 month. I gave him one of my unnamed plans that I didn't really ever think of executing but just kinda thought of it in my head about it being a nice thing. Anyways the plan was to come in with candles, tablecloth, slow jams in the back, handmade food, and just have a picnic in there. The thing was we found out Steph wasn't working that day so that plan was scapped. Tawni then said she was having trouble breathing so I drove to her house to pick up her inhaler. It was pretty scary cuz I was in a big rush to get it as quick as possible so down 67th ave I hit 80 on a Sat. night. Good thing no police were around cuz that's twice the speed limit. I get to her house and I have Tyler help me find her inhaler. We find it and I get back to Cousins. After that I go to Circuit city, best buy, Fry's electronics, then back to Best buy cuz I was searching for a phone charger and a car charger. After that my friend calls and says there's a big party and I should come but I decline. Instead I look for nice thinking spots cuz I didn't feel like coming home. I go back to Cousins cuz Tawni gave me free package of roast beef then I go to Saguaro park but I get kicked out cuz it's closing time. So I decide to go down 91st ave and I find a lake and houses around it. It's the sickest. Unfortunately security kicks me out cuz it's "private property"....damn it's called sharing....so I go to the video store and against my better judgement I rent 2 romantic movies and get ghost and When Harry Met Sally. I watched when Harry met Sally and it was a pretty good movie.

Random Things....

Nothing planned for today for me

I'm really starting to get 2nd feelings about going thru with the whole Katie thing.....I guess the seeds of doubt are starting to sprout in my head.....

I was at Cousins subs for close to 2 hrs......lol damn I need a girlfriend, I'm starting to miss all the things you do together......

Past, Present, and Future

Song Of The Day - Faith Hill - There You'll Be
Currently Feeling - Good

hmmm.....so last nite the Neil Sedaka concert was ehhhh....ok, I didn't really go to listen to the music but it was a family outing which I haven't done in the longest time. I was too tired to go to a party so I opted to stay home. I talked to Tawni, I guess Moose came into her work yesterday. I have to give her credit, she did something that I didn't have the heart to and that was to be straight up with Moose. lol oh yeah I came up with a new nickname too, Moosero....lol (inside joke)....

Today all I've really done is clean my room. It's noon and I haven't even started my homework....Don't really have much planned, I was gonna see the Lion King at IMAX but scheduling conflicts with my sis have prevented that. So instead I'll do homework, go talk to Jeff about something, go to Adrian's, go to Jason's soccer game (maybe), go kick it with Adam, go to cousins, wait for Frank to get off work and then go see Anger Management. We may or may not see it with Jason cuz he may see it with Steph and if she doesn't invite any of her friends I told him that we'd stay back also.

Random Things....

I accidentally deleted thursdays post....nothing really too out of the ordinary.....

New Plans from here to the end of school year
- Refocus on School
- Get to some sort of conclusion of Plan JA
- Get completely over her
- Find out what I'm gonna do over summer vacation

- On plan JA I decided to speed up a little since I was going extremely slow. Tawni said I should becareful though cuz she has a lot of family issues and she may not want to bring me into it. I'm a bit scared now, but I guess I'm still going to go thru with it. To prevent me from getting hurt bad though in case it goes bad, I listened to Mr. Ashby's advice from a while ago about not wearing your heart on your sleeve. I guess the only problem is that is sometimes I can't help it and it comes out.

hmmm....the title from today is past present and future. Well the only reason that was the title was I've been thinking alot about the 3. The past I kinda missed only cuz things were always simpler, it was always black or white. There was never a silver. There was no confusions and complications between friends. No responsibilties. The present is just where I'm at now. I enjoy it a lot but I worry about the future with myself and about friends. It's a big question mark. I've lost touch with a lot of peeps from the Kachina days but I've made a lot of good friends in exchange.

lol the funniest thing of last nite was I saw this fortune cookie on the table so I decided to eat it out of curiousity of the note thingy. It was "You have a conscience, that is your gift from God".....lol i just found it funny. I think my conscience is a good thing but at times it has been a double-edged sword. I just wished sometimes it would have an off switch.

