More Than Words

Currently Feeling- Confused

Well last night was something definitely different although it started out quite normally. I went and did some errands then went to Tawni's house and picked her up to go to watch the Notebook. We got hotdogs and drinks then we watched the movie. Let me say that that is one damn good movie. It is from the same author who wrote a Walk To Remember and I would have to say it is better that it because it is a more mature sense of love (although I'm not trying to take away from A Walk To Remember, another damn good movie). Anyways It was really good to say the least. I got teary eyed but I held on. Tawni on the other hand was crying like a baby. Anywho we then went back to her house and hung out there for a while before deciding to get ice cream. We went to Maggie Moo's and we chilled there and talked for a while then I dropped her off while I went and did some "errands". After that I went back over to her house and we hung out there for a little. We sat out on the porch before deciding to go visit Adam and go swimming. So we went to the Mariott and swam there til Chad and Ryan came. We hung out at the pool til Adam got off work then we went our separate ways for a little. Adam and me went to QT to get some drinks then we went to Dusty's house so Adam could borrow some porn. Dusty spent $90 on porn. Anyways I realized that I still had Tawni's phone so I went over to her house to drop off her phone. I was going to leave but they convinced me to go to Chris' house to go and hang out. So I went home for a bit to eat then I met up with them. It was Mike, Khalid, Frank, Ryan, Tawni, and me. They drank and what not and I just chilled. After that I followed Mike home then took home the drunks. After that I went home at like 3 but I chose to stay outside for a little bit and try to gather some thoughts before bed.

That didn't really work as I didn't get particularly good sleep, 3 hours to be exact but I guess I had a lot on my mind. Anyways today I gotta do some errands because my dad and mom are going to Parker to do some business. Then I'm taking my aunt Rose and Uncle Rudy to Arizona Mills. After that I'm going to hang out with Jason.

Random Things...

Sorry for the spotty recollection on my day....

Quality Time With The Family

Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History- Plan R was invented....which was mainly to try to slowly phase Tawni out of my life because that's what everyone thought was best for me except me.

Well the past couple days have been hanging out with family. We gone out to dinner at China Doll then today I had lunch at the Great Wall. Also my little cousins have been shadows at home and wherever I go I know they are nearby. Anyways today was a very cool day. I went with Jason and Steph to Castles and Coasters. I haven't been there in such a long time. It was fun times, we got stuck on the logride thanks to this mexican family who decided to stuff 5-6 people on a log. The second was a misinterpretation I heard between Jason and Steph. Anyways we went to Burger King for dinner then we headed back for a couple rides then golf. After that we went to the Spring Hills Suite and hung out with Adam til he got off. We then went to Jason's house and we reminiced about the old days. It was cool and was also a sad reminder that we'll all soon go on our own paths to the future......

Well tomorrow (actually later this morning) I'm going to watch The Notebook, and I also may watch Faharenheit 9/11 depending on when Tawni wants to watch the Notebook. I was also hoping to go to prescott with Tawni and Tara but unfortunately Tara got grounded. So I'll call Tawni and plan it all out.

Random Things.....

That bad feeling I've had is getting worse.

Frizbee's at Quizzno's

Song Of The Day- Homegrown - Second Best
Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History- I went to NAU to visit Tawni and give her her gift.

Well last night was different. I went over to Quizzno's to hang out with Ashley and Andre. It was cool we ended up playing frizbee every time she was on break. They didn't even start closing til it was actually closed so I volunteered to help them close. It was cool pretty much although I still didn't budge on anything. I've got an idea though which I may impliment next week. Anyways after that I went to the store and bought some red bull for the chilibombers at Adam's. Mike and Frank were over as well as Adam's sis and friend. I drank a good amount although I was pretty far from drunk. Jase and Steph were over for a little as we watched Michael Moore on a talk show. It was cool we swam and played horse at 2 AM and I ended up sleeping at 4:45AM.....

Today I went to the new house and help my aunt move. I then played a couple games of NBA Live then my uncle Rudy came over and I started talking to him and catching up.....that's the gist of it.... Tonight I'm planning on watching Fahrenheit 9/11 with Jase and Steph and no more drinking cuz Adam's parents are coming home tomorrow.

