Confliction All Around

Song Of The Day- Al Green - Lets Get Together
Currently Feeling- Conflicted
Picture of the Day - My cousin Tiano and me at the post-wedding celebration.











Wow since the wedding, things have definately picked up. That doesn't necessarily mean a good thing however. But before i try to blog some things off my chest, I want to talk about the wedding....It was really nice, it was up on the mountain and was an outdoor wedding. It was relatively small with a guest list of 200. The most important thing i have learned about the wedding is to make sure not to give my cousin Mark any important position. He went to the corner store to get liquored up before the wedding and almost caused mass chaos at the wedding because he couldn't find his suit....The second is the rediscovery of my romantic, sappy, side. I guess i've lost touch with that aspect of myself lately but alas it is back (more on this later). Anyways the wedding was nice although the sound system was fucked up. The reception was great though, open bar, VIP seating (for me), and just plain hanging out with family. Also i got to hear my cousin John-John sign Al Green's song - Let's get together and all i can say is "damn, he better sing at my wedding!". Anyways i had to get plastered early at the open bar because i had to drive later that night. Took some pictures (located under facebook), and watched my cousin mark throw up all over his outfit. We then drove back to my cousins house and hung out with Johnx2, Tiano, Russell, Ashley, Karen, Andrew, and my sis. I took a couple shots of whiskey and was feeling like garbage but my cousins wanted me to keep drinking so i drank some coronas and that definately wasn't a smart idea. Anyways my sister was trashed up the wazoo. The next day we had a bbq and then i got to drive back to AZ and did it in 4hrs 18 minutes.

After the trip to California, i spent a week in Phx to just unwind and mooch off the parentals. And while it was casual to me, I was confronted with a lot of new happenings and rehashes of some old happenings. I suppose we'll start with the rehash...... Remember the end of the year party at Deeds? Well Tawni wasn't invited and I didn't want to tell her so yes I did lie about what i was doing because I didn't want to be the one to tell her that she couldn't come (although i know she wouldn't have). Anyways my computer was at the girl's apt and my AIM was on with a generic away message and Tawni IM'ed me. Aditi saw it and told me and asked if i wanted to reply and i said don't........unfortunately she did. I then looked over but tawni already signed off. Flash forward to Vicky's party where tawni was there already pretty plastered. Towards the end of the night she started calling me an asshole. The reason being that i lied to her about the party. Anyways since Aditi's party i figured that it would get brought up but i was hoping that it would just die......that wasn't the case......

The second rehash is something that just refuses to die and that is the whole situation with paul/tawni/deeds. All aspects of this situation has been beaten to death so i don't care to write anything more about it other than each party is going to believe what they are going to believe and that's not going to change. They also aren't going to be friends anymore so my best advice is just to forget about them......

I'll take a short reprieve from the crazy happenings and mention that the Mase is back in town. I forgot that he wasn't on leave and was based at Luke Air Force Base. I did get to hang out with him a couple times as we went to Vicky's party along with El Steph, Adam, and Deeds. Pretty fun time just chilling and what not. Deeds and I ended up watching tv at my house til like 3ish-4ish because she was drunk and she wanted to wait until she was more sober.

The mase and me also went and did a bunch of car shopping for him. We went to Mazda and Nissan to look primarily at the Altima and the 6. Personally i think the altima is a better car but the salesman we got at nissan was a joke. He tried to make small talk and the whole time jase and me could smell the bs coming out of his mouth.

The last piece of blog that i'll write for now (check back tonite maybe i'll blog again by then) involves the sudden burst of affection between Tawnicita and Adam the Jew. I actually got a hint of it before i left to Cali as the Jew IM'ed me telling me how they have been trying to hang out but scheduling conflicts have prevented such actions. Anyways when i got back i was treated to another IM from the Jew telling me how he thinks he's falling for her but he doesn't know what will come out of it. So now we flash forward to Vicky's party (ya i know a lot of references) and Tawni asked me what adam and me talked about and so i hinted at what we talked about and then tawni said "does this surprise you" and flashed a huge grin which i haven't seen in awhile. I have more to write about this but i'll leave that for the next blog

Expunging of Information

Song Of The Day- Black Eyed Peas - Pump it
Currently Feeling- More relaxed then i was earlier
This Day In History- 3 years ago- It was yearbook day junior year of high school. I wrote in Tawni's yearbook and it was quite emotional...haha We also made a bet that is due May 15, 2015. ....also the math final was bothering me...particularly the ferris wheel problem.


Well the past couple days, i've been real bothered by my overthinking....well actually thinking i don't think i was overthinking, i was just surprised how i handled things. Anyways i really needed to expunged my thoughts and I did as it did relieve me a bit. I got some advice which helped, but wasn't quite what i was looking for....i actually don't know what i was looking for. Alas for now i move on and move to my tentative plan.

