Dust it off, and Brush off your shoulders

Song Of The Day- Edwin McCain - I'll Be
Currently Feeling- Nostalgic


Now we have reached the point where there is only 2 weeks left in school, and it only seems fitting to look back and reflect upon myself and other ruminations that have gone on in my head. It's weird, it seems like years ago, when we were at Cactus, eating at the circular table, going through the same routine day in and day out. I always feel nostalgic about it, because for me those were some good times. But times change and the I must the present, although a lot more difficult, has it's kicks too.

Ok so lets start with how much people would believe me 2 years ago or even one year ago that I would be considerable good friends with Paul? God that whole thing in high school seemed so trivial now that when i look at it now, i would have had a lot more fun if that grudge had never existed.

Unfortunately i can not say that every friendship has been improved from the days of yore. Another question could be asked of how many of you would believe that Tawni and me dont talk more than half of what we used to 2 years or even one year ago? For me, that is one of a few things that i deeply regret changing. It's not to say that we are no longer friends, I truly believe that if i really needed her, she would be there for me, much like i would always be there for her. But what has changed is i guess the lines of communication. Don't ask me how it happened but it did. And despite numerous attempts to revert things to the way they were, I've come to realize that if they do, it will happen naturally, and for that I have taken the stance that i will act with her how i would normally act with her back in the day and that is all i can do. And if things returned to normal, that's great, and if not I'll be saddened but a friendship will always be better than none.

Another Ying/Yang effect can also be noticed between Jason and Steph. I remember in high school after finding out about Jasons decision to go to the Air Force academy, there were a lot of concerns about friendships with him. I mean so far away, and were all starting a fresh new chapter in our lives that who knows what was going to change. Luckily we still keep in good contact and seem pretty aware on what's going on in each others lives (at least when I blog). Nonetheless it's not quite the same as having Jason here, cuz he is my bro, someone i could depend on to talk to and take advice from.

My friendship with Steph has gotten stronger on the fact that i think we both know where we are coming from and understand each other. Our goals in school are very similar and she's always there to push me to be more assertive. lol....and it was obvious and still is how much she misses jason and that connection has strengthened our friendship as well. She's someone I know will always give it to me straight, a rarity sometimes in a friendship.

One of the more surprising friendship...or shall i say friendships that i have formed have been between the group i've aptly deemed "the girls". It's crazy because looking back on my blog their old nickname was "the dream team" due to their vastly superior intelligence. Each of them are very unique and refreshing to hang out with. There is Sarah, who is the reasonable one in the group. She is the only one in the group who knows what i'm talking about when i begin rambling about some weird knowledge. I'm always surprised because i think that no one knows what the fuck i'm talking about and Sarah will chime in with some info that corralates to what i just said. Clarice appears to be the badass in the group although once u know her, there lies a more sensitive side to her. I always enjoy having conversations with her on the way to my indiv class because it's always something different. As i speak i'm even brushing off my bow and arrows, and well as tightening up my diaper to once again play the role of Cupid (at least a supporting character). Her ability to show no fear impresses me enormously and backs up her status as a badass (at least in my book). Michelle i would deem the goofy one. She always has the most interesting (and sometimes random) things to say. It's rather enjoyable though, especially when she starts and it seems periods no longer have meanings.....lol....i especially enjoy it when im on the phone with her and we'll go from one topic to a completely different topic and i won't realize how we got there. But whenever i do have a phone conversation with her it seems like time flies by uber quick. Finally, last but certainly not least we have 4ft Aditi....lol j/k.....Aditi to me is probably one of the most well rounded people i have ever met. I mean i often find myself wondering what doesn't she do. I mean if it weren't for my sister, i could state with complete confidence that she is the smartest person i know. That would be good enough for most people, but to top it off she's a dancer, and she's an uber fun person to talk to. She's always up for trying new things (like food) which is cool. Also she seems to enjoy stuff that i opt to do though most people would find it a little odd (i.e. going to the graveyard, going to the thinking spot). Although i haven't convinced her to go to the Modern Languages building with me at night. I really believe that Aditi as well as all the other girls will be a very nice catch for any guy and any guy to pick them up i would have to say they are quite lucky.

Frank.....Franklin Fibbs.....Mr. Bato.....lol I've seen his progression as a person as this year has dragged on. School started off extremely rough for him and he fell upon hard times. But something i thought was an extemely nice thing about our "clique" was that we were all there for him to make sure he stayed on the right path. In ways he was extremely to have friends like us...especially me...lol j/k.....but i'm honest when i say that because we never just let him be but we showed him that we all cared and he has shown extreme strides. A big part of that must be because of his new girl Shannon. She has had a very good impact on him and plus it sheds away some of his "i am man" persona. I must say that i am proud of Frank because i think he has found his equilibrium in terms of responsibilities.

