Overwhelmed

Currently Feeling- Confused
This Day In History- More V Day Troubles......

Well I haven't blogged in the past couple days for a couple reasons. I have been exceptionally swamped with things I have to do. Been bugged with homework, I had to write a couple of letter of recommendations, as well as do scholarship stuff. It's been hectic. It would have been bad enough but I've got other issues to deal with also. Well I guess I solved one of them a couple nights ago with Tawni. As I explained to her, it was only the catylist of the problem and not necessarily the actual problem. Also something seems weird, not necessarily wrong mind you but different. Something seems out of place, maybe it's just me but I can't help but feel that way. Why I do is something I have yet to discover. Anyways so what have I done, well I dunno if I can remember everything, last night Jason, Joel, Adam, and I hung out. We went to my house to play Madden, then we went to Cousins for a little bit. After that we went back to Adam's and he drove us to Wal-Mart to go apply. AFter that we headed to Borders where we met up with a couple peeps from their physics class. We hung out there for a while and Frank joined us. After that I took Joel home and I just hung out at home. Today I just had to go to an NHS meeting with Jason and I hung out with Adam for a few then went home. yeah umm....school has been weird to say the least. Physics is more or less pretty easy, Tawni thought about dropping the class but I don't think she would. In all honesty, I would get upset at her if she did drop the class because one I'm in it because she asked me to stay in the class but more importantly I know that she can do well in it, she's just letting the class discourage her. PCT is ok, it's a pretty fun class I guess but there is a lot of work. yeah my partner for this week is Michelle and she's pretty cool. Government is good more or less. I had a lot I wanted to say but I'll choose to limit my words because I have stuff to do. One, there are a lot of peeps in my class like Joel, Mike, Steph, Tawni, Sean, Marcus....so it's rare that I don't have anyone to talk to. It's a big discussion class however and you get to see how a lot of peeps think. Steph and Tawni absolutely hate the people in my class outside of a few people. On a certain extent I have to agree, many of them I've had humanities with so I know their mannerisms. I am completely fine with whatever anyone's opinion is whether or not they agree with me. However things get annoying when they start believing that they are right and you are wrong. Steph and Tawni are right in a way when they say that they have no right to say things about which they have no personal experience. They are though, entitled to their own opinion and beliefs but that is exactly what it is, their own opinion. That is why we live in a democratic society, we vote to see exactly what people think are right and wrong and we go with the majority. And I'm sorry but the separation of church and state, no matter what the constitution says, is impossible. When they say you cannot let religion get involved, for example when it comes to banning abortion, it's impossible not to let religion alter your vote because for some people including me abortion is murder, and you can't expect us to support a law that allows murders of innocent babies. It's all about ethics of right and wrong. And in case I didn't make myself clear (this is directed towards you Steph), I believe rape is an absolutely horrible thing. the person responsible should burn in hell and pay for his crimes. and I'm not doubting the emotional pain that the victim has to go through. But you can't turn back time and you can't change something that has already happened. I know that it is harder to do but should the infant child pay for the crimes of the father.....well there I go ranting again my bad I'll stop there.....anyways yeah

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Yeah something is quite wrong but alas I cannot do anything, as I have come to realize that whatever happens happens.....

hmm...it's weird going through the old posts, because it's so very similar yet so very different...

Something To Think About

Song Of The Day- Eamon - f*#k You
Currently Feeling- Troubled
This Day In History- Fears About Valentines Day.......

Well today nothing bad happened but I've been thinking about something that's been buggin me a lot lately since Weds or Thurs. I still don't care to talk about it yet, so I'll try to let it settle in my head first. Anyways other than that my day has been fine. I got a decent grade on my test which is cool I guess. I have yet to see the hardness of physics. In pct we did skills and what not. At lunch Amber asked me if she wanted me to take my stuff to my car so I was like sure. So she ended up parking it real far away. hahahahahaha. Anyways in Gov't we got into this whole music convo. Yeah my personal thing is that I don't care about selling out ie. AFI.....my whole thing is that if your music is good I'll listen to you. I do have to agree to the whole starting to sound the same, cuz it is but what can you do. But to each their own I guess..... Anyways yeah it looks kinda busy this week with my sis b-day, Amber's b-day party, the safety fair, super bowl....