Anyways the past couple days have been real lax minus the thinking....the guys went camping and i decided i didn't want to go for more than one reason. I think it was the right decision. Now tomorrow at night i'm going to california for my cousin Scarlet's wedding. It should be really cool. Anyways yes short blog but i have nothing to say at the moment

Death to the Nice Guy

Song Of The Day- Usher - U Remind Me
Currently Feeling- Bad

Well i'll get to the title of the post in a bit. First things first, i hate registering for classes at Pima Community College. The reason why i say this is because i just wanted to sign up for one class and i had to go from one line, to the next, and then back. It was very irritating but i did find some comic relief in this Indian FOB trying to spit game at this Asian girl i'm guessing he thought was a fellow FOB. Anyways it was pretty funny watching this unfold in front of your eyes but alas i give credit where credit is due and say at least he tried. But nonetheless it was pretty funny. Anyways i got home and packed....Bottcher was nowhere to be seen so i had to move Alysha's gigantic box on my own. After that i drove back to Phx during the worst time (against my gut instinct). I should have listened because it was pretty horrible traffic. Anyways i got home and relaxed at home for a bit. Sarah, Me'shell, and Amy then came and picked me up to go bowling. we met up with Katie, Catherine, Kevin, Daniel, Jack, etc (people i didn't know for the most part) Anyways it was cool i was goofing off but i made sure that i beat Deeds. Anyways being the analytical person I am, I noticed that Jack obviously had a thing for ME'shell. There was something i did not like about Jack. Anyways we bowled til around 1 in the morning then we went to Denny's. Our waiter was overly nice, kinda odd but we got discounts and free stuff.

Anyways today all i really did was watch scrubs and tonite i'm gonna watch the suns game.

Random Things.....

- So the title of my post "Death to the Nice Guy". That comes from the idea that nice guys do finish last. I'm familiar with the statement and I try and stay away from being the "Nice Guy" but unfortunately as i'm learning, i don't think i can separate myself from it. Its a sad realization but unfortunately i think it's fact that girls do not look for nice guys (at least now). If you want proof, you don't have to look further than my apartment where i'm currently holding Alyshas gigantic box, blanket, and bike. Or the fact i was called her "parent" by her. Not that i have a problem being her friend because i do like the fact that she considers me her friend but considering my feelings, friendship wasn't exactly what i was looking for.

- In something of a related post, I've almost officially turned into a girl. Judging by my conversations with girls....yes i've become a girl. Tawni was right haha........it didn't really hit me until bowling last nite with my long conversations with Deeds and Sarah.

- And today i've been in deep thinking mood, and it has only gotten worse. I'm so confused as it hit me on Fri and since then it has gotten worse. I think i know how i'm going to go about it, hit on random girls. I need to, to keep my mind off of the situation. Censorship prevents me to say more than this

-Anyways the goal for this summer, is to learn to separate my "nice guy", be bold, and ya just need to feel good about myself.

It's Finally Over......For Now

Song Of The Day- Rihanna - SOS
Currently Feeling- I'm not sure

Well school is finally over!......all the studying and stress and lab reports...all gone for a couple months. To finally get to this point however has been hell. The past two weeks, my whole schedule has been completely off. Whether it is my eating times and what i eat, or my sleeping habits....complete chaos. Lets see i would study to the point where when i finally figure i should eat, it's already 12-1AM so my choices are limited to Jack in the Box. Sleeping has been even more crazy....actually non-existant. I have lived off Monster Energy Drinks and coffee. As much as i'd like to say that i've been in complete study mode......i would have to say that would be a fallacy because of 1) suns games and 2) a certain someone. anyways the last week of school consisted primarily of studying and those two things. I studied a good amount with her but my attention wasn't exactly on studying haha.... Anyways my finals......they were ok, i don't have all of my results yet but so far they are a little below expectations but i put forth a good effort. Anyways i'm not going to go into the detail on the final week of school, but instead i'll go from after the last final was done......so with that we start with Thurs at 1

Thurs ~1PM
I finished my ochem final and with that i was done. There was a group of ochemers who i joined as they were talking about the test. It wasn't horrible but the level of difficulty was definately high. I then decided to go home and relax for a bit. I started to clean up, as i cleaned up Mickey's poop in the patio, then i played some video games before heading back to school. I went to school to help Alysha move. lol i was almost like her parents because everyone else had a parent helping their child move. Anyways i helped then i said the goodbyes and i was on my way. I then went home and chilled until around 9 when Tawni called and we went to Borders so she could get some books. We then went back to the house and just talked for a while before my lack of sleep caught up to me.

Fri
I woke up and watched scrubs all day long. I took a break to take tawni to Kia, then i went right back to it. I then watched the first half of the suns game at my apt before heading to the girls apt to party it up. Ahhh......very interesting.....there was a lot of people there and i was in full analytical mode. I analyzed a lot of things and hypothesized a lot of things.....i also noticed a couple things with me that is a bit discerning. Now the small dillema is do i expand on this topic, or do i leave it as is.......i leave it as is.....anyways one of the more notables that showed up is Aaron, our lab TA. I won't lie, i was a little weirded out at first just cuz the whole year, he has been an authoratative figure so it was a little hard to remove tha stigma from him. Anyways it was more or less a cool party. I was a bit out of it for my own reasons.

Random Things....

-this blog was supposed to be a lot longer than it actually ended up being......i'll try later i guess i'm not sure how i want to word things...