Saturday, February 26, 2005

So How's Life?

Song Of The Day- Bens Fold Five - Magic
Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History-2yrs ago - everyone in school was sick, tawni was sick so this girl sat down next to me and was like putting her hands in my pockets lol.... 1yr ago - Wrote a poem and also wrote in my journal at Saguaro Park. Funny after reading that little excerpt i still remember exactly what exactly was going thru my mind at the time.

Man reading my blogs i realized how carefree things were. Everything was so much the same, go to school, get out at 2:20 then go home or go and chill with friends. How things change, now things are so much on the fly and there's so much responsibility that needs to be managed that sometimes i wished things were still so carefree.

But that's not how life is, it changes right there with you. I guess that's the reason why i haven't blogged. Things are pretty busy that when i do have free time, it doesn't always feel like free time. I mean like there's really no time for myself anymore. Like if there isn't homework, then it's TV with the roomy, or hanging out with friends, or sleep. So i guess you can say you can't really contemplate all the time because it feels like a waste of time. I'm still trying to find time to work out, still trying to balance out my studying, still balancing out time for my friends.

I remember blogging for me originally started as just something that sounded like something fun to do. Look back and laugh time business. Then it turned into something i could express my feelings that sometimes i can't say outloud. Now i guess it's a way for people to know what's going on in my life (minus a lot of the more personal detail for those who have read this for awhile).

Well i guess the next logical question is what have i done in the month of February. I mean Feb has the dreaded Valentines' day in it yet i did not write anything around that date. Well it's hard for to remember every little thing that went on but i'll try to do my best.

Well as i said earlier Valentine's Day wasn't bad at all. I guess it's something else that i've adapted to. I'm not the sad person i was a year or two. I thought alot and i still do but just not as much. I also had a bunch of tests to study for on V-day so obviously it was low on my priority. I do wish i could have made chocolate covered strawberries for the house but once again i don't have my own kitchen but maybe i'll restart the tradition next year. As for the girl in my chem class i alluded in earlier entries. I don't know for sure exactly but i think she likes me but i don't think i like her anymore. I don't know why she's cute she seems like a nice person. I guess there was something in her personality that annoyed me. I dunno steph thinks that it's because i'm scared of rejection or committment but i don't know she could be right but i'm not sure. So am i interested in anyone right now.....sort of, this girl in my bio lab class. She's pretty, she seems very smart, but the problem is i haven't really gotten a chance to talk to her. So i guess outside of that i haven't really met anyone that i have thought of as potential. Eyecandy yes there is alot but that's it.

So now that i got that out of my system what else is there, hmm how about Brother Jed. Lol now this guy is something else. Let me give u the brief intro on this crazy. He is this racist, sexist, anything-ist evangelist that has been talking on our campus for two weeks. Let me tell you this, this guy took our campus by storm the first week he was there. Not necessarily something good, he grabbed hundreds of students as well as hitting the front page of the newspaper twice, and even getting time on the news because of his attitude towards nearly everything. Some of his famous quotes include "jews are best for making bagels" and "mexicans are good for making burritos" and my personal favorite "the wedding ring symbolizes the womans obedience to the husband, her role includes being in the kitchen, barefoot and pregnant". The guy was the talk of campus for a week where his reign was supposed to end on Fri. Ironically enough it began to pour crazy rain which seemed to be fitting for bro. jed's exit. You should have seen the look on my face when mon came and i walked to get something to eat did i see a man that looked like Eugene Levy sitting in a chair with his bible out. He had claimed that he wanted to give us a second chance but his steam had run out and slowly the crowds dissapated. I only came a couple times because paul and tawni wanted to see him but i realized that he had nothing more to say other than were all damned to hell and how he appears to be on par with none other than the almighty himself. So now with the end of this week i hope come monday i dont' see him in his chair at least for a while when his antics become amusing again.

Well another thing that happened was with joel and steph from earlier this month. I don't want to get into details about it but it was ridiculous. I was really dissapointed at Joel not because necessarily how he feels about her but what i was dissappointed about was the fact that he wouldn't give her a chance, that he was dropping names that he shouldn't have, and that he was just being very stubborn. The summer trip in major jeopardy and as i stated early i'm not going to drop anyone because someone doesn't like someone else.