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Yeah I'm kinda torn between things right now.....bad timing I'm attributing for making things worse...... sorry that doesn't make sense, just don't want to say...

heh I've got this really weird slow jam stuck in my head.....it's really strightforward and honest. It's vulgar but it seems honest...

Eamon - Fuck It

See i dont, know why, i liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, i loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, i wanna let u know how i feel


Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back


You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, i heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hag, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, i dont want you back

Wrong Sister

Song Of The Day- Twista - Slow Jamz
Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History- Well the whole Jeff and Christie thing some more of that. Also Tawni decided not to drop AP Bio which I was really happy about, cuz I think it was that class where I got Tawni to trust me....

Well after Tawni's house yesterday, I ended up chillin at home for a little bit before I headed out to Adam's house. I hung out there for a while just chillin, we then went to my house to get some steak, it was nice. After that we played Tekken then hung out at Adam's again. Frank got off work and picked us up and we headed to Deer Valley to watch Along Came Polly. Jason, Steph, and Kim met us up there. The movie was pretty funny but I had really high expectations for it and it fell short of those expectations. It wasn't as good of a romantic movie as I had hoped but it had it's bright spots.

Today was kinda chill day. Barbie and me went to church and we ended up sitting behind "her".......well I have a pretty good hypothesis and my sis completely agrees with me on this, her sister likes me......yeah that wasn't what I'm expecting. Oh well maybe there is still a chance.....anyways afterwards we went to the hospital then we got some carl's jr. I then watched the Suns game while doing my homework. So much PCT homework. Anyways I talked to a couple peeps and that's been my day...

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hmmm....safety day is next Fri with Sam, I dunno what were going to do in there yet....

Made another rap/r&b cd.....

Chillin With Tara

Song Of The Day- Saves The Day - At Your Funeral
Currently Feeling- Ok or excited cuz I'm with Tara
This Day In History- Tawni blogged on it

Well I'm over at Tawni's house right now trying to fix a computer...but it doesn't seem to be broken. So instead I'm bloggin with Tara. She showed me pics of her boyfriend and we looked at my sis' blog. heh last nite I guess a fight erupted at Sonic while cobratown was there. heh the irony, I called Vicky to see if she was alright then I called Frank cuz we were planning to see the butterfly effect or along came polly. I also ate at Cousins for a little bit and now I'm here. So yeah I guess that's my plan for late tonite. I dunno what I'm doing in the day cuz everyone's working. Frank, Jas, Moses, and Steph are all working. Adam I think is hanging out with someone. So yeah that leaves with nothing to do.

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Tara's the best....

Their computer sucks though

Justified Anger?

Song Of The Day - Something Corporate - Maps and Globes
Currently Feeling- OK
This Day In History- I had my problems with Troy, and I also wrote a really sappy song....

Well yesterday I went to Tawni's house to fix her computer. I ended up being there for a couple hours however I was quite upset but I don't care to discuss. Anyways today, I ran thru school like normal, Tawni wasn't there. In PCT Steph and me partied up and did some skills. Then at lunch....pretty normal, talked to Kailee (spelling?)...she's cool her and shaun are really cool together. My opinion though is that if they were to ever break up, I think Frank and Kailee would go well together, they just have to seem to have a certain chemistry that I feel. I also talked to Amber and she's quite upset. I tried to calm her down. In gov't we had senior forums which were pretty cool, some of the debates got kinda overdone but fun nonetheless. Afterschool Adam and me went to Sylvin learning center so he could get an application. We then hung out and played live for a little bit. We then went to Quizno's and got cheap prices cuz Jordan works there. I also talked to Tawni. I was still a little upset as I found out when I talked to Adam but I cooled off. We talked about same sex marriages, yeah we ended up debating bout that for a while. Then we talked about Amber. Afterwards I then went to Adam's for one more game then we went to Sean's house and he followed us to Tommy's house. Heh on the way over, I kept turning around pretending to shoot him and he kept dodging.....so we went over and played Halo........