Slumber

Song Of The Day- Homegrown - Not Alone
Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History- Jason and Steph's 3 month anniversary, and my dad was giving me the jokes about Tawni still.....heh funny stuff

Well the last couple days have been pretty cool, umm these are in no particular order but I've gone to quizzno's to talk to Ashley. It was cool, she sat down and talked while I ate dinner. I also have mainly just chilled with the guys and what not. It has been busy with so much family coming over at one time. I picked up one of my aunts at Sky Harbor Airport while my dad drove to Vegas to pick up my aunt and her kids. Yeah they'll be staying with us til july 12th.....And my uncle Rudy's coming in tomorrow. I've also been working a lot with the caretaker gone temporarily. I've made some money to make up for my playstation breaking and I had to buy a new one.

Anyways yesterday was cool though. I had to wake up early and do some errands. Then I took a shower and I shaved completely cuz I know it'll grow back by the time I go to the Phillipines. Anyways I went to pick up Tawni cuz we were going to get her the massage. I dropped her off then visited Adam for a bit. Afterwards I picked her up and she had the biggest grin on her face. It was great...heh....we went to the mall to smell some perfume then we went back to her house and we chilled there. Tawni, Tara, Shannon, and me are going to Prescott on Monday. I invited my sis but she doesn't really want to go. So anyways we were just chilling in her room. I was on Tawni's bed and I just fell asleep. By the time I woke up, I realized that I slept for 4 hours....heh well I watched a couple episodes of full house. Then Scott called and said he was coming over. Now I've never met Scott and for everyone's sake I refuse to meet Scott because I don't know what would happen so I abruptly left and went home. I then watched the Secret Window with my family then went over to Adam's where Frank and Mike were and watched 50 First Dates. Now I rented it and never watched it but it was a great movie and I only saw half of it. It was a sweet movie it really was. Tawni and me are going to see "the notebook" and i'm pretty anxious about that movie cuz I heard the book was really good.

Anyways the plan for today is get a haircut, do some errands, kickback at Adam's, go to Quizzno's and help them close.

Random things....

Speaking of Quizzno's I had this weird dream. So I was driving and I was going to visit Ashley so I'm about to go to the door but then I chicken out and start running out of the car before they can see me. So I jump in the car and Ashley comes out. She's about to go to her car but there is a car theif there so I peel out and u turn and shine my brights at the theif thus causing him to run off....after that I can't remember.....I think some sort of car chase or what not....

I also saw Around the world in 80 Days....wow that was stupid....enough said

Were Not In High School Anymore

Song Of The Day- RX Bandits - Mastering The List
Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History-Watched Fools Rush In and just hung out and went bowling.

Well today I made some money as I helped Adam's mom salvage 7 years worth of work. I would have done it for free but she insisted that I get paid. My freakin playstation is broken and at the worst possible time, I'm so close to beating final fantasy but it's so broken. I would send it into Sony but I opened it once so I don't wanna risk wasting money. Anyways my plan is to sell the broken one to EB and then buy a refurbished one for $120. Anyways after that I went over to Tawni's and hung out with her and Paul for a little. Ya know I've come to the conclusion that were not in high school anymore so why be all weird ya know. But yeah hung out there for a bit. I then went home and crashed for a while. I was supposed to go to Chad's Grad party at 7 but slept til 8. I got there and so was Kalee, Trishanne, Ryan, Paul, Tawni, Chad, Shaun, Frank, and Mike. It was a fun time although I have to work in the morning so I only stayed til Midnight. I think they are drinking as I speak so oh well.

Random Things...

I work tomorrow all day and into Monday afternoon but I'm getting paid $120 so it's like getting my playstation.

Tawni came back and she's better and so am I so it's been going good.

I'm in the middle of analyzing something, so I can't say what it is til I have more concrete proof.

So far everyone I've talked to have said to go for Ashley....I'll go visit her Tues but I won't eat anything as to say "I'm just here to visit you"....yeah that's sly...heh j/k

Crushin On Her

Song Of The Day- Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down
Currently Feeling- Weird
This Day In History- I was really quite sad because Tawni was visiting from NAU for a weekend and she didn't call or visit....yeah I was quite upset....

