Journal Setting Saguaro Ranch

Song Of The Day - Blink 182 - Miss You
Currently Feeling- Fine Yet Far From It
This Day In History- I wrote a rough draft for a poem I wrote because I felt like writing one. It may not be my best but out of any I've written in a while, it was probably the most meaningful.

The Person
By James

No longer the person I once was
I look back to the past before her
The person I used to be I no longer recognize
The person I was a few months ago
Feels like an eternity
No heartache, no depression, no second guesses in my mind
I thought with a clear head, not a cloud there to find
But that was then and this is now
My mind has been turned into a labyrinth
One path leads to another, then another back to square one
Every night I sleep confused and wondering
Why am I the person I am now and not my former self?
She has become an unattainable treasure
A dream that can never come to be
But I cannot find the heart to move on
Although I don’t have the strength to take the punishment
Yet with all my problems and questions that stem from her
I would rather still have met her and be miserable
Then return to the old ways not knowing who she was


Well today was an alright day. I felt the incredible urge to go write in my journal because I felt as if I needed to say something that is bothering me. I dunno it's kinda weird right now things are going fine, nothing bad has really happened and everything but at the same time something is not fine. I felt that I really needed to write about it and I also needed to not be disturbed so i went to Saguaro Ranch and I wrote about 3-4 pages and spent about an hour and a half over there. I haven't done that in forever. Anyways I wanted to repeat one of the last lines in the journal slightly edited......I have learned that a best friend isn't defined by how much time you hang out with someone or how much time you spend talking to someone but rather it's measured by how much you care for that person regardless of the situation.

Anyways yeah so I wrote for a while and i should probably get crackin on some homework and what not so I bid you adieu.