Tomorrow I don't have much or any plans, I'm going to try to fix Tawni's computer yet again, I guess a new problem arose....I also gotta put the finishing touches on her letter of reccomendation as well as begin writing Ambers....I felt really bad about forgetting to do her since she asked me a long while ago, I realized that that didn't help in Amber's current mood. After that my day is in a question mark....

Random Things....

I was quite upset last night, and after thinking about it I'm not sure if I was justified becoming upset but I couldn't help but feel that way. I kinda vented with Adam at Carl's Jr but I started cooling off at the end of the day today......

At Odds

Song Of The Day- Chingy - One Call Away
Currently Feeling- Thinking Mood
This Day In History- Wow I really wrote a lot, ummm pretty much I found out that I needed to find my inner peace and also I came to my conclusion that I was not going to try to break "them" up

Sorry for not updating in the past week, it's been kinda chaotic and then my internet was all messed up for a couple days....anyways ummm lets see, it turned out that we didn't do the chicken wing off cuz Steph was feelin out of it, but Jas, Steph, Adam, and Dusty met up at Brothers and we had some wings. I also hung out with Moses and played a big capture the flag Halo type business. I also watched Freddy vs. Jason with Frank and mainly just hung out with my friends. School has been alright, it's sucked cuz it seems the teachers are all cramming to make up for the holiday Mon. Physics is real easy, it's cool though. PCT isn't necessarily hard per say but there is a lot of stuff. I was kinda pissed cuz my dr. was supposed to give me the contract Mon but they delayed til Tues so it was counted late. I feel bad for this kid in my class because he tries to inject himself into conversations but most of the time they just kinda ignore the comment. yeah Govt is cool.....

Sorry for the lack of detail but a lot of things have gone on or lack thereof and I can't remember a lot of things....

Random Things....

I start to see things differently on some things......it's weird and I don't know what to think about some of these things... It's stuff that I think should be kept to myself though....

I feel really bad for Amber and her ordeal with Tawni and Paul.....

I'm having a hard time trying to figure what to write and what to keep to myself, some things I know I shouldn't say because it could be taken the wrong way or what not.

Hit Upside The Head

Currently Feeling- Sad
This Day In History-I really blogged, I talked about Jeff and Christie and how it looked like they were going to hook up.....heh that didn't work out quite the way anyone expected. Yeah my favorite line had to come from Christie and Alicia "James Go, your so good at hooking up other people so why don't you hook yourself up"....

Well today has been quite a gloomy day, or at least saddening. Last night Adam decided he is going to ASU West so alas that makes two. Jason as I said earlier got accepted into the air force academy, and now Adam. All I need now is Frank getting accepted into Michigan. But I also thought about it and I mean the group is dying. I mean Jason, I'm only going to see only what 3 times a year....I know Steph is going through it the worse and all and it's really sad. Adam I'll only see whenever I come down, but out of everyone in the crew, I hang out with Adam the most. There's still a chance Frank may go to Tucson but I'm not sure yet. hmm...yeah Steph and Tawni are going to UofA which is a good thing though......anyways that finally hit me today which was a downer. Also Tawni was acting really down today. I tried to talk to her about it but she just said she was tired which could be true but I don't think that was it. I dunno good ole Tawnicita was really quiet today. Anyways tonight, the probability is still the chicken wing contest tonight but I'm not 100% sure. Going to hang out with Adam, drop by Jason's house, may drop by cousins so yeah.....

The King of the Wing

Song Of The Day- Tupac and Snoop - Gangsta Party
Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History- Did alot of thinking about Tawni as well as the whole MDX accident.......

