Always Something There To Remind Me

Song Of The Day - Keyshia Cole - I Remember

Currently Feeling - Nostalgic

Hmmm so where to begin this post.....I guess i can start by how my day went. I had my psychology class at 9 this morning. This is the "mind, brain, computer" class that i originally thought was going to be interesting especially due to the computer part of the title. Sadly it seems there is little to no mention of computers in the class now and is pretty much just a regular psychology class. I have this class with Jason and Angie....Angie for those who don't know is a UA cheerleader and engaged to some guy who she's been dating since high school. She is a pretty cool person although i don't know her too well. Jason is of course botch, funny story i didn't know i had this class with jason (or my other psychology class i'll mention later) we just kind of bumped into each other in the building and discovered we have the same class together. Anywho the class itself is pretty boring and not worth noting other than the fact that our TA looks like Moby....My next class is also a psychology class which i have with jason and Liana. Liana is Galen's girlfriend, i believe i first met her at an asian party back when i hung out with Kim alot. She is uber cool and i typically eat lunch with Galen and Liana on M/W/F's haha....But ya today i didn't eat lunch with them nor did i go to my sociology class. Instead I opted to go home and veg out. I got a hold of the jason the jew to see if he wanted to play basketball but he had to fix his phone so instead i took a nap, followed by a couple of games of nba live.

At night, i went over to me'shell and deeds apartment because we were going to play basketball. It ended up being the mexicans (adam and michael bastidas) vs the asians (meshell, deeds, and me). Lol we lost but i can gladly say that i think i've gotten used to playing basketball with my contacts on. I played basketball with my contacts on for the first time last week and i stunk it up bad. Not to say that i was pulling a kobe tonite but at least i was hitting my shots or at were close. Afterwards we all went home and showered and deeds, adam, meshell, and me went to BJ's for a late dinner. We chilled there for awhile before all going our separate ways. I went home and threw on Rush hour 3 on blu ray.....let me say this i upgraded my TV from a 720P 46 inch tv to a 1080p 61 inch tv and the difference is astronomical. The next path of upgraditis will eventually be a new HDMI compliant reciever and then maybe swap out my speakers for new ones. The problem is our economy is in a recession so times are tight...haha j/k...

Anyways the plan for tomorrow is......don't have one, i have to pull somemore weeds, then write a couple lab reports. Then after that whatever comes up i suppose.

Random Things....


- So i said in my last blog that i would write about anything going on romantically....well sadly there isn't much to say. As jase witnessed, there are plenty of pretty girls all over campus, it's hard not to see one anywhere you go. But anyone who knows me knows i'm a big believer in the "spark". Therein lies a problem with this ideal, in order for me to have this spark, i typically have to talk to them first and in my major there aren't much opportunities for that. Yes i could try to randomly strike up a conversation with someone but if you really know me, then you know that isn't my strong point either. With that said, i wouldn't say there is no one i'm interested in but the identity of said person isn't likely going to be mentioned anytime soon.

- The other thing i said i'd write about was about a topic that Jase and Adam love to egg me on about.....After deliberation i'm opting not to talk about it so sorry haha.....

- I've always been known as "cupid" (or at least self proclaimed) but lately that title has given me some perspective on myself. Specifically the fact that i didn't take my own advice. One was after a certain point and time, you shouldn't be afraid to show her how you really feel. The second thing is if it's important to her it should be important to you regardless of how small it may be.

- To end my blog, I will tell you about a really weird occurrence that happened to me today. I was driving to Mcdonalds for lunch today when I heard on the radio "Jason Mraz - I'm Yours". The song always brings back memories to me as whenever i hear it i usually get a butterfly in my stomach feeling from way back in the day. But anyways afterwards i changed the station and heard "Plain White T's - Hey there Delilah" and i thought that was pretty odd. I went home and turned on the tv and saw a trailer for "my sassy girl". That was pretty freaky for me as the Jason Mraz song was Kim's favorite song. I remember her friends Mark and Eileen made her a music video that was really sweet. The plain white T's song has significance because i remember when i first started talking to her, she was going to the plain white T's concert and i remember trying to call her and forgetting that she was there. Finally the last and definately weirdest was the my sassy girl trailer. Essentially it's a korean movie that is being remade american style (sigh). Anyways we watched the movie which was definately different but interesting. but ya ok enough of that i suppose.......