Well hmm from the past couple days all I have really been doing is going swimming, playing FFX and Madden, going to Brothers Pizza. A couple nights ago Shaun, Kalee, Chad, Adam, Ryan, and me hung out at Franks...uhhh...other than that it's been pretty basic.

Today I've actually been a little on the busy side. Last night I slept at like 4:50 and woke up at 11. I met up at frank's house and frank, adam, and me went to Brothers for Pizza and wings. After that we went to Adam's house and I blew a lead to lose for the 8th time to Adam...I'm really off my ball. Anyways we went to the library and I picked up the scary stories book. Man did those books bring back memories....I remember when I was like 8 and my cousin John-John, Scarlet, and Mark would read those books to use and I would be scared shitless. ANyways started reading thru them and they weren't really scary but oh well.....After that I dropped of Frank and Adam and me went swimming and played pool b-ball. After that I took a shower and I dropped by to visit Andre and Ashley. mainly Ashley though. I stayed there for an hour talking and eating, it's like Cousins all over again. Man though I really don't know about her though, I really think I'm crushin over her. I just get this kinda weird feeling about her. The feeling that I didn't feel with Katie, Lindsay, or Vicky. However I don't think it was to the level of Tawni (I don't think anyone will for a while). I dunno just get this "I want to just talk to her" feeling however I felt sick doing it. I was full when I came in but I needed a reason to visit. Anyways I feel a little awkward with her being Jason's ex although I don't think it's too big of a deal because they went on like a couple dates. I felt a little weird though when Andre was like "your a normal guy right" and then with Ashley there he asked if I thought she was pretty and if I would go out with her...wasn't expecting that question. Anyways that's all I feel about writing about that although I'm not too worried now since the whole "blog" fever thing has come and gone and all I get are the occasional random visitors. Anyways so I stayed there for an hour or so and then I picked up Adam and we went to Dusty's house. Man does his apartment like like the marajuana....Well after that I went over to Chad's house for a bit to hang out with everyone. Everyone was drinking except for me so I didn't stay too long. After that I picked up Adam and went home. I changed out and was going to go to bed but Tawni called. So I came over to her house and yeah it was good seeing her cuz I missed her. Anyways she got me this Rolex watch from China...probably fake but it looks pretty good anyways...then we just hung out til around 4 when I started feeling tired so I went home.

James The Pyro

Currently Feeling- Lazy
This Day In History-Northstar concert that I ended up not going to

Wow I haven't done anything productive in the last couple days. Last night I played FFX for a while then Adam came over and we grabed some 53 cent drinks then he dropped me off and I let him borrow suikoden.

Today was more FFX and did some chores. I had to reburn most of my cd's so that took a good chunk of my time.

"Riddick"culous

Song Of The Day-Tom Waits - A Little Drop Of Poison (From Shrek 2)
Currently Feeling- Good

Well last night I went and watched the "Chronicles of Riddick" and let me say some of that stuff is really ridiculous but with that said I thought it was a really good movie. Sure the story is pretty basic and not too intuitive but it was entertaining and in the end isn't that what makes a good movie. Anyways I went to QT to get something to drink and over at Burger King they had a hella lot of cops and they were hiding behind the wall with their guns facing this red bronco. Pretty cool, anyways I went home and played some Final Fantasy while talking to my sis. I got pissed that she's drinking, I was going to yell at her but i was real tired.

Today my sis woke me up early and I was none too happy about it. I dropped her off at church then picked her up. I then went to church myself and afterwards I went to the Great Wall Buffet. I talked to my sis and told her that I was going to Tucson today and I told her about Barbie drinking. Well now I'm going to play FFX and then I'm heading out to Tucson at like 4:30-5.

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-Updated 10:48 PM-
- Hmmm I've been doing some thinking (overthinking you could say) mainly due to me watching What Women Want and Fools Rush In. Anyways the thing I was thinking about was that I miss the "old" me in a sense. Now without getting into the whole "new" James stuff I always joke around with. I mean I look back a long time ago back when I really like Tawni and before she went out with Paul. I had this feeling of anxiety, warmth, and most importantly completeness. I honestly never felt like it before. Now we flashback to present day and we all know what happened. I dunno I guess I'm saying I miss that feeling. It made me feel alive.