Strange Days

Song Of The Day - Elvis Prestley - Fools Fall In Love
Currently Feeling - Good

K update time , cuz I gots to go to a Neil Sadaka (don't know who that is) concert with my family outing thing. hmm... last nite I went to Cousins just to get what I like to call the "experimental sub". I came in and Tawni, Steph, Emily, and Kevin were all sitting down so I ordered my sub and sat down with them. I stayed for a bit, Emily left and I got forced into doing chips. I did chips real fast this time. I went into the back and I talked to Tawni about Will. I know Tawni wouldn't do anything with him, but my gut feeling was that he'd attempt something. I dunno just my gut feeling but I kinda worried Tawni. I was about to pull the bread but my moms called to be picked up. They wanted me to come back but I didn't want to hold them up from closing up. I got home and didn't feel like doing homework. Marianne came home for the weekend, I went to Adam's to go over the skit. Tawni called up and I talked to her for a bit. I told her to get some sleep. I probably should have followed my own advice as I ended up staying up til about 3. I read my lyrics I wrote from my song a while ago and it was really embarrasing only cuz I know Tawni's has read them and know what everything essensially means. I ended up singing the song for a bit and even recorded it although I deleted it.

This morning I got to drive the volvo. 1st period we did the huck finn skit which ours sucked like none else. Plan JA moved nowhere cuz I really didn't talk to her. I've probably gonna try to take quicker steps now. In 2nd period we watched a movie. In 3rd I was talking to Tawni about Moose. We wrote 2 pages of notes passed back and forth. Lunch I went to Frank's house cuz he ditched. I drove with Adam and Jason. I decided to ditch 5th period with Adam and Frank but Jason couldn't cuz he has AP Chem. We ate pizza then pretty much just played Mario Kart and ping pong. I called Tawni's doctor and did a good job acting as her dad. I got them to contact the filming place for them to request for it directly. She should be able to get an appointment by Mon or Tues. I'm pretty happy with myself since I could finally help Tawni out with something. So maybe Tawni can get better again cuz I always worry that her asthma will kick it while she's sick and may end up in the hospital. Anyways Andrew also got home early and joined us in the fun. I stayed til 5 cuz I'm gonna go to the concert at 6:30. the concert doesn't start till 8:00 though.

Random Things.....

Plan JA is gonna have to kick up a notch, I'm going extremely slow and my plan was just to go slow.

Don't really have any plans for the weekend so I'll just let other people make plans for me....

I've got a huck finn essay and AP Bio up the ass....

lol my group made fun of me for calling Tawni's doctor today. I didn't really tell them much so they didn't really get why I did it nor did I really care.....

Return of the 64....now if only I could find goldeneye.....

I'm planning on going to Arizona Mills either this weekend or next so I'm gonna watch Lion King......They should play Aladdin, I would watch it only for the "whole new world" part of the movie where they are flying on the magic carpet..... with that said, i remember Emily saying that I'm a sensitive guy. Now it's pretty obvious to those reading this that I am but at the same time I try to keep that hidden from people but lately I've been slipping.

There is No Such Thing As A Free Thing

Song Of The Day - Mariah Carey and Luthor Vandross - Endless Love Lyrics
(I don't know if I ever had this song but still a sweet song)
Currently Feeling - Cautious

heh so last nite after I take my nap, I decide to go to Cousins just to get Jason's belated gift. So I pick up Frank and we go to Cousins. I get Jason a $10 gift certificate to Cousins. I was about to go get some Sherbet next door but Tawni said that I couldn't go without her, then Steph says that she can get me it for free but I have to eat it there. So I get my rainbow sherbet which was really good. I really liked the orange sherbet the best though. Steph tries to get me to do chips but I decline but she keeps using the free ice cream against me. Then one of the baskin robins peeps comes in and tells me to do chips or else I have to pay for it so I have no choice but to do chips. I decide to eat dinner over there so I try one of Tawni's experimental subs.........it was the best sub I've ever had....chicken, bacon, mayo, swiss, italian bread, it was really good. I was about to just run to the car but Steph grabs me before i could leave. So I do chips and then I leave.