Hmmm so i guess i should then update how everyone else is doing

Jason (roomy): He's good, we've got this whole championship thing going with NBA2k5 and with real basketball.
Jason (Quiet): He's still quiet
Jason (Mase): Well unfortunately i haven't talked to him as much as i want to but i still talk to him online and he seems like he's doing good.
Frank: He got his tattoos tonight which i don't quite agree where but it's his decision. I'm also pretty proud that he's given up smoking and drinking for the time being. hmm there's something about him that reminds me of myself.
Steph: Working and school. She's doing good we hang out when there is time and i visit her at work when there is time. Still misses Jason but what else is new.
Paul: He's doing good, he has a new job at "nothing but noodles". He still hasn't beaten me at madden for the big money
Tawni: still works at the hospital, looking for her bumblebee shoes.
Adam: He's good but he's trying to get his online adapter to work. He's still funny as hell
Joel: He's doing good besides the whole stubborn thing.

Lets move onto something else....school. I don't know what to say about it, i'm doing alright but i feel like i could be doing a lot better, i just don't know how. I feel like I've got to get more competitive about it and i should, i just need to find a better schedule on how i spend my time for classes.

well i'm update more tomorrow i'm trying to get my web page hosted so i can post videos and whatnot

Friday, February 25, 2005

This blog will be updated soon


-james

Monday, February 07, 2005

Cockblocked and Super Bowl

Song Of The Day- Kelly Clarkson - Since You've Been Gone, Breakaway
Currently Feeling- Good

Well it's Mon and i last updated Weds so i'm a little behind. I'll just start at the weekend though....so

Fri
Well I chilled Fri afternoon eating lunch with the group. Afterwards Paul came over and played Madden for a while. Adam came over and gave me his keys cuz he was leaving his car here. We played somemore before he left. I then cleaned up the room a little before chatting with Aditi. I then talked to Tawni on the phone for a while. It was old times we talked for about 2 hours just talking about things. It was nice.......afterwards i got ready and aditi picked michelle, sarah, and me to go to applebees. We met up with paul and tawni. It was pretty good eats for trying to not spend any money. Afterwards we went back to the house. Then i helped Paul and Frank steal road signs before going home.

Sat
Woke up to meet with my chem lab group. We were in the ILC for forever. Afterwards i got ready and went to the house to pick up frank and go sign the lease. Adam came by and Paul drove us to the apt complex. Pretty much we signed the lease and we were set. We went back to the house and chilled there for a little before going back to my room to chill. Adam and me played madden and NBA2k5 and then watched the suns game. I gave adam my lemon lime watermelon vodka and he was a little drunk. Afterwards we drove to Blockbuster to rent Shaun of the Dead and then we went to Wal Mart to look for Chappelle Season 2 to no avail. So we drove back to the house and watched the movie and smoke the hooka. Good movie though it started out slow. After that we went back to the dorms and played more basketball before sleeping at 5.

Sun
We did homework and visited frank at work before going over to safeway to buy steaks and go to the house. We watched the super bowl with paul while eating steak. The game was subpar with it not being as close as it seems. There was two memorable commericials...the p diddy diet pepsi truck and the cat with the spagetti sauce. The eagles lost and I lost money but oh well.

Mon
Well today i woke up at 11 or so and then met up with frank to go to lunch. We chilled before i went back to my room to get my chem lab stuff. I met up with my chem lab and then we went back to my room. One of them left so it was just me and Liliana and i figured now was my chance to talk to her more but Ryan came in and i got cockblocked. It's cool though....After that i tried studying and doing my chem lab before meeting up with clarice to go to class. Class was alright although i have a test Weds. Afterwars i watched smallville and friends then met with John at the PSU to go grab food to eat. I saw Alicia, Mark, and Jesse and they said what's up. I filled john in on the plan and were going to sign the leases on fri then go to phx. Now i'm in my room trying to avoid the drama and i figured i needed to blog. Ryan's in my room just chilling and jason's back from LA.