My Final Fantasy

Song Of The Day- Lloyd Banks - Warrior Remix
Currently Feeling- Lazy
This Day In History- Did some stuff that could somewhat resemble what I did today

Well On Thurs I did go to the library and guess who I bump into....none other than local genius Jason Botcher. I talked to him for a bit then I went looking for scary stories to no avail so I then went to Safeway but Michelle wasn't working. I then went to Quizzno's (no more Cousins cuz I don't get free food anymore). Anyways Jason's ex-girl Ashley was working there and so was Andre. Ashley gave me a discount and she sat down and we talked while I ate my sub. She looks pretty good and part of me wants to kinda "do" something but I don't think I will. Oh well either way I'll probably be going to Quizzno's a lot more now. So I chilled for a bit then I went to Adam's house and we went to Millie's house. Now first I was the DD (designated driver) so it was really boring. 2nd if you want to look up the word unfortunate you would find Millie's picture. That kid is going thru some bad times, first his roomate ditches him without telling him and no way of paying all the rent. 2nd he took absolutely everything in the house, and finally the water got shut off with him still living there for a couple more weeks. Anyways so I layed on the floor while Millie and Adam got drunk then we went over to Steph's house and hung out there for a while. On the way over however Adam decided to try and catch this dog with a collar. It wasn't pretty, Adam got burnt by the dog and when I pulled up in my car to pick him up he was pissin in the front of someone's house. heh....

Yesterday was real boring at first. I decided to get into the RPG spirit and started playing Final Fantasy X. It's been a while since I've played an RPG for reals. The last time actually was last summer playing Wild Arms (around the same time to be exact). Anyways I did that for a while then I picked up Frank and we went to the Mariott to go swimming and to chill in the spa. Jas and Steph joined us and we chilled there for the rest of the night.

Today was more of Final Fantasy as I clocked in 5-6 hours today...sweet....I tried calling Amber to see if she wanted to hang out but she didn't answer her phone. I went to Costco with my fam to look for some stuff. Tonight the plan is to go see the Chronicles of Riddick.

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Well you want some correlation between now and a year ago

-Instead of playing Wild Arms I'm now playing Final Fantasy X
-Tawni was gone to NAU and now she is gone to China
-Amber called and now I called her
-I went to Cousins and now to Quizno's

Well those are the similarities, however my state of mind as well as my personality as changed from that of a year ago. I still have questions in my mind but I chose to keep them to myself because one I don't believe I can get an answer to my questions and two maybe I don't want to know the answers to those questions.

heh....Ashley's cute

Busting Out Of Funk

Song Of The Day- Counting Crows - Accidentally In Love
Currently Feeling- Bored

Well yesterday was alright. I picked up Frank, Jason, Steph, and Adam and we went to Fry's Electronics to take a look at some stuff. Afterwards we went to Burger King to get some food to eat. After that we went to Frank's house and hung out there for a bit before work. I then dropped off Jas and Steph and then I played Adam in Madden where I lost. We then went with Adam's dad to watch Shrek 2. I only agreed cuz I thought the movie was really sick. Anyways I watched it then I went home and pretty much kicked it.

Today I want to go to the library and get some scary stories since I was online reading scary stories. I'm also planning on probably dropping by Bashas to go visit Michelle if she's working. Then tonight I'll probably end up drinking over at Millie's house.....

Harry Potter

Song Of The Day- Babyface - Red Dress
Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History - I played video games like a mad mofo since everyone had stuff to do. I started working on Plan JAM which essentially was Tawni's gift.

Well yesterday I finally got a chance to watch the new Potter movie. Now let me say that I've watched all of them so far but this is the first one I actually came out to see and lets just say that I wasn't dissapointed one bit. I thought it was the best movie out of the trio. I went to go see it with Frank, Adam, and Long. Afterwards we went to Quizzno's to get something to eat. There was this cute girl that I thought was Jason's ex-girlfriend but it wasn't. Oh yeah I don't know if I ever wrote about it, but Jason's ex-girl was someone from my old school. She's really pretty now from what I saw from her graduation pictures. Anyways after that I chilled at home for a while talking to the family. I watched the game with my uncle and cousin then headed out to go to In-N-Out for some food. Adam and Frank came over and we watched the game for a little before heading out to Millie's house. I was the designated driver for the night which was cool. Millie was pissed cuz his roommate was moving out tomorrow and didn't even bother to tell him. So it looks like Millie's going to be homeless.....well not literally hopefully.... Anyways today I haven't got a clue of what I'm going to do today. I'm going to watch Shrek 2 today with Adam and his family. That movie was the bomb, I've already watched it once with my family. After that I have to reclaim my madden throne.