Hmmm so i guess since i wrote about everyone else it's only fitting that i also include myself in this tirade.......For me this year has been an eye opener for me in many aspects of the phrase. I've learned that unlike high school i can't just half ass it and get straight A's. Although I may have been a little late to turn up the juice, i know that given the opportunity next semester, i have to keep the eye on the prize. Girls, as much as i hate to say it, I have yet to find take life by the horns and make stuff happen. I know that i have to take the intiative and I hope one day i will. I'm in no rush because if there is one thing that hasn't changed, it's my desire not to just go into meaningless relationship but to get into a relationship where the girl will mean a lot to me and vice versa. Emotionally there have been things that have gotten me down and there have been things (and still are) that have got me really down. As much as i want to take control of the situation, in some cases i can not do anything but rather deal with them if or when they arrive. In school, i've also become very grateful in everything that has been given to me. My parents working so hard, the genes that they supplied me with (they could have distributed it a little more evenly though). One day i hope I can become a parent as selfless and caring as my parents, especially my mom. Although i've taken some of the things that she has done for the family for granted, the time away from home has made me realize such things and one of the new goals that i strive for is the ability to put that much effort into my family one day and give them the same advantages that my mom worked so hard to give my sisters and me.

Well i have a chem lab final tomorrow so i'll cut myself off there and thus ends my end of school tirade.....i hope you enjoyed

The weekend

Song Of The Day- Rob Thomas - Lonely No More
Currently Feeling- Good


Well this weekend was pretty fun although i'm a little tired. Fri, I played some ball with jason and these two random guys, pretty good time but i forgot about my experiment that i had to go to. Jason and me also created a recreation of the NBA playoffs and we played some games. Then as night fell, i went out to dinner with the girls and botcher. We went to Olive Garden which was good. I had Sarah pick out something for me and she picked out something really good so whenever i go there i will always get their manicotti. Anyways it was chill at dinner just talking and i also told them off my dream. I felt bad for botcher cuz this is the fourth time he had to hear it. For those of you wondering here is my dream:

So my dream started out with Sarah, Michelle, Aditi, Clarice, and me building a time machine for our research project for chemistry. However we messed up and instead it brought us to a parallel universe. When we got there, we soon figured it out and began finding our friends to find a way back. It turns out that the world became enslaved a la I Robot (and not the matrix). In front of every house and street light was a pole that monitored us and informed the robots of any trouble. So as we talked to them they became very excited to see us because apparently Michelle, Frank, and me were destined to save them. The reason they believed this was because in the robot fortress, no human had ever gained entry yet on the wall, there is an inscription that says the names "Michelle "freakin" Kem, James "ready set" go, and Frank Gaber the IV." The robots believing this to be a prophecy, set out and killed the alternate universe forms of Michelle and me, yet frank was able to survive by going into hiding under the name "Mr. Bato"(hahahahahahahaha). Anways we meet up with Paul who in the alternate universe is one of the main resistance leaders with his house at the base. He has loaded up on weapons and pimped out cars. Anyways we go to a lot of people, John was one of the people who didn't want to cross the robots for fear of his life, Adam was very gung ho about it, however he was killed in a trap because we had gotten betrayed by a mexican guy. The thing about my dream is that everyone was there, and everyone acted like they would in real life (ex being: Frank trying to be a bad ass, Paul and steph trying to take lead but always arguing, me and the girls doing a research project, adam being goofy). Anyways we had finally came up with a plan to attack the robots, and we all met up at Paul's house for the attack. We had three leaders: Paul, Steph, and me. Paul headed up the Toyota Supra TT with Botcher, and possibly although i don't exactly remember Clarice, Tawni, and Joel. Steph headed up the Escalade with Aditi and possibly Jason, Botcher, and a bunch of other people. I headed up the car with Michelle, Frank, and Sarah. Anyways the robot fortress was at none other than Fry's electronics on thunderbird so we were sprinting on thunderbird. Unfortunately the robots figured out our attack and sent robot helicopters and cars at us. The first car shot down was steph's escalade which blew up instantly after the robots shot the gas tank. After a while we stopped at Taco Bell (i don't know why but according to paul it couldn't have been his idea) and we drove through the drive thru and just as we pulled out paul's tire got shot out and he flipped and blew up. All that remained was my car and we barely made it to the fortress. We made it and made it thru the first few levels until we faced the mechanical dragon. Sarah got killed distracting it but we were able to kill it. After that we put the virus in the mainframe and then it turns out they had the machine to allow us to go back to our universe. Before we did however, we inscribed our names into the wall, "michelle "freaking" kem, James "ready set" go, and Frank gaber the IV"...........