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Song of the Day – Webbie – INDEPENDENT

Currently Feeling – Sad    

 

Well I'm bad…..I don't know how long I can keep it up but nonetheless, whoever reads it should enjoy it. I know it's sad to see how much I used to write and how much I write now but I guess that's the consequence of life. Nothing ever really stays the same for long. And I know it goes against what I've always said but people definitely change including myself. I guess its part of growing up, but it's still strange for me to look back and see the person someone used to be and the person they are now. I'm not talking about anyone in general but rather it's just a general observation. As you grow up you realize that the some of the people you considered close with, now have become almost strangers. It's just priorities; I remember in high school, it seemed nothing else really mattered but your social life with your friends. Now however, you have to worry about homework, studying (ya I'm going to list them separately), bills, things that need to be done around the house, etc……….it all leaves little time to much else. I guess I can even use myself as an example. Mondays-Thursdays I'm typically in class from 8/9-9 at night. Now I have a couple of breaks sprinkled in here or there but for the most part I'll stay on campus because I have things to do on campus. So I come home at 9ish, and typically I need to have a little downtime for myself to unwind and hang out with Tonka. Then more than likely I'll have a lab report or two to write so there goes more time. Anyways the point I'm trying to make is typically there isn't much time during the weekday to socialize outside of school. So where does that lead me, well since I'm in lab majority of the day, I form strong bonds with those I lab with or who are in the chemistry department. Then I talk to those who try to contact me on a semi-typical basis that primarily includes Adam, Jase, and Jason the Jew. So where exactly does that leave everyone else? Well there are those who I still manage to keep in contact with through association of other friends and there are friends who I try to hang out with on the weekends if I don't' see them through the week. Unfortunately there are some who I don't keep in contact with and as a result, they slowly fade away from sight. A side not, but rather important one is there are exceptions to this rule. I remember last semester when I hung out with Kim a lot, we would hang out pretty much every night til 3AM haha….ya she was top priority and school was second, that's why I would do my homework after she left and didn't hang out with anyone last semester lol!

 

While we're on the subject of Kim……I know that I left pretty much everyone out of the loop and for the most part that isn't going to change. But I will say that although I don't view her as "the one that got away", I do miss her, some days more than others. Especially today for some reason, I dunno there was no real trigger; it's just a relapse or something. Anywho I've tried to hang out with her a couple times but was both busy people and unless it's planned out in advance, it typically won't happen. But I would hope for in the future being able to hang out with her on a more consistent basis.

 

The last "friend" topic I want to bring up is the topic of "using someone". It's a huge pet peeve of mine if I feel like someone is "using me" or if I feel like someone may get the impression that I'm "using them". I'm always very conscious about portraying the image that I'm using someone, it's something I despise. It's actually prolly a bad thing because I'm really hesitant to ask for a favor from someone unless it's someone I feel really comfortable with. I would actually think that it's a good barometer of how much of a friend I consider you. On the flip side, I also hate it when I feel like someone is using me. Initially I'm a very hospitable person I think and I don't mind if someone asks me to do something for them. However the problem for me lies when I only hear from them when they need something. Or they will call to see how I'm doing then the next day asks for the favor. It really bugs me and questions the friendship. For instance there is someone who consistently calls when they need something from me and that's pretty much the only time I hear from them. I've even given them the benefit of the doubt and have made an effort to try and hang out with them with little luck. And for me, I've reach a point where if it continues I'm just going to cut ties with them which sucks because I enjoy hanging out with the person.

 

So before I close out, I guess I should update on how I'm doing…….tired……like I wrote earlier my days are long and I have little time to myself on the weekdays. I'll write more about it later in addition to a few things I've left out including my love life (or lack there of) and a topic that Jase and Adam think they know so much about…..haha