Just got back from driving around with my friend. He tried his best to cheer me up but it didn't work. I'm still where I am right now emotionally. I've tired everything that usually cheers me up but nothing worked. This is rock bottom where I am, I'm only here physically but I feel like my spirit has been killed off. Even writing in this blog is not having an effect. In fact it probably has the opposite effect on me making me worse off than I am. I may take a break from my blog depending on how I feel. So I'll end it there....oh but one other thing.....Ashby does know about it, Christie told him...oh yeah I heard this song by Kansas- Dust in the Wind...everytime I hear the song I feel like crying....