Today wasnt anything special. Plan JA is moving slowly but that's really the way I wanted it to happen. I guess I'm really obvious cuz people can tell that I have a thing for Katie. In marketing, another 2 hours watching presentations. I gave Jason his gift and he told me that Steph was acting a little down. I would have ditched but I decided against it. In bio, Tawni's eyes were all red. So I helped her stop itching her eyes which made it normal again. Other than that I didn't do squat educational wise in bio. Lunch I ate with Jason, Steph and her friends Kim and Holly, and Tawni and Paul. Steph was having problems which I didn't pick up cuz I had outside conversations everywhere. I heard my name mentioned but I doubt it had anything to do with me. In math, Ms. Baerwald decided not to show up so finally the door was unlocked and we did our shit. hmmm...I don't have much planned do some homework, watch the suns game, program Tawni's calculator, buy my sis an icee....

Random Things....

Hmm....April 29th 2 weeks notice comes out, to balance things out I may get either American Pie or the sequel.

My eraser finally broke off into two pieces. Let's just say it was the best $.50 I've ever spent. (Don't really know why I added that so don't ask)

I need to focus, all my classes, my grades are falling like shitbricks....

Plan JA Rolls Along

Song Of The Day - Two songs today.....
1st one recommended by Tiano,really good lyrics - Jurassic 5 feat. Nelly Furtado - Thin Line Lyrics Here
2nd One I just d/l'ed - Garth Brooks - To Make You Feel My Love Lyrics Here
Currently Feeling - Decent

Well yesterday not much really went on. Barbie got into Concert choir at Cactus. She was waiting over at Texaco on 59th and Greenway but told me that she was on 59th and Cactus so I was there for an hour worried. I talked to Tawni for a while, I was right she did get a bit teary too after reading my note, anyways then she ate dinner while I passed out right before I was gonna get some sherbet since everyone talks about how good it is. I wake up around 8 eat dinner and talk to Tawni again for another while then I go back to sleep.

This morning I forgot to work at the Cobra corner so now I've gotta make up two days by coming in 3 times. Today seemed like an exceptionally ordinary, average day. In english Katie wasn't there but I did talk to Natalie. I decided to tell her and asked her to kind of feel around but don't give away anything. She thought it was really cute. In marketing I was so bored cuz we had a 2 hour class and we had to sit thru presentations. In bio, I didn't really do much except for helping Tawni with her math. I'm so fuckin stupid, i worked on one problem for the whole hour then I realized I could have solved it in like 5 secs. Nothing noteworthy at lunch, math I just finished up my homework.

Random Things.....

nothing planned for today except maybe study for bio....

Tiano...I'm really likin the song, especially after listening to the lyrics...lol nice....

This whole country is still affecting me, now I'm looking for slow jams country version...lol NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

hmm...damn I shouldn't have rented Maid in manhatten during spring break cuz I didn't even go home during spring break. Now I've gotta rent it again......oh well then I'm thinking bout getting 2 weeks notice on the 29th...it's a pretty good movie although not exactly how I would of expected it from the preview.

Plan JA is going pretty well in my eyes, but nothing really new to note except Jeff said that he senses that I'm really starting to dig her and also Nat said that she kinda guessed it.

N64 and the Sentimental Card

Song Of The Day - O Town - All or Nothing At All
Currently Feeling - Good

Yesterday I went to church but not church class cuz I had to return my tux. They didn't ask for payment yet so I'll hold the money for a month to wait and see if they notice. I bought some food for my sis then took a nap. Adam called and wanted to get some ice cream so I went over to his house then we went to Walgreen's to get some ice cream cookies. We picked up Frank and went to his house to play mario kart. It was me as wario, Adam as Yoshi, and Frank as DK, and Frank's lil bro as Toad. We played for a little bit then went to pick up Adam's friend Dusty. We went to the top of the parking garage by the hospital and I realized that that would be the best place if I ever needed to think. We went to my house to play perfect dark and no mercy for a while then I drove them home. I called Tawni and talked to her for a little bit while she was at the store. We kept disconnecting so she called me when she got home. We talked for a while and she made me feel really better after talking to her and I hope that I made her feel better too.