Random Things....

Talking to tawni was nice, for once in a long time it almost felt like things were normal again. All i need is an equilibrium with everyone, that's what i'm searching for.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Outlook

Song Of The Day- Maroon 5 - This Love (acoustic)
Currently Feeling- Good
This Day In History- 2Yrs - Ate dinner at Tawni's dads house with amber, Paul, and Tara.......(heh I remember something from that night.....lol)

Well it's been a little bit since i've updated and i know i should have i've just fallen behind in terms of doing some stuff..... So with that let me get started....

Fri
I chilled with Jason in the room. We were supposed to go to Claim Jumpers but the wait was 3 hours so we ended up going to El Paso which was good. Ya we had a cute waitress so u know that the guys were hitting on her. Not to mention that some of them were drunk. Anyways good eating and afterwards we went to Safeway on a beer run and jammed to some old school Dre. Blue got me some vodka for compensation. Anyways the rest of the night we watched Napolean Dynomite and slept.

Sat
Hmmm my memory is a little blurry but i know i did something.....Well i remember i got really drunk of lemon lime and watermelon vodka...it was really good that and red bull and vodka.....i put too much vodka in it and i wasn't feeling too great at the end of the night.....o yeah now i remember i also went to visit El Steph at Old Navy.....she was on her break so i hung out with her and ate dinner while catching up a bit.

Sun
Ya sunday was definately chores day. Hmm lets see i had homework to do, i did my laundry, i cleaned the inside of the MDX, brought in some more water, cleaned up the room, the works....i was so tired but i felt accomplished....

Mon
Well i had to wake up early for a chem lab meeting but everyone was late so no one showed up til 8:40. It was cool though cuz i was talking to my lab partner and she seems cool. Afterwards
i went back to my room and chilled for a little before steph came over and chilled with her. We then met up with Paul, Tawni, Frank, and Ryan for lunch. After that i went back to the biological science room to change my major to molecular and cellular biology but i had to schedule an appointment. So ya i then chilled in my room and then met up with clarice to go to indiv which was ok. After that i mainly just chilled. I drank a little too with guys in my hall again but only a little

Tues
I met up with my group again in chem lab. It was quite pointless but i talked to the girl in my group again, liliana. I gave her a ride to my car before going to the bank. I then went to Claim Jumpers with Jason, Blue, John, Chris x2. It was cool although long....this lady asked for my ribs so we put in a note that said "for a real bone, call XXX-XXX-XXXX." lol....and then this guy was going to break up with his girlfriend so this guy starts begging him to let him shit on his ex's sweatshirt....lol funny shit... Anyways after that i dropped off John then went back to the room. I drank a little more again with the guys and wrote my paper

Today
Well i had chem lab today. I think this one girl in my class is really pretty, but she's not in my lab group....After that i hung out with steph, then went to lunch with the guys. Afterwards Paul came over and i watched Jason beat him in halo. Afterwards i did some homework then i went to my psych experiment...it was pretty cool but i'm not going to say what it is so just ask if u really wanna know. Afterwards Paul came back over and beat him senseless in madden. I ditched class though as a result.....then i chilled before smallville...man i feel kinda sad that Alicia died...i dunno sad......Anyways Rach called but i was watching so i didn't talk to her long. Aftewards i got food at the deli, then drank a little bit...now i'm chilling on the computer

Random Things...
Tomorrow is my shitty schedule...7hrs but after that weekend....

I'm still learning things out about myself and others.....like for the longest time i thought that when i liked someone and didn't do anything about it then i would think of them too much as friends but i've realized that when i don't do anything i look for things in them...foibles and i convince myself it wouldn't work....

With other people, I've been doing a LOT of thinking about some things.....i just don't know about some things.....college u find out a lot about yourself and you grow and change as a person but your friends, well at least good friends will still be with you...i dunno sometimes change is weird.....

I know i'm not the only one questioning friendships lately though, at least i know i'm not exactly alone on some things....

It seems like i'm playing a middle man yet again but this time it's between john and rachel....sad thing is that i've never even seen rachel yet i seem to be handling a lot of their relationship problems....