That was my dream......lol i dare anyone to interpret that dream. Anyways after that we called up Paul and told him to meet us up at the putt putt place. We go back to campus to pic up a camera, and then we head over. We played mini golf which was really fun. Paul and me were a little competitive at first . but we ended the night fucking around. lol ya it was pretyt hectic with so much people playing golf. Afterwards we made our weekly trip to Walmart and bought stuff. We then piled up in paul's car to go to Whataburger to get tawni and coworkers some food. We went to the hospital to sing happy b-day to her coworker, then we went to wendy's to try to order food. Paul and me bet that wendy's was closed and i was right so i won food. Anyways we ended up going to carl's jr and paul wanted me to hit on the drive thru girl, i thought about it but i didnt. So we then came back and we watch Old School then i drove eveyrone home.

Sat i had a meeting with my chem lab group. I was there for four hours. After that i did somemore homework, then steph invited me to go to applebees with the girls minus michelle but plus Tawni so i went bringing along mr. bato and then afterwards they went to watch sin city but clarice and me went to the house with steph and paul. We watched enemy at the gates but i left cuz i needed sleep. I guess the girls came back with tawni's friend from work and they were up drinking til 5 so good thing i went home when i did.

Today has been tiring a little but laid back. I helped michelle with her comp then talked to her on the phone for a while. I then went to wendys then the house. After that i went to my sis' apt to do some homework and hang out with her and her cats. After that i went home and watchd the games while studying. The suns played and we beat them so yes were 1-0 in round one.

Random things.....
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Drawing the Line

Song Of The Day- Gwen Stefani - Hollaback Girl
Currently Feeling- Tired
This Day In History- 2yrs ago - I bought the tickets to the journey/reo speedwagon/Styx concert. Jeff continued on his assault to bring tawni and me together. 1yr ago- Didnt blog for a long while.

OK so it's been a very stressful week....so i decided to go to phoenix to relax and for frank so he could be with his girl. So frank, john, botcher, and me drove down. Fri night we drank at Jason's bro's house and did everyone get plastered. Frank got to drive my car around.

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Spring Fling '05

Song Of The Day- Akon - Lonely
Currently Feeling- I don't know

Well this weekend has been fun, very long but very fun. So lets start off with Thurs. After bio Marty and Paul were supposed to come over and play poker but unfortunately the game got cancelled so instead of I went to the house to help steph study. I got there and i guess Paul was trying to get this girl from his work to go to the spring fling with her and Marty was talking to me about how Paul was doing it all wrong....lol pretty funny...anyways so went back inside the house and I helped steph a little while getting my ass handed to me at Tekken 5. Afterwards we played poker between Marty, Paul, and me and Marty ended up winning. Afterwards we went to Super Wal-Mart to buy a poker table. Unfortunately they did not have it for sale, so we went to the other Wal-Mart to look for it. They had it but it was not on sale so we did not buy it. So we were wandering around wal mart trying to decide what to do for the rest of the night. We ended up going to the fun center at Wal Mart which is only 3 claw games and 2 shooter games and a basketball game. I don't know but we spent like 5 dollars worth of coins. Pretty useless but it was funny. Afterwards we went back to the house and ended up playing another game of poker where i won this time. After winning i called it a night and went home.

Fri
Well i ended up chilling for a while. I had lunch with El Steph and Frank and then i helped Steph study for her chem. After that i played some basketball with Jason and friends then took a nap. Michelle and the girls were going to the spring fling but Adam didn't come yet so i declined. Finally Adam came and we hung out around the dorm for a while before partying up with John and Botcher and going out to dinner. We got some alcohol before hand though. I called up the girls and we met up with them. Lol it was funny Adam tried to get botcher to get on this motorcycle and pretend to ride it. he was going to do it too but Adam got greedy and didn't want to spend the money but just as they would have made the bet, the owner of the bike, a huge ass biker came out....lol that would have been so funny. Anyways we ate dinner at El Paso and for Adam's b-day i paid for his dinner. After dinner we went back to my dorm so John could get his cigar and then we picked up Frank. We went to the house along with the girls but we first stopped at the store to guy some stuff to mix Vodka with. Steph called and told us to hurry our asses cuz she wanted to drink too. So we all came back and we started drinking and hanging out....lol pretty funny Adam and Botcher were fucked up. I was worried about frank though cuz he was really depressed. Anyways i had one vodkarade (vodka + gatorade) and 2 amber bochs (spelling?). Ya so then we went to IHOP and it was funny Adam was saying the stupidest stuff and Botcher got yelled at by the waitress because he tried to order from the senior menu. Anyways after that Michelle drove the two drunks and me to get adams stuff. We dropped off Botcher and then we went back to the house and then the girls left and we all crashed for the night.