Today was a pretty good day also. In english, Plan JA has started rolling and she seems like a really cool person to talk to. I'll take things slow though and make sure I don't jump into things real quick. Mike also told me that Christie (not the christie I normally talk about) and Darren fucked at a party in front of everyone. It's really weird cuz she's a catholic girl, seems like a big goody goody, vice pres of the deca club of AZ, yet she's so stupid in the decision she made. From what I heard Darren is planning on breaking up with her, I dunno it was really weird and the whole school new about it and she admited to it and said that she loves him so she doesn't mind doing that in front of everyone. (my personal opinion is she is one dumbass....if you say you love someone, you don't have to prove it by having sex with them in front of a whole party, i'm just glad that I wasn't there). In marketing David, Adrian, and me did our presentation. I thought we did a real good job with it except for Adrian......but oh well I thought it was gonna be David who was gonna fuck up but he did a nice job on the presentation aspect of it. In bio I got my card from Tawni, it was really a very sweet card and I was trying not to get teary. It was probably the perfect card that would describe our friendship. I mean we always talk about it and it's funny how everything worked out..... Lunch I ate with Jason, Frank, then Tawni and Paul came and sat next to us. It was pretty cool....in math, nothing special and afterschool I had to drop off Barbie at Cactus for her chorus tryouts. Now I'm home with not much homework to do if any...

Random Things.....

----Note To Tawni------
Hey!!!! I really loved the card, you couldn't have picked a better one. It really meant a lot to me, I have a lot to thank you for. Your always there for me when I needed someone to talk to, and for the fact that you wouldn't have let me shell back up in front of you. I'm glad that I met you or else I could have become a different person from the person I am now. Your friendship means the world to me and I want you to know that I'll always be there to lend a shoulder to cry on and that I don't want you to worry about me getting scared away by your problems, I always thought that my problems would scare you away. Looking back there will always be things I regret not saying back then but having your friendship will always be good enough for me and I would never risk jepardizing that. Don't forget that everything I've written in my blog and especially my poems were all from the heart and that I really do care about you, and that I really do love you as a friend and that I would never say I love you unless I meant it......heh now I'm getting all teary and I think I know you well enough to know your getting pretty teary too so I'll stop there.
---End Note-----


ehhmm....sorry I got off track y'all let me see if I there is anything else......

Plan JA is off to a good start,afterschool in the parking lot I was talking to Natalie and I was tempted to tell her but I think I'll wait a bit before I tell Natalie, I'm just scared she may say something to Katie......

My intimidation factor is ever so decreasing, as now I'm getting called Teddy by Tawni, Steph, Jason, and even Frank......it's starting to scare me......

The Aftermath of Prom

Song Of The Day - Justin Timberlake - Still On My Brain
Currently Feeling - Good, Sad, Bothered, dazed,sick