Well the past couple days have really been with Steph and Tawni all day long...heh it's funny, I see them all day at school and then we hang out afterschool every once and a while. I seem to be at the butt of their remarks though...i guess that's the downfall of having them in class....heh j/k.....anyways some stuff has happened in the past couple days........umm well last nite I talked to Tawni for a couple hours, we talked about some stuff...some problems, some basic stuff, then some things I didn't want to know about....although I can say that for once in the year and a half I've known her, she said something I wouldn't expect outta her..........anyways it was cool talking for a while, it was just like the old days.....hmmm I talked to Jeff and were going to hang out and catch up and crap...heh been a while since I've hung out with him but he was sick and had my back.....Yeah well it seems that there is going to be a chicken wing off on Fri between Adam, Steph, maybe Paul, and me...damn I'm going to kill all of them.........hmmm yeah I think that's about it...I guess remind me if I forgot anything....

James V.9.0

Song Of The Day- NWA - Gangsta, Gangsta
Currently Feeling- Sad.....j/k pretty good
This Day In History- Got into accident which wasn't good for the already dwindling attitude of mine.....

Well I'll give a quick recap of the past couple days.....

Thurs
Had early release...Tawni, Steph, and me headed over to the uniform place to get our stuff for PCT. We then went to the hospital and got our hospital id. We then went to the bank so that Tawni could get some money. We then dropped off Steph so she could pick up her car....oh yeah by the way, the whole time Jason, Frank, Adam, and Paul were waiting at the Elephant Bar for us...oops.....So Tawni and me are heading on our way to the Elephant Bar, the whole time dancing with Steph following us from behind....heh yeah I guess according to her, were really weird but alas what can ya do.... Anyways we got there and I got my buffalo wings which were really good....

Fri
hmm.....yeah so in Gov't we played "battle of the sexes"....yeah we lost.....afterwards Adam and me hung out at Jason's house playing pool....damn I almost swept Adam at pool but I won 3-1.......Steph invited Adam and me to go to Mary Coils (spelling?) but Adam didn't want to go and I'm smart enough to not go and be the 5th wheel so alas we went to my house and Adam had some steak then we picked up Underworld and watched that at Adam's house. Frank dropped by and that was our night....

Sat
Hung out with family for a little bit and went out to eat then went to Barnes and Noble for a little bit . Damn in case you haven't seen it, Michelle Branch is sooo hot, damn also the hottest cop in America is sooooo fine......Afterwards I hung out with Adam and Anne but called it in early.....

Sun
Went to church then the group (Adam, Frank, Jason, and me) played Red Faction at Adam's house.....Talked to Tawni and talked to her about stuff for a little bit....

Today
Heh Steph and Tawni....now I've begun to see how the rest of the semester could turn out.....I swear it was like I had a big bullseye on me cuz they were gunning at me like a mug....j/k sort of.....no I'm not like a dog I just have a strong sense of smell....heh gov't is fun cuz I have so much folk to talk to........Yeah the only real minus about the day was that I inadvertantly got into the middle of a problem between Paul, Tawni, and Amber. Amber seemed upset at lunch and I guess Tawni, Paul, and her were supposed to go to lunch but they changed plans without letting her know. So alas when I got to my car, Amber accompanied me. She then proceeded to give them the cold shoulder to them and then she starts telling me what's up. So I talked to her about it telling her that she should talk to them. Then in gov I talked to Tawni about it and she told me what's up....So after hearing both sides I've come up with the conclusion that there seems to be a communication gap....they just need to talk it over and get things straightened out.....Amber did have a point when she said they always act like they are connected at a joint....they give off that impression whether that is intended or not....at the same time Amber should realize that Tawni doesn't like Shawn and she will not hang out with him. Everything else seems to be a bit of a misunderstanding......

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(Steph and Tawni).....you guys are fucking mean to me......I hate you all......................heh I'm just joshin with ya I love ya all more or less.....