Sat
I woke up and Frank, Paul, and me went to Home Depot to get some bricks. We fit in about 80 in my MDX and the rest in the WRX. Afterwards we lugged them into the backyard then we went to the car wash to get our cars vacuumed. Then we went to Burger King which was Paul's treat. After that i got some food for adam and went back to campus. We called John and Botcher over and we went to the rec with jason's friends to play some b-ball. We lost against his friends but i got my toe stepped on by this huge guy and got elbowed on top of it. Afterwards we chilled and i cleaned my room. Adam and Botcher left and i went to the house. Vicky arrived and with tawni, frank and aditi we went to dinner at nothing but noodles cuz paul was working. We then went back to the house and back to noodles cuz tawni forgot her keys. After that we went to the house again and frank passed out so we left him and we went to Spring Fling. But before we could do that we had to look for a bank which ate up a lot of gas and time. We then parked at the fair and we got our tickets. We took a lot of pictures and they bought a lot of food. Aditi and me then went on this one ride where they lift us in the air and then drop us like no other which was pretty fun. Then they bought more food and then we went on the scary ride. It was one of those rides where u go through a haunted house. I went with aditi and we were laughing the whole way.....lol.....afterwards we got even more food and then we just chilled around the fair before going back to the house. I felt bad because Vicky was feeling under the weather. So we got to the house and i started drinking a little but then the lack of sleep from the night before got the better of me and i passed out for a while before paul woke me up. Paul was drunk as fuck and started hitting on the girls which was funny. We had to make sure he didn't do anything too bad. Afterwards paul just started playing video games and then frank and me got some food. We talked a little and then when we came back paul passed out in front of the tv. So we ate the food and then i couldn't sleep so we were just on the computers. Finally i fell asleep around 4

Sun
I woke up and took frank to work and then started my homework. I then chatted online with Michelle for a while before going to my bio TA's house....lol i don't know if i ever mentioned it earlier but he's a pretty weird guy but cool. So i got to his house and he's got the ET contamination like tent. He showed me around his garden which includes poison ivy and the most painful plant in the world which he's got growing in the front yard (the plant is from australia for those wondering). Anyways he gave me the materials i needed and then i left and went to the house cuz i had to look something up. I talked to Vicky and she wanted to move beds last nite but i was on the spare bed. the funny thing is she thought i was frank so i got a good laugh out of that. After that i went back to the dorm and did more homework. I then went to Clarice's dorm to help her fix her computer and Michelle dropped by to say what's up. Then i went to the highland market but nothing appealed to me so i started heading to the union. I bumped into Michelle and she joined me and we called botcher to join. We ate at Mickie D's and reminisced about the weekend and botcher trying to order from the senior menu. After that i went back to my dorm and did more reading and ya that's about my weekend.

Random Things......

I'm trying extremely hard not to think about some things because i know if i do i will get completely off track and i don't want to do that. and plus i just dont want to think about it.

Ya i've been hanging out with a lot of girls lately....i'm not going to complain though......and plus were all really acidic.....lol

pictures will be up on my photoalbum which i will post up later

A Weekend With the Girls

Scary Aditi

So the weekend has come and gone yet again. Lets see Fri night I played some basketball with the guys over at Stadium. I was an impressive 5-13 from downtown. Afterwards i took a shower and picked up the girls at AZSO and then went over to the house and picked up steph cuz she got time off work. We went back to the dorm because i forgot my coupon for free pillows so aditi and michelle took showers while steph and me chilled in the room. We then picked everyone up and we went to the mall to look for my shoestrings. Then steph got some stuff for her mom and they looked at clothes and what not. Afterwards we went to Red Lobster and just talked and chilled, it was fun. After that we went to the house and i played some Tekken 5 and drank a little with Frank. We then went to Wendy's for frank and then Circle K for ICEE's. We ended up getting home sometime around 3.

Sat I woke up at 9 because i had to do chem lab stuff. I ended up in the ILC til 4.......it sucked but what can ya do? Afterwards I played some basketball before getting dressed and went out to dinner with the girls and Botch. We went to Caruso's and ate outside it was really nice. After that we went to Aditi's dorm to look for times for Sin City. However we decided instead to rent a movie, so we got Without a paddle and then we went to the store and i bought 4 boxes of Reces Puffs and then 2 boxes of water and cheesecake......lol so we went back to aditi's room and we tried to thaw the cheesecake but we ended up melting it......how sad....but we still remolded it and ate it......ya it was plenty fun sitting around in a circle eating cheesecake with forks...haha fun times...

Anyways today i havent' felt good but i went to church with sarah then i took a 5 hr nap and did my paper......wow how exciting...sorry i'm not very descriptive right now i have a lab to do but i'll blog tomorrow with more in depth writing about me and my feelings cuz i think i may actually have something to write about with them.