Yesterday was the big dance.....hmm so yesterday to prepare I picked up Tawni and got her boutinere for Paul then we drove around looking for a purple tulip for Steph. We tried about 2 flower shops and Fry's before we found a purple tulip. We then went thru the car wash with the mandatory "cry me a river" playing. We seemed pretty amused by the car wash but anyways then I dropped off Steph then went home and watched the Suns game. They won and I started getting ready. I got everything figured out except for the cufflinks which were jabbing my arm and hurt like none other.
I drove to Amber's house but forgot the coursage so I had to go back and pick that up then drove back to her house. We took a bunch of pictures (we matched really well except for the fact we had different colored corsage and boutinere). She looked real nice. Her mom and dad told me no drinking and the same to Amber including drugs. After that we went to Steph's house and they were both pretty much ready. They looked real nice also. We waited for a while then Paul came and they took some pics then left. Jason came took pictures, then his dad fixed my cufflinks then we left.
We were all meeting up at Cousins. We arrived at Cousins then took even more pictures. We met up with Mike and Chelsey, and Cam and Emily. We then left to pick up Tawni's coursage at Flowerama then all meet up at PapaDeux. We had to wait awhile so we chilled outside. Mike called me the kingpin...lol.....so we finally got inside and the guy from el primo's is there. He comes to our table and gives us 40 dollars for our dinner. I ordered the fillet minion but it was so bloody I didn't eat all of it.
Finally we went to the Sheraton Cresent. We all met up and we took our pictures. We all chilled outside the halls for a bit then finally went in. The dance itself was kind of a tale of two cities. On one hand I had a really great time but on the other I didn't have such a hot time (get to it later) . I promised Mike I would go crazy with him and Cam so during one point of the dance Jamie goes up to me and we start freakin and I get a mini Go James and Go Jamie chant...lol pretty funny. Towards the end i just started singing although it hurt my voice quite a bit. Overall a fun time.
Afterwards we followed Mike to Emily's house and stayed there for an hour. They have the cutest baby that kept staring at me. Before I left Mike and Cam came over and gave me a hug. They said that they're glad that Jason and Steph are going out so that we can hang out more often and I gave them my cell.....Mike and Cam are the funniest guys ever......I drove Amber home then found my temporary thinking pad that was only 5 minutes from my house. I stayed up there til about 1:30-2 then went home and went to sleep.

Random Things....

Don't have any plans for today

I had a good time with Amber but would probably never hook up cuz were really different......

I'm sick right now, my voice is all croaky and my nose is all stuffy, and i keep sneezing....I had to ration my talking or else I may have lost my voice last nite, it was probably a mistake singing towards the end of the dance but i stopped caring.....

If I needed a push to go thru with Plan JA I got it last nite......

On the whole "tale of two cities" comment I don't wanna really want to comment about it but it led to me thinking on the quiet road

A Moment Like This: Prom

Song Of The Day - Brandy - Sitting In My Room
Currently Feeling - Excited

So yesterday I go with Jason to get my tux. There were so many peeps picking up their tux. My tux looks pretty sick, Tawni and Steph called and kept telling us to hurry up to Cousins. We finally got there and kicked it for an hour. They had barely any customers when all of a sudden a family of 12 came in then more customers popped in, so we figured they would be busy so we bounced. We went to Frank's and kicked it there for a while. We played some Mario Kart (not the same without loud Adam), then we went to Desert Ridge to go see Phone Booth. The movie was ehhh...decent, kinda boring. We went to In-N-Out for Jason then I tried to get a car wash but they kept asking for my account #. Then I just dropped them off, tried on my tux, then went to sleep.

Random Things.......

The plan for today goes as followed, go to get Coursage with Tawni, car wash, free time for a bit, take shower, shave, put on tux, go to Ambers at 4:35, go to Steph's, go to Cousins, go to Papagos, go to Prom, go to Emily's house.

I didn't pay for my tux, they forgot to charge me.......

I keep only 3 things from my blog and everyone else.....1 was Ian but that no longer, 2 is I don't say anything if I have cried, 3 is I can't remember...but about everything else I'm pretty straightforward about my life

Mario Kart Tournament and Plan JA

Song Of The Day - Lee Ann Rimes - One Of These Days (I think that's what it's called, it's 8 on the cd)
Currently Feeling - Good Yet A Little Worried


Ok the curiousity is killing me, I'm curious cuz I have a pretty good idea of who reads this blog but I know someone with Cox cable from Arizona reads my blog. I know it's probably someone I know cuz my life is not really that interesting. So I just wanna know who ya are cuz I can't figure it out.... Thanx