James v. 9.0 is for real by the way....

"New" James

Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History- I dunno bout it, but it was the debut of "the X Spot" marked on my hand.....

Well today was pretty normal.....1st hour was boring, PCT was funny cuz we were practicing fainting and catching the patient.....well the girl I was working with faints like no other and pulls forward....So I grabbed the belt and I lift her from falling...Then i start yelling, "I caught her, I caught her Ms. Smith" the whole time still holding her in my right arm....heh funny......5th period was pretty normal also.....afterschool I wanted to take a nap but I told Tawni I was going to Cousins unless I was dead.....So I went over there and hung out with her and Steph for a couple hours just chillin....They kept wanting to find out what the "new" James is.....heh I'll explain later....anyways I stayed for a while then I went home, now I'm watching the Suns game....

Random Things.....

So I guess I should explain my "New" James theory......Well it goes like this, it's not completely new but more like a combination of all the failed "New James". Their seemed to always be something that I was trying to force outta myself that was completely being out of character.....So my new James is more of a mix of all those things, nothing forced and it was just all of a sudden I'm a new James....it has been a gradual change thing...... I guess I'll try to list some of the changes although even I'm not completely sure of all the changes...... Well let's see.....I've been a lot happier now that I've found my equilibrium....My confidence is back, cuz I've just stopped caring...not in the bad way mind you.... I've become more vocal, as a result. I've also given a deaf ear to things people say that I don't really wanna do. Also throughout the year (actually last year) I've been able to stop thinking about a lot of stuff that would repeatedly get me down and what not..... I'm pretty sure you should all know most of the stuff I'm talking about.....There other things but I'm not quite sure, it's just that I feel different, better, I'm the same ole james, just more upbeat and stuff...

TB Shot

Song Of The Day- The Starting Line - Playing Favorites
Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History- Start of 2nd semester, seemed quite interested on how AP Bio would turn out.....

Well last night I had a nice sleep but for some reason I kept waking up thinking it was time for school....anyways their was only one thing on my mind today and that was my TB shot....I was freaked....In physics all we did was do a lab involving circles....2nd period the only other guy finally came to class....seemed a bit weird but I'm not going to make any judgements on who he is...I took my TB shot while holding on to Tawni....It helped although it didn't seem that way but I was really freaked and I was really thinking about just leaving the classroom....anyways I worked with Vicky and this other girl (can't remember name) on patient positions...... Lunch was cool as we had Amber and Steph sit at the table. In 5th period I worked with Joel and Mike, with Daniel on a group jepardy type business.... I'm not too fond of Daniel partially cuz I found him annoying back in the old Global Humanities days.... lol Steph reads playboy!!!!!.......ANyways afterschool I've done nothing so far, don't know if I plan too so I guess I chill til then....

Random Things....

Not much just wanted to note that i'm feeling pretty good.

Weird Schedule

Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History- I got back to AZ and showed my cousins around......

Well today was the restart of school. 3 new classes, I didn't know quite what to expect......

well I guess I'll overview my 3 classes

1st period Physics
Well I went to class with Tawni since we have the same schedule. Ummm pretty boring first period, Zach and Tommy are both in my class.....

2nd and 3rd Patient Care Tech
Went their with Tawni also....Steph, Vicky, Sam are in my class as well....ummm we did CPR all day....oh by the way I'm the only guy (so far).....but it's not the best class to be the only guy in though

5th Gov/Econ H
Went to my class alone.....ended up sitting next to Tawni, Joel, Sean, Mark.....pretty fun class...should be interesting.....

Yeah so afterschool all I really did was go to Cousins, get some dividers, then when I was getting gas, I chatted it up with an older dude with a new 530i....I complemented his car and he said it was a real nice ride.....

So yeah that's all I've done....

Random Things....

Actually quiet first day back considering the past....oh well....I don't think I saw any new possibilities but it's only the first day back...