Random Things.....

I'm contemplating getting a digital camera today but I don't wanna spend it right now so I'll wait til I get my laptop first....

I'm getting excited about college. I'm glad to be in a dorm for the first year only. Yeah their house is going to be real nice, but like I said it would have been a tad uncomfortable and plus I think I would like to be in a dorm. It was a tad bit annoying though hearing were paying the same amount as you blah blah blah....oh well they are right about that though.....weird....

Grad/Goodbye Party

Song Of The Day- Babyface - The Lonliness
Currently Feeling- Good

Well Sun was a pretty cool day. I did a bit of looking for cars, I saw this 2000 Jaguar XJR for $36,000 but with 40000 miles so I doubt it, so it looks like it'll be the Gcoupe. Anyways I then went to church with my lil sister. Afterwards I chilled at home for a bit, then took a shower and waited for Adam to pick me up to go to Jason's grad/goodbye party. It was cool, hung out with Chad, Adam, Jas, Frank, Steph, Aric, and even Mr. White. I have to note though it's a little weird seeing a high school teacher drink and cuss and just act like a normal human being. Anyways Ryan came over and I talked to him about some stuff.... heh it was a little weird cuz he was kinda spilling some stuff while at the same time I was saying stuff I wouldn't normally tell people. Anyways I watched the NBA finals there and what can I say, the Lakers were teabagging it, but I know they will pick it up on Tues. Anyways I left to go to Adam's house and played Madden. Shit what happened to me, I haven't played in such a long time and now I've lost 3 in a row. Anyways after that Frank dropped by and they were going to rent a movie but I was still feeling tired so I called it a night.

Anyways tonite I don't know what I'm planning to do.

Random Things...

I downloaded the new babyface cd, it's actually pretty good, I've listened to it a couple days in a row.

Class Scheduling

Song Of The Day- Expose - I'll Never Get Over You
Currently Feeling- Good

Wow a lot of stuff has happened since I last updated. This past week has been crazy busy. Well I went camping with Jason, Steph, Mike, and Adam. It was cool, we went up to Prescott and we just chilled and set up camp. I had a lot to drink, drinking about 2/3rds of the bottle of Seagrams....it was good though I wasn't feeling too well. Adam was trashed and Mike had like 8 beers. it was a fun time. Heh some of the things Adam said to Jase and Steph were hilarious...... Anyways we only stayed a night then that night I hung out with Tawni at her house for a while. We chilled there for a couple hours then I ran an errand with her then we went to my house to eat dinner. We then went to Sonics before we picked up Frank and went to Mikes house. Yeah I just chilled, I was going to drink because I was going to go fishing with Mike but I ended up not because I had to drive to Tucson the next day. So I chilled for a bit then I went home. I talked to Tawni on the phone for a bit. Let's see fast forward and Tawni, Paul, Steph, and me went to Tucson. I followed Paul in the BMW and that thing handles nice. Anywho Steph rode with me and when we got there we stayed at their house.....damn their house is going to be nice, it's crazy though, Paul's dad put in a mad down payment to get that cheap price. Oh well, I have the experience...heh.....anyways Tucson was actually pretty ok, I mean registration was boring but it was cool hanging out. I even managed to hang out with Paul. Anyways I have my schedule for next semester, I have Biology on Mondays, Wednesday, and Friday at 8-9AM. I have Chem 103a on M,W,F at 10-11AM, Chem lecture on Tuesday 9-10AM. I then have Spanish at 12-1PM Monday thru Thurs. I have English Monday and Weds 4-5:15PM. And finally Chem lab on Thurs from 6-9. Yeah also last night I drove off and I found this really nice thinking spot and place to admire the stars. It's really nice. I also did some thinking about a lot of stuff about the past, present, and future. It was a lot to take in. Anyways now I'm back home and all is well. I'm not going to Vegas anymore because of the Polo Towers fucked up the reservations. So yeah that's it in a brief nutshell.