Well hmmmm, well not much happened last nite, talked to Tawni for a bit then I just went to sleep. Today we had early release and it was pretty cool. I had to go to the library in english, in marketing Adrian and me just kicked back and talked about the usual basketball and music, in bio Tawni finally came back today although she's still a bit sick. Pretty much a free day though in Bio, math usual...sucked.....afterschool I dropped off Jeff then went to Frank's house cuz I was gonna eat lunch with Frank and Adam. Jason called up and he was gonna eat lunch with Steph, Tawni and Paul and invited us but we didn't feel like eating at Denny's. We played 3 games of Mario Kart in which I killed them all (sky from above and my yellow domain in block fort should ring a bell Tiano...). We took Franks truck and ate at Ray's Pizza. Nothing too exciting. We didn't really want to do anything that required money so we went back to Franks and held a Mario Kart Tourney. The final results were Adam with 13 wins, Frank with 8 wins, and I won with 16 wins. It sucked cuz they kept double teaming me but oh well. Afterwards I went home and I took a nap for 2 hours until Jason called. We talked about plan JA (I'll explain later).....then we talked about Tawni, then about Steph, then a couple other stuff. I joke around with him about how he's probably gonna leave the group. Afterwards Tawni and Steph call and tell me to go over to Cousin's right now......So it shouldn't have come to a shock that I ended up getting timed coming over there. They had absolutely no customer's it was pretty funny. Their manager kevin is pretty funny and throws cracks at Steph and Tawni with Steph getting majority of it. I hung around for about an hour then I went home to drop off my sis and her friend. I took her home then went to Adrian's to pick up this paper. I then went to Staples but didn't want to spend money so now I'm home.

Random Things....

My plans for tomorrow is to be as busy as possible so I can't kick it with Ian. So when I get home, I'll wash the car, then I'll pick up Jason go get our Tuxes, chill with Frank, go to Cousins for some clam chowwwwder, then go watch phone booth.

Plan JA is well the girl I like in my english class is named Katie Harris...it's sad when my bests friends Adam, Tawni, and Jason (Frank didn't know her) were able to guess on their first tries. Anywho my plan is that I want to get to know her better before I make any type of move. Then if I decide to go thru with it I'll have Tawni and Natalie help me out on it. Hopefully it won't be like Tawni where when I look back and I realize how many times I screwed up (knock on wood).......She seems like a nice girl and she isn't quiet, and she's cute so those were my three main things I was looking for. Oh yeah she's not an idiot which is a plus too.

My bad omen dreams have died down a little but are still somewhat there. I dunno, they kinda worry me.........

Prom is 2 days away, I can't wait for it all to be over, it's gonna be cool and all but it's eaten away at all my available funds, and even at my reserve money.

Sometimes it's eerie when u look back on yourself and realize how much you have changed and even those who you have known for a long time. I happy with who I'm like now though and I like who I hang out with. I don't like being on the spotlight or being with people who I can't be myself around. I just thought of that cuz I stepped on Kachina grounds the other day and I realize I don't talk to that much peeps from Kachina that much anymore. Mainly cuz I choose not to go to majority of the parties cuz I don't wanna get high or drunk but I'm cool with that.

hmmm these are the future cd's I'm planning on making in the next few weeks

Mariah Carey CD
Rap CD
Slow Jamz XI
Trisha yearwood cd (from Tawni)

Update #2: A New Girl?????

Well hmm....nothing really special happened after I last updated. I ran a bunch of errands, got my glasses fixed, went to the bank, picked up my mom and sis at the school and hospital, dropped my sis off at the game, spent twice as much as I hoped for on cologne, instead of Pleasures I went for Armani GIO. smells good though.......talked to Tawni for a bit, she's doing good. hmmm

Random Things....

I think I'm interested in this one girl in my english class. I'm not too sure but I did promise myself that I wouldn't let opportunities slip away from me again. So I'll let u know how that turns out. We talk during class but I don't really know her quite yet. Hopefully I'll get the chance to talk to her more.

Sitting in the Library Alone....

Song Of The Day - Lee-Ann Rymes - I Need You (I think it's number one on her "I Need Love" cd)
Currently Feeling - ok

I'm in the library right now so I'd figure I'd update real quick since I have a bunch of stuff to do today afterschool. Last nite I called Tawni cuz I was real worried about her. She was about to go to the hospital cuz of reasons she put on the topic on the right. She was doing ok so I just filled her in on what happened today. I went over to her house to go pick up Serendipity and she was gonna let me borrow her lee-ann rymes cd. I talked for a bit then Steph came over and she told us about her bitchy customer....it was pretty funny. After a bit I went to my car and gave her back her cd and also let her borrow my Boyz II Men cd. She's finally going to see a doctor tomorrow which is great and hopefully it's nothing serious. Today I gots to get a haircut and also I gotta get my cologne "estee lauder pleasures".