Twas the Night Before 2nd Semester

Song Of The Day- Something Corporate - Fall
Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History- Still in SD, went to the improv, very funny, we also tried to go to TJ but Barbie didn't have any id......

Well last nite not much really went on. I went over to Adam's house and we went to Fry's so he could buy some candy....heh it's quite funny cuz Adam always talks about how he has no money yet he buys so much candy. I swear Adam's going to become a diabetic when he's 25....knock on wood.....anyways we then went to his house and played live til about 12:30....I then went home and fell asleep....

Today was more of nothing really. I went to church, I tried to get there early but I didn't put into account how long it would take to shave so I ended up getting their after her. I still sat near her but not the preferred spot. Anyways if their is any positive, I gave her the biggest "I like you smile" when we greeted....yeah I'm gonna punch myself now......Afterwards I was going to go to Cousins but ended up not instead I went home, watched the game and cleaned my room. Jason called and I talked to him for a bit and he gave me some of his personal advice. More hanging out, then I went over to Adam's for a little then met up my family for dinner. Now I'm home just chilling.....

Random THings...

School starts tomorrow and I just don't find any reason to care....

Last nite I was thinking about something, and i just think that although some would disagree I think I made the right decision all that long ago. It may have taken more than a year to realize it, but it just seems right now and everything really seems in place.

Welcome 2004

Song of the Day - Starting Line - The Night Life
Currently Feeling- Refreshed
This Day In History- 1st - I was in SD too, hung out with John and Chris...3rd - Still in SD hanging out with Family....

Well I got back from Cali last night. It was a well needed break from AZ as I feel refreshed from the vacation. Hmm I'll try to recap....

30th
I ended up leaving at like 5:30 and I had to drive halfway. We ended up their around 11:30 at night. Chris picked us up and we were on our way to SD. We played Simpsons monopoly then went to sleep.

31st
We woke up....man I love chris' foam bed.... He went to visit his girl then we went to Jamars so that I could try to eat the 2lbs burger. The deal is if you finish it, it's free if not then it's $20. I started at record pace but in the end it was the tomatoes and the pickles that killed me. We then went to Temecula for new years......I played Mark ncaa basketball 2004 and he beat me with Arizona but not North Carolina. He was drunk off his ass though from Russian Vodka. I then played Chris Madden and we pretty much evened out. New Years itself was nothing but a former shell of what it used to be. Gone are all the family members and now just the bare remnants of the once huge gatherings.

1st
Happy 21st ChrisTiano..... To celebrate we all went to this really nice restaurant called Peohes.....hmmm good food but nothing better than the Hot Chocolate Lava Cake....oh my god that was good....sure it costs $8 and took 30 minutes to prepare....the center was molten chocolate....it really was the best cake ever.....We then watched LotR again.....Chris didn't like the ghost army....lol "the cowardice of ghost saved the courage of man"...... We then drove back to Temecula, with me driving. We stopped by Bennigans for dinner and we ate chicken wings...good.....I drove the pathfinder....damn it's like a sports car....lol.....anyways hung out with John for a while then watched Twilight Zone with Marianne and Chris...

2nd
Said our goodbyes, then went to my uncles clinic and hung out there for a while.. I had a talk with my uncle Jolly about girls and career...pretty cool.....Drove home and just went to sleep....

3rd

I let everyone know that I was back.....caught up with the crew, went to Cousins with Em working. Had a salad, then went back home for a few.....Went to Jason's house then to pick up Frank and Adam and we went to 3 different wal-marts in search of Project Gotham Racing 2...we were unsuccessful and we ended up dropping off Frank cuz of work. The 3 of us then went to the mall in search of my beenie....I finally got it at Beyond image....I saw Janell and she snuck up behind me I was quite surprised... We then went to Jason's house for a bit, then I dropped off Adam and now I'm at home chilling for a bit...

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Starting second semester going to be great. Perfect feeling right now. Everything is in perspective......

I'm contemplating trying something tomorrow at church....still thinking bout it though...