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---Note To Tawni----
Hey Tawni, how r u feelin? Well I'm alone in the library so I just wanted to wish you to get better. Anywho update your blog!!! I miss ya, it's real quiet, kinda eerie......I'll probably call up tonite to see how your doing....well have fun...
---end Note-----

prom is a couple days away

Oh yeah I forgot to publish this questionaire I did yesterday...

Here is a questionaire

*Date: April 1, 2003
*Name: James R. Go
*Nicknames: Jamz
*Age: 16
*Birthday: August 23, 1986
*School: Cactus High School
*Location: Peoria
*E-mail: jamzgo@hotmail.com
*Color of eyes: dark brown
*Hair: Black
*Height: 5'10
*Shoe Size: 12-13
*Brothers/Sisters: Little sister Barbie, Older Sister Marianne
*Who lives with you: Mom, Dad, little sis, Aunt
*When is your bedtime?: Don't have one but during school still about 11-12


B A S I C Q U E S T I O N S
[in the morning i am]: disorientated
[love is]: all you need
[if i could see one person right now]: haven't seen my couz in a while
[im afraid of]: needles
[i dream about]: bad omens lately
[actually seen ur crush naked]: no
[cried when someone died]: yes, but I've been fortunate not to know alot who have
[drank alcohol]: not in a year and going strong
[lied]: yes, but I'm no good at it
[coke or pepsi]: pepsi
[flowers or candy]: candy, especially hershey's with almonds


------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
*Ever been so drunk you black out: nope
*Missed school Bus: yes back in frosh year in the first day of school
*Put a body part on fire for amusement: no
*Car Accident: unfortunately
*Been hurt emotionally: yes
*Kept a secret from everyone: yeah
*Had an imaginary friend: no
*Wanted to hook up with a friend: yeah
*Cried during a Movie: too much times
*Had a crush on a teacher: yup....Mrs. Abramson and Ms. Sharp
*Ever thought an animated character was hot: lol yup
*Had a New Kids on the Block tape: nope but I always sang along to their songs
*Been on stage: yes
*Cut your hair: yes
*Been sarcastic: yeah



W I T H T H E O P P O S I T E S E X . . .
[what do u notice first?]: face (smile)
[last person u slow danced with]: Vicky
[worst thing to say]: I have no backbone to say something bad
[scruff or clean shaven]: I hope she's not scruffy
[tall or short]: short


------------------FAVORITES------------------
*Shampoo: Herbal essences
*Soap: soap? body wash for me
*Color: black and blue
*Day/Night: night
*Summer/winter: winter
*Lace or satin: I would prefer satin on a girl
*Cartoon Character: hmm...I just watch whatever interests me, but nothing will ever beat the original teenage mutant ninja turtles
*Fave salad: As long as it has ranch
*Fave Movie: Serendipity
*Fave Ice Cream: Rocky Road
*Fave Subject: I hate them all equally
*Fave Person to talk to online: don't talk much online, but back in the day it would have to be my ex-girlfriend


------------------ W H O------------------
[makes u laugh the most?]: Adam and Frank crackin jokes at each other
[makes you smile]: mainly my close friends and family
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them]: hmm...probably still Tawni
[has a crush on u?]: lol, this one girl in my bio and math class (umm.....this is a message board)
[easier to talk to: boys or girls?]: girls



------------------RIGHT NOW------------------
*Wearing: red polo shirt, khaki pants
*Hair is: messy
*I'm feeling: bored
*Eating: nothing
*Drinking: water
*Thinkin bout: when to start doing my homework
*Listening to: extreme - more than words
*Talking to: no one
*Watching: b-ball game


D O Y O U E V E R . . .
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. u?]: back in the day my ex-girl....lol pathetic but it was sweet back then
[save aol/aim conversations]: occasionally
[cried because of someone saying something to u]: yeah
------------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
*Cried: no
*Worn a skirt: hell no
*Met someone New: no
*Cleaned your room: nope, it clean right now
*Drove a car: yes


H A V E Y O U E V E R . . .
[fallen for ur best friend]: yeah
[been rejected]: yeah
[rejected someone]: tried to but didn't have the heart
[used someone]: hopefully never will
[been cheated on]: yes :(
[done something u regret]: I regret a lot of things


---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
*Yourself: sometimes
*Your friends: yeah
*Santa Claus: lol yup
*Tooth Fairy: used to
*Angels: yup, hopefully my guardian angel looks over me
*Ghosts: yes, scary
*UFO's: no
*God: yes


W H O W A S T H E L A S T P E R S O N . . .
[u talked to]: Frank (not counting family)
[hugged]: Christie
[u instant messaged]: I haven't done any IM'ing in a while I think maybe a couple weeks ago
[u laughed with]: Frank


------------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
*Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: nope, the search begins after prom
*Like anyone?: yes
*Who have you known the longest of your friends: in my own group, Jason since frosh year 2nd semester.........otherwise Ian since 4th grade
*Who's the loudest: Adam
*Who's the shyest: That would definately be me
*Who's the weirdest: Definately Adam
*Who do you go to for advice: Tawni, I can tell her anything
*Who do you cry with: I try to cry by myself without anyone knowing ( I don't even blog about it)
*Whats the best feeling in the world: Knowing that my friends will always have my back
*Worst Feeling: when you bottle your feelings for so long that you get all depressed and shit
*Finish time: ???
------------------ H A V E Y O U / D O Y O U / A R E Y O U ------------------


[color your hair]: yeah
[habla espanol]: sometimes, not very good though
[smoke]: I haven't smoked drugs in 2 yrs, and I would never smoke a cigarette
[obsessive]: try not to be
[could u live without the computer?]: doubtful
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?]: I think like 40 or 50 but I don't talk to much people online anymore
[what's your favorite food?]: hmmm....boiled eggs
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: strawberries and banana's
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: hands downs Emotional
[trust others way too easily?]: nope, I shell up to those I dont trust or if I'm in a situation I don't feel good in


F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S . . .
[i want]: to start summer break
[i wish]: I would find a girlfriend that doesn't kill my spirit
[i love]: my family, and close friends, and Capt. Mallow
[i miss]: my cousins
[i fear]: Tawni ( I can't intimidate her)
[i hear]: my fone ring
[i wonder]: if I am I good person

Return of Summer and Ashby Comments Yet Again

Song Of The Day - Wizard of OZ - If I Only Had A Brain (don't ask me why)
Currently Feeling - ehhh....ok

Today was a pretty normal school day. I miss spring break, nothing interesting is happening anymore, were back to the normal routine of school. My english teach was on my case about my small print, I have to find someone to do an icon paper on........In marketing Bunton wasn't there so Adrian and me talked about sports and rap. Nine games left can the suns made the playoffs? I was thinking about going to the Suns game tonite since Tacora offered me his other ticket but I didn't feel like going to downtown Phoenix. Before Bio I got a chance to talk to Steph, she told me lately everyone goes up to her and asks hows she's doing with Jason. I just told her that it's just a phase and should die down in a couple days. Mike Smith continues to talk shit. In bio Tawni wasn't there so it was pretty quiet. Luckily I sat next to Hubert, Danielle, and Melanie so that a certain person couldn't grab the empty seat. I did a pretty good job on my oral presentation that I'm proud of. The rest of the day we just played games (not fun ones but rather protein synthesis games)...oh well that meant free time. Lunch I opted not to eat out with Adam and Adrian but chose to eat in with Jason and Frank. I was in line at the sub line when I accidentally bump into Mr. Ashby. He turns to me and says "James, you always seem lost when Tawni isn't at school"...lol hah hah Mr. Ashby.....Math is hard as fuck now so i know getting straight a's is going to be a pain in the ass.

My plans for today are....get a haircut, then play everything else by ear.....

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School has been excrutianingly boring...... hence my short posts, hopefully things will pick up after